A/N: VITAL for ALL readers. ARIGATOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOZAIMASU! Yay, chapter 19, finally I'm somewhere near twenty! Took myself long enough! (roll eyes) Oh yeah, this chapter has a (cough)slight(cough)"lemony"(cough) so BE CAREFUL! ESP. THOSE UNDER AGE! I'll put it with a triple line for those who want to skip that part. Sorry if you don't like it cause it has somethin' to do with the whole chapter. Oh, you'll know when you read it. (cough) so continue reading. So many cough, maybe I'm having a flu…(sweatdrop)
Chapter 19: A Soft Heart
A few days later
'Kurama, wake up.' A voice whispered lightly beside him.
Kurama groaned a little, pulling the blanket over his head. He went back to sleep. He felt someone poking his ribs and unexpectedly grabbed the hand and swiftly pinned the body under him.
'Resha? What the hell do you think you are doing in the middle of the night?' Kurama asked, and took his alarm clock on the desk.
'It is 4 in the morning.' Resha hissed.
Kurama glared at her, he did not like to be waked up so early and to be interrupted in his sleep. 'And your point is? It's still too dark.' He pointed crossly.
'The point is, I need your help on something!' she said still in a low voice.
Kurama narrowed his eyes looking down at her, still upset to be interrupted from his slumber. 'Can't it wait tomorrow? When it's more… bright?' he said sarcastically.
"Note to self: Never wake him up in the middle of the night or too early in the morning. He is so grumpy at this hour which is quite scary." Resha thought. 'Please listen first, Kurama.' She pleaded.
Kurama sighed. 'What is it?'
'Well, first of all… can you NOT pin me down under you like this? I fell threaten.'
Kurama blinked, as if he just realized what he was doing. He got off of her and she gave a small sigh and sat cross-legged in front of him. 'Okay. Well, you do know that your mother's birthday is in two days time, ne?'
Kurama nodded.
'And it's my mom's birthday too.' She added.
Kurama nodded again. 'I know that.'
'Well, I have been thinking of buying them something special but there's nothing on my mind. Do you have any idea what they like?' she asked innocently.
Kurama almost exploded. 'You come here in the middle of the night just to ask me that? You could ask me in the morning!' he seethed, shaking her shoulders angrily, releasing his frustration.
'I'm sorry! I just couldn't sleep thinking about it. So I thought you could at least help me.' She flinched.
'Look! Just go to sleep. I'll take you shopping tomorrow for their gifts, okay?' he said halfheartedly.
She was going to protest but stopped and gritted her teeth. 'I'm sorry for bothering you and no thanks!' She said bitterly and got up and out of his room.
Kurama felt a little regret but then shrugged the thoughts off and crawled back to sleep. "She won't be angry for long." He thought, convincing himself before going back to sleep.
'Ohayou, mother.' Kurama said and kissed her cheek before sitting down for breakfast.
'Good morning dear. Eat up before you go to school.' His mother uttered.
'Isn't Resha up yet?' Kurama asked.
'Oh, she's gone to school already. She's quite in a hurry. She didn't even touch her breakfast, just took her bento and left without a word.' His mother replied unworriedly. 'I wonder why she was such in a hurry, maybe she's walking with her friends to school today.'
"I bet she's still angry at you." Youko said suddenly. "You were really a jerk last night."
Kurama was silent.
When he got to school, he went to Resha's class, hoping to make up with her.
'Ohayou sempai, who are you looking for?' It was Kagami and Kazuki, Resha's classmate.
'Ohayou. Err… is Resha there?' Kurama asked.
'No, she's somewhere about. She's been here and there all morning. Wonder what's up with her.' Kagami answered.
Kazuki nodded. 'Yes. She's so busy suddenly, being all over the place. If I don't know better, I say she's up to something.'
'Or maybe running away from something. Who knows! Resha is not a simple person.' Kagami added unnecessarily.
Kurama felt a pang when he said that.
"True. Resha is not a simple person. You shouldn't have wounded her. See now what happens?" Youko lectured.
Just then, the bell rang. Kurama excused himself with a heavy heart.
He tried again over lunch but failed. He went home alone that day and felt really distressed by the time he was home.
'Welcome home, Shuichi dear. How was school today?' his mother smiled.
'Everything was fine. Is Resha home yet?' he asked.
'Yes, but she went out just now. Said something about going to make a research on something.'
The word research made Kurama's eye twitched. She's really angry.
'Do you mind if I go out this evening?' he asked his mother.
'Of course. Just buy me some things. Here, take this list.' She handed him a small grocery list.
After changing and having lunch with his mother, Kurama set out to town. After buying the things his mother wanted and yet again not founding her or even felt her chi, Kurama heaved a big sigh and hoped that she was home already.
It was at dinner time when Resha finally got home.
'How did your research go, dear? Did you found anything?'
Resha looked up and just nodded still eating.
Kurama was silent, not daring to provoke her in front of his mother.
'Yeah, I sorta found what I was looking for.' She grinned at her aunt.
'That's marvelous dear. May I know whatever it is?' her aunt asked.
'Nope! It is a secret.' Resha winked at her aunt and her aunt gave a small chuckle.
Kurama paced about in his room, thinking of what to do. Resha didn't even once glanced at him and he knew instantly that she was still angry. She had gone to her room almost immediately after dinner and warned everyone not to disturb her. He finally took his courage to knock on her door. Just as he was about to knock, his mother walked by.
'Oh no, Shuichi dear. Resha warned us not to disturb her remember?' his mother said.
'Uh, yes. I... forgot.' He answered lamely and went back to his room.
In the middle of the night, Kurama sat up on his bed, unable to sleep. He haven't spoke to Resha at all that day and felt unreasonably incomplete. He got up silently and perked his ears for sounds. He could hear Resha's slow breathing and knew that she was asleep.
"Now I know how it felt like not being able to sleep." He thought sarcastically. At least Youko was asleep also. He crept out of his bedroom and into Resha's room.
'Resha?' he whispered.
Resha stirred and sat up. She blinked a few times and looked around her. She then saw him and her eyes darken, her jaws tightened.
'Look, I'm sorry about last night. I… didn't mean to hurt your feelings. I really hate being woke up in the middle of the night for nothing important…' he stopped when he realized her anger heightened at his bad choice of words and cursed himself mentally. 'I mean, of course it is important, I…'
'Get out.' She said icily.
He felt his stomach twisted painfully when she said that and quickly said, 'Wait, Resha please…'
'Get out before I tell aunt Shiori about this.' She cut him off coldly.
Kurama hugged her suddenly, tightly. He couldn't bear the agony of seeing the way she was looking at him right now. She looked as if she hated him so much…like never before, and he felt his heart ached painfully. 'I'm sorry, I'm sorry, oh Kami-sama(God) please, Resha please forgive me. Please don't look at me that way, I can't bear it.'
'Did you see the way you look at me last night!' she said acidly pushing him off.
He felt a pang of guilt. 'I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to.' His embrace tightened, not wanting to let her go. He suddenly heard a small sob. 'Resha?'
'You shouldn't have said that. You are so cruel…' a tear made its way down her cheek and Kurama kissed it away.
'I'm so sorry Resha. I don't know what else to say to you.' He whispered in her ears, holding her close. He continued to kiss her cheek, her eyes, her forehead, her nose, and finally found its way to claim her parting lips.
The kiss was soft, as if he was scared that he might just hurt her again just by kissing her. Resha felt herself weakening, but somehow it didn't scare her and she kissed him back, pushing him down onto the bed. Kurama didn't seem to notice at all and his kiss deepened hungrily and one his hand made its way under her pajama as the other opened it. Resha moaned in her throat when she felt his hand now on her breast, caressing softly.
'Resha…' Kurama moaned. 'Oh Kami-sama, I wanted to do this for so long.' He murmured lustfully, rolling over so now he was on top. He kissed her throat and sucked on her weak spots as Resha gasped at the pleasure he was giving. Her hands nimbly opened his shirt and finally she threw it aside, running her hands over his chest, blazing molten fire everywhere she touched. Kurama shuddered at the feeling and continued to kiss in between the hollow of her breasts. Resha gave another gasp and her hand gripped his head as she arched her back in ecstasy.
Suddenly they both stopped and their heads snapped swiftly looking at the window.
"Sorry to interrupt your escapade, but Kurama, we have a mission." Hiei's voice rang through both their heads and they looked at each other and blushed, parting.
Unable to say a word, Kurama took his shirt and went to her window. He paused suddenly and moved back to her and gave her a kiss. 'I need to talk to you after this.' He murmured huskily and she nodded.
After that, he went away.
Resha sat on her bed, and pulling the sheets over her exposed chest, thinking. What in hell's name did she think she was doing? Somehow she never seemed to have control over herself when they sat so close. Had she really fallen in love with him?
No, that's not it. She could feel the fire between the two of them, but somehow she didn't feel like she was in love in him. Damn the stupid fox youki thingy. It had to do with that she was sure. Though, why didn't she act the same way towards Kinu? Okay, no more thinking.
One way or another, she really was wounded at what he said last night. He was such a nice brother that she somehow thought he could never hurt her, not in a million years! But it hurts badly and she couldn't believe she actually cried. How long had it been since the last time she cried? Ten? It must be it. Ever since Ranma was hit by the youkai when they were little.
Ranma. He didn't even know why she cared for him too much. She did noticed even Kurama was puzzled. "Wonder when will it get to they thick skulls to notice why. Oh well, they had to figure that out on themselves."
Talking about Kurama, she had already known of his love towards her. But he didn't seem to make it a big deal so she didn't say anything about it and just ignored it. She thought it was just a little crush, and besides, they did have that 'brother and sister' relationship in between. Guess that didn't work!
If she really didn't want anything to happen, she better make another plan. She didn't want to hurt his feeling and hers even. Love. Why do people crave for it too much? Teenagers often fell in love, even youkais. Seriously! She didn't want to fell in love… at least, not yet. She is young, too young. Maybe she'll find one when she was old enough. Twenties or something, that's a good age to find love. She didn't want to find now. No, it's too risky; she didn't want to hurt her feelings by falling in and out of love. Not that kind of pain. The only pain she couldn't bare. But what is this feeling she had when she was together with Kurama? Fire. Passion. But love? No! It cannot be! It can't be love! It just can't!
Resha shook her head vigorously, denying her thoughts over and over again, until she finally fell asleep.
