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A/N: DMC spoilers. Random idea that wouldn't go away.
I'm not sorry.
That's what I told him, and he just smiled and seemed to accept. As though I had done what he knew I always would do.
As though he'd expected it. As though he would have been disappointed if I didn't.
I had watched him run and called him a coward. Then I'd thought him a good man when he returned to fire that last shot.
So what does this make me? When I leave behind a legacy of pain and betrayal?
A viper. A snake that leaves a kiss and a foul poison behind.
I was good once. I'm sure of that. And then this… I've become a viper. A traitor.
To Jack. My captain. And more. But what more? Even my heart cannot tell. The compass spun to him and to Will so often I could never be sure. That rogue both repulsed my heart and held it, drawing me and pushing me away. But the fire on his kiss warmed me like nothing I'd ever known. And the pain and acceptance in his eyes was a twisting dagger in my heart.
To Will. My love and my life. If he were to have known what I did, I'm sure he would never forgive me. He would not be able to understand. If Will knew… it would break his heart. I would lose him. As it is, I feel I've lost him already. For now whenever I close my eyes, I don't see the face of my husband, but sad brown eyes ringed with kohl and a smile that shines pained but golden.
The crew. They believe that - finally - their captain became a good man, an honest man. They believe that he chose to go down with his beloved Pearl out of respect for them. Out of a desire to see the crew safe to shore.
But Jack is not honest; he is betrayed. By me.
Jack, Will and the crew are not all I have betrayed. In this… I have also betrayed myself.
My heart was tied fast before all this. I was sure of my course, sure of my heading and my goal. But now all is confusion. I lead one man to his death; I've let my true love be usurped; I've made a pirate look a hero.
And in all this… I've become a viper. I betrayed myself.
I gave Jack Sparrow a Judas Kiss. And I've betrayed us all.
And I am sorry.
