Sheldon Cooper was in hell. A new kind of hell. A hell full of pleasurable torture that would surely ruin him. He was sitting on the bed, leaning against the headboard, and Amy was sitting on his lap. He hadn't anticipated there would be any inconvenience. But there was.
It had started quite innocently. He had asked her to kiss her and for a moment he could see the nervousness in her eyes, but when he was about to take it back what he said, she whispered to him that she wanted to kiss him.
They had started to kiss, just a touch of their lips like when they had just started kissing almost two years ago, but Sheldon had quickly decided to intensify their kisses, the way he had wanted to do for months so their mouths moved together, hot and humid. She slid her tongue over his lower lip and he groaned, allowing her tongue to slide against his. He cupped her hip with one hand as he deepened the kiss. He broke away to catch his breath as he tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.
"I think we should stop," Amy said, still breathing heavily and her hands on Sheldon's chest.
She couldn't believe how they had gone from a little kiss by the door to making out on Sheldon's bed, with her on top of Sheldon. She wanted to pinch herself because surely this was all a dream. Maybe if she closed her eyes, when she opened them she would be by the door and Sheldon would tell her to get out of it.
But when she opened her eyes she was still in the same position and Sheldon was leaning towards her to give her another short kiss.
"Yes, we should stop," he agreed although he didn't seem to have any intention to move from the position he was in. Finally, after a few seconds, she got off the bed and he had no choice but to do the same.
"So…" Amy adjusted her clothes. Never in her wildest dreams did she think this would happen after everything that had happened between them. But here they were. "We must clarify everything between us. I know you have a lot of questions and after this- I point to the bed- I have a lot of questions too. "
"Yes, it seems to be the right thing" he was going to sit on the edge of the bed when Amy's hand on her arm made him turn to see her "Is something wrong?"
"We should…I think it would be better if we go back to the living room. "
"Okay," Sheldon opened the door for her room and let her out first. Arriving in the living room she sat back down on the white sofa as she had done when she got to the apartment, "Why don't you sit here?" He patted the space next to him.
"I don't feel ready to sit next to you"
"Amy, I really don't understand what's going on" Sheldon frowned "You say you're not ready to sit next to me, but a few minutes ago you were sitting on me" she was surprised that he mentioned that without blushing because she could feel that she had blushed.
"I don't understand what's going on either," she said, standing up and walking towards the kitchen, exactly as she had done the night of their breakup.
This whole thing seemed like deja vu for Sheldon. One moment they were kissing and everything was fine between them and the next moment he didn't understand what was wrong, nor why she was walking away from him.
"Amy, this is exactly like that night, I don't know what's wrong and…" he stood up "I'm afraid to say something that will make you feel furious and leave again" he approached her and took her by the hand to take her towards the white sofa "I want to fix things between us, so please explain to me if I did something wrong."
"Sheldon, this is all too much" Amy wanted to get up and walk away again "I'm serious when I say I don't understand what's going on."
"What you do not understand?"
"I don't understand how it is that we went from barely kissing on that sofa the last time I was here while you thought of everything except me, to what we did in your room without you…"
"I always think of you," Sheldon interrupted while she had continued speaking.
"What?"
"I'm always thinking of you," he repeated, "I think of you all the time. In what you will be doing, if you will be working, watching TV, reading. I think about how your hair smells, how you'll look just woken up. I think of your hands when you touched me and your lips and how much I like to kiss them.
Amy gasped and sighed "Sheldon, we said we wouldn't lie."
"I'm not lying."
"Do you always think of me?" She knew Sheldon very well and she knew he didn't like it when anyone repeated something he had just said so he was surprised to see him nod instead of complaining "It didn't seem like you were thinking of me the night of our anniversary. "
"I know you don't have a memory like me so you may not remember that I told you I was thinking of you. "
"No, what you said was that you didn't know if you should start watching Flash and that you thought to ask me" she stood up because she knew that if she kept looking at him she would start crying "In the middle of our kissing session. All I was thinking about was that I wanted to keep kissing and you were thinking about some stupid TV show. "
"Amy, I also wanted to keep kissing you" he also stood up, doubtful if he should approach her or not "I even tried to kiss you again, but you rejected me. "
"Because at that moment I realized that you only did it because the relationship agreement forced you and as much as I loved you, I didn't want you to kiss me out of obligation, but because you wanted it. "
"I wanted it, I wanted it so much it scared me. That's why I had to think about a lot of things every time we kissed to avoid that... "
"Avoid what?" Amy had an idea what Sheldon was talking about but she needed to hear it.
"You know what I mean. "
"You have to say it. "
"Avoid a boner," he commented, not daring to look at her. "After the night we had our sleepover, I started wanting to do more than just kiss, but I wasn't ready. You had waited a long time for me and I wanted to investigate enough to be able to please you... sexually-his cheeks heated up when he said that but he still continued- But that night it was as if a beast woke up inside me and every time I saw you I could only think kissing you and touching you so I was trying to think of equations and a lot of things. At first it worked, but it became more and more difficult.
"Sheldon you know that I had never had coitus before so even if you had been bad in bed I would have no way of knowing. "
"Maybe, but I was determined that the first time we made love I had to rock your world. So the night of our anniversary I had decided I was ready. I was ready to make love to you and I even thought about…-he was going to say something else but suddenly he fell silent.
Amy didn't know what to feel. All she had wished for that night after her argument was for Sheldon to want a little more. And now months later, she found out that he wanted more than a little more.
"I didn't want to make you cry," he said, seeing how the tears slipped down his cheek. He hurried over to where he had a box of tissues to hand one to Amy.
"Why didn't you tell me all this before? "
"I wanted to do it but you asked for a time and then you broke up with me.
"I broke up with you because... "
"Now I know that the way I behaved when we broke up was not appropriate and I regret that. I ruined everything in my attempt to get you back. "
"If you wanted to get me back" Sheldon could hear the pain in her voice "Why did you reject me when I tried to get back with you?"
"I didn't want to make you suffer and I didn't want to suffer. At that moment I thought that he had not been a good boyfriend and that it was the best for both of us. But I was wrong. All I want is for you to be my girlfriend again".
"I want that too" she said smiling.
"That's good, because I love you and I really want to kiss you. "
"I love you too and I want you to kiss me, but we still have something to talk about. You say you screwed up everything, but so did I. I should have given you the opportunity to explain from the beginning and instead I treated you badly, and lied to you about Dave with the intention of making you suffer" Amy started crying again "Forgive me. "
"Oh Amy" Sheldon approached her and took her in his arms "When I found out about your boyfriend I felt bad when I realized that I had lost you, but I hoped that you would be happy with him and I was glad that we were friends. I thought that was better than not seeing you at all, but when you mentioned going to the cabin… all I could think about was everything you and he could have done while you were alone there. I went crazy imagining him touching you. I couldn't bear to think about it and that's why I acted bad when you came earlier. "
"Sheldon, really" she tried to separate from Sheldon to look at him but he didn't let her go "I'm sorry. "
"I have nothing to forgive you, Amy. We were both fools and we made mistakes. "
"Yes, we were."
"But now…are we together again?"
"Yes" she answered with a smile "And I swear that the only thing that happened between Dave and me was... a few kisses" she saw him bite his lip "And all I could think about was how much I wanted you to be the one kissing me."
"It's okay… you were single and you could kiss whoever you wanted."
"Even so…"
"Amy, as much as I like to hear you talk, I would rather be kissing you. If you want of course. "
"Of course I want you to kiss me." So he did.
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"Thanks for coming" Amy said when Dave took a seat next to her on the sofa "First of all I must apologize for having answered your messages the last couple of days.
"Don't worry. I remember you mentioned that you were spending the weekend in a cabin in the woods and the signal is terrible there."
"That's right," she confirmed as she thought about how to continue with what she was going to say.
"I hope you had a good weekend there."
"So so"
"Did something wrong happen while you were there? "
"No, everything was fine. The place is beautiful and very quiet, but I did not go to that place to relax. I went there so I could get away from everyone and clear up my feelings for…Sheldon and you. "
"So this is the moment where you tell me that you decided to get back together with Sheldon, right?" Dave said.
"Why…? How did…?" Amy opened her lips to say something else but she saw that Dave was pointing towards her hair, but she noticed it looked the same as always "Is something wrong with my hair?"
"Your hair is fine. I was pointing out the hickey on your neck."
"What hickey?" Amy grabbed her phone that was on the table and used the camera as a mirror to see her neck "Oh…"
Sheldon had led her to the sofa. Ready to kiss her like he should have the night of their anniversary. He had immediately pressed his mouth to her, their tongues sliding together as they each tried to control the kiss. There weren't many places for her to put her hands, but when she grabbed his thigh, he jumped in surprise. Her hand was barely above his knee, but heat flooded his belly and he felt he would harden at any moment.
"Oh dear lord, I'm sorry." he gasped, flushing with embarrassment. "This is what happens when all I think about is you"
They hadn't explicitly set boundaries, too eager to kiss again, but Amy had hesitantly admitted that she wasn't ready to take their relationship any further since they had been together again for only a few minutes. He was fine with that, she'd waited years for him so he'd wait as long as it took, but with no explicit boundaries, he was terrified he'd pass one without knowing it.
"Don't be" she smiled slightly "I know I said I'm not ready for coitus tonight but…. "She settled between his legs and captured his lips once more only to pull away a few seconds later "I'd like to kiss you some more"
Sheldon nodded and they continued kissing for several minutes, secretly he was really enjoying this position. He ran his hands up her legs from her knees, brushing lightly up the sides, before moving one of his hands to cup her cheek and let the other cup her breast. He massaged it gently, sliding her thumb over her nipple, disguised as he was by her blouse and bra. He didn't remember when he had taken off her sweater. He slid his hands down to the edge of her blouse as he dedicated himself to kissing her neck. He was about to lift her blouse when she put a hand over his to stop him.
"I really wish we could continue this," she said. Sheldon had not stopped kissing her neck and she felt that at any moment she would give in. But it wasn't right, at least not yet "I have…I have to talk to Dave before something else happens between us. "
Sheldon immediately stopped kissing her and separated from her to look at her "Why do you have to talk to him?" He suddenly seemed worried "Don't…don't tell me you changed your mind. "
"No! Of course not," she answered, "It's just that the last time I saw him, I…kissed him and I may have given him to understand that perhaps I was ready for something more than friendship" Sheldon frowned upon hearing that but said nothing "And then something happened that made me realize that I could never love him the way I love you. "
"Dave, I'm so sorry. "
"Why do you apologize? "
"The last time you were here I kissed you and now you see me with a hickey on my neck" she covered her face embarrassed "You must think the worst of me. "
Dave gently took her hands to look into her eyes "I don't think badly of you, Amy. I like you and I think we could have something good together, but I knew you hadn't stopped loving Sheldon and I'm sure you'll be happier with him. "
"How can you be so nice after all I did?" Amy was really surprised by the attitude of the man in front of her "Are you really not upset?"
"I assure you not" Dave smiled "I don't know how it happened, but I'm glad you're together and I can tell from the hickey on your neck that things got better between you. "
Amy blushed as she nodded "Dave, you're so amazing and if you want we can still be friends. "
"I would like that" he kept silent for a moment "And as friends, could you do something for me?"
"Whatever you want."
"Well, now that you and I are friends and you're back with Dr. Cooper, could you introduce him to me?
