Someone to Live For

Chapter 4

Lucky wasn't sure if he heard right. "Are you telling me that Elizabeth lost her voice? But how?" Lucky asked.

"Like I already told you, we are going to run some tests, and find out exactly what happened."

Lucky looked at Elizabeth through the window. "This is a temporary thing right?" he asked.

Tony looked at Lucky. "I can't answer that for you. We will do some tests first and then deal with the results later,"

Tony then turned to Lucky. "Just be there for your wife; she is going to need you no matter if this is temporary or permanent." Lucky nodded, as he walked into the room, and smiled at Elizabeth, who looked so lost. He could see that she was trying to talk.

"Don't talk right now," Lucky said, as he sat down next to her. He grabbed her hand. "You scared me so much I thought I lost you." Elizabeth moved her hand away from Lucky and tried to talk again.

"I understand that you want to talk." Reaching across to the small bedside table, she clumsily grabbed at the notepad and the pen that sat next to it. Lucky watched her with concern in his eyes as she frantically scribbled on the paper. Locking eyes with him, she thrust the paper at him. He took it, looking down at what she wrote. In messy writing, were the words "What happened? Who are you?"

His eyes widened and he swallowed hard, looking at her.

"You were in an accident...but you're going to be ok." She shook her head, pointing to the second question on the notepad "Who are you?"

"I'm Lucky...don't you remember?" She shook her head.

"Do you know what your name is?" She looked at him with this lost look on her face.

"I'm guessing that is a no." he said, sighing. He knew this was bad, but he didn't want to get her upset, she had enough to deal with right now.

"I'm just going to go and talk the doctor," he said, as he touched her face. She jumped slightly.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that. Everything's going to be okay, I promise," he said, as he left the room.

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Lucky walked up to Dr. Jones. "I need to talk to you about Elizabeth,"

He turned around. "Lucky, we aren't going to know why she can't speak until we have done some tests."

"This has nothing to do with that," Lucky said, looking at Tony, sadly. "She doesn't remember anything."

"Anything?" Tony asked.

Lucky shake his head, as he looked through the window, and saw how lost Elizabeth looked. "She doesn't remember anything. I asked her if she remember me or her name, but she didn't know anything of them. Why did this happen?" Lucky asked.

"I wish I knew," Tony said. "She could have hit her head when the train crashed."

"But didn't you do tests on her when she first come to the hospital? Why didn't you know then," Lucky asked frustrated. He wanted to know why his wife doesn't know who he is. It was bad enough that she had to deal with losing her voice, not she has to deal with losing her memory.

"This isn't something that would show up on a test, Lucky. I know this is hard for you, but you need to be strong for Elizabeth.

"How long is this going to last?" Lucky asked.

"I really don't know, Lucky. It could be a few hours, days, years. I don't know," Tony said, as he walked in Elizabeth's room.

Elizabeth looked at Tony. She wrote something on the pad. She then handed it to him.

Tony looked at the note, and it read. "Can you get my voice back?"

Dr. Jones sat down on the chair. "Well we are going to do some tests. I hear that you are having some troubles remembering things. Do you know what year it is?" Tony asked. Trying to see if she doesn't remember anything or certain things. She wrote down. "I don't know. I don't know what year it is, what day it is, My name. I don't know anything. What's wrong with me?"

"It looks you hit your head when you had your accident, just rest and take it easy. I'll be back to see you later," Dr. Jones said, as he left the room.

Lucky looked at Elizabeth, as he sat down next to her. "If there is anything I can do for you, Elizabeth."

She looked at him with this lost look on her face, as she scribbled something on the notepad, the only way that he and Elizabeth were able to communicate with each other. She then handed him the note.

What's my name? Are you my boyfriend?

Lucky smiled slightly. "You're Elizabeth Spencer; I'm your husband."

Elizabeth looked at him, shocked.

'My husband! I can't remember you. Can you go?' She then thrust the pad at him as a single tear fall down her cheek. All Lucky wanted to do was hold Elizabeth in his arms and tell her that everything was going to be okay, but he knew that she was scared right now, he didn't want to do anything to upset her more.

"If you want me to go, I'll go. But I'll be back," Lucky said, sadly, as he watched as Elizabeth closed her eyes. He waited until he knew she was asleep and then he leaned over and kissed her forehead. "I love you, Liz, we are going to get through this, I promise you," he said, as he sat down on the chair next to her. He wasn't going to leave her alone, not now or ever.

Dr. Jones walked into the room. "How's she doing?" he asked.

Lucky looked at Dr. Jones. "She has just fallen asleep. What can I do for her?" he asked.

"Well just tell her about her life, maybe there is something that will bring back a memory. But my suggestion is not to tell her about Cameron."

"You don't want me to tell her about her son, why?" Lucky asked. "Cameron means everything to her,"

Dr. Jones sighed, "But we don't want to tell her too much at once, it might be too much for he and upset her."

"So have you found out yet what caused this?"

"Like I told Elizabeth before, it was when the trains crashed that she must have hit her head. I looked at her MRI and CT scans, I can definitely see that she hit her head."

"So why didn't you say anything to me?" Lucky asked.

"Because I miss it the first time, it was so small."

"You miss it," Lucky shouted. "How could you miss that, are you telling me that you could have helped her?"

"There is nothing you can do for memory loss, even if I found this out the first time I looked at the MRI, there is nothing I could have done."

Lucky sighed, as he looked at Elizabeth sleeping peacefully like nothing was wrong.

"What was about her voice? Have you figured out when that happened, or did you miss that too?" Lucky yelled.

"She lost her voice because there was damage to her vocal chords. There isn't much we can do for that, we just need to let her body rest and heal."

"That is all you can."

Dr. Jones nodded. "I'll come back to see Elizabeth when she is awake," He said, as he left the room.

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Lucky stood up and looked at Elizabeth who was still sleeping; he was worried that he was going to wake her up talking to Dr. Jones. This is not how he wanted his honeymoon to go, but he would be there for her, no matter what, that is what husbands do. He leaned over and kissed her cheek. "We'll get through this, you, me and Cameron." he said, as he walked back to his chair, and started to drifted off to sleep.

Elizabeth woke up, and she looked and saw the man that was here before sitting in the chair. She wishes that she could remember who he was, he said that he was her husband, but she couldn't remember them ever getting married, she couldn't remember anything, not even her own name. If that isn't bad enough, she can't even talk.

She looked at the man sleeping in the chair. She tried as hard as she could to remember him, as she could tell how much he cared about her. She must have cared about him too, seeing as that is her husband, but she just can't remember anything, it was getting her frustrated . She wanted to remember, but she couldn't. She then grabbed the notepad that was still on her bed and throws it across the room, waking Lucky up.

"Liz..." Lucky said, as he walked up to her bedside. "It's okay."

She shook her head.

"We're going to get through this," Lucky said, as he grabbed the notepad on the floor. She grabbed Lucky's hand, as a tear fall down her cheek.

"I know you are scared, Liz, but I will be there for you."

She looked at him with this, afraid.

How could he want to be there for me when I don't even know who he is, she thought to herself.

"I know you told me to leave, Liz, but I couldn't leave you," Lucky said.

Elizabeth smiled slightly. She doesn't remember anything about this man, but what she has seen so far, she was a pretty lucky woman.

She then scribbled something on the pad that Lucky had put on the bedside
table. She then handed it to him

Why do you want to be there for me? I don't even know who you are.

Lucky smiled at her. "You are my wife; I'm going to be there for you, no matter what. I'm not going to leave you just because you don't remember who I am."

What if I don't ever remember? She wrote down on the pad.

"We will deal with that when it comes to that. You don't need to worry about that right now, you just need to rest."

Elizabeth grabbed his hand, and mouthed the words thank you.

He smiled. "There is nothing I wouldn't do for you, Elizabeth."

She smiled slightly. She wrote on the pad again.

Your name's Lucky right? What kind of name is that? How long have we known each other? How long have we been married? What kind of job do I do? There are so many questions that I need to know.

"That's a lot of questions, Elizabeth. Just take your time. We don't need to talk about that right now." She pointed to the question about how long they have been married. She wanted to know that, she didn't care about the other question, but she need to know.

Lucky smiled slightly."Well that's a long story."

She looked at him with this look on in her eyes, he has seen that look before when she wanted to know something important and he wouldn't tell her.

"Okay fine, I'll tell you. We got married a month ago, the day after the wedding, we were taking a train to New York City, and then we were going to go to Italy, but then..." Lucky stopped. He wasn't sure that she needed to hear anymore right now.

"Maybe we should talk about this later on, you have been through a lot today."

Elizabeth shook her head.

"I'm guessing that means you want me to go on with telling you everything?"

Elizabeth nodded.

"There was a train crash, you got badly hurt in it and you have been in a coma for the last few weeks."

Elizabeth sighed. She wasn't expecting to hear that, so she and this man have only been married a day and then she got into an accident. They didn't even have a honeymoon. She has been in a coma for the last few weeks, this was so much to handle. She laid her head on the pillow and sighed.

"I knew that I shouldn't have told you that yet."

He looked at Elizabeth lying on the bed. "I'll let you get some rest," he said, as he started to walk out of the room, but before he could, Audrey and Cameron walked into the room.

Cameron ran towards Elizabeth. "Mommy…" he said.

Lucky looked at Audrey. "Do you think you could take Cameron outside for a moment?" Audrey looked at Lucky with this confused look on her face. "But Elizabeth's awake. He's been so excited to come see his mommy."

"I'll tell you everything in a moment, it would be best if Cameron goes outside."

"Mommy…" Cameron said, as Elizabeth looked at the little boy, confused.
Why was this little boy calling her mommy? She thought to herself. Audrey could tell that something was wrong with Elizabeth.

"Cameron, why don't we go see if Auntie Emily is here?" Audrey said, as she grabbed a hold of Cameron and walked out of the room, more confused than ever.

Elizabeth looked at Lucky with this mad look on her face. She scribbled something on the pad.

IWhy didn't you tell me that I had a little boy? Didn't you think I deserve to know? So I can't remember you and I can't remember my little boy, that's just great. /I

Lucky sat down on the chair. "Dr. Jones thought it would be best if you didn't know about your son just yet, that it will upset to know remember him. She wrote on the pad again.

How do you think it feels not remembering my own husband? But you told me who you were. Why couldn't you tell me about my son? I want you to go; I don't ever want to see you ever again

"Liz." Lucky said, sadly.

"I know that I should have told you."

But you didn't… What else haven't you told me? Do I have more kids that you haven't told me about? I felt safe with you. I couldn't remember anything about you, but I feel like I could trust you, but I was wrong about that, she wrote on the pad as she throw at him.

"I wish I did tell you, but I didn't, I'm sorry for that. You can trust me, Liz."

Just go. Just go Just go! she wrote down on the pad, the only way she could talk to him.

Lucky knew this was hard enough for her; he wasn't going to make this any worse.

"I'll leave you for now, but I'll come back," he said, as he walked out of the room.

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Audrey was waiting for Lucky.

"Where's Cameron?" Lucky asked.

"He's with Emily right now. So what's wrong with Elizabeth?" she asked.

"How about we sit down?" he said.

She looked at him, nervously.

"Is it that bad?"

"Elizabeth has lost her voice and her memory," Lucky said sadly.

"So she didn't know about Cameron."

"I didn't tell her about Cameron because Tony thought it would be too much for her to find out right away. But now she is upset at me because I didn't tell her. I should have told her."

"It's not your fault, Lucky. Tony told you to not say anything, and he is her doctor, so you thought you were doing right. I don't think she is upset at you; she is upset at the situation. Does she remember anything?"

Lucky shake his head. "She doesn't remember anything, not even what day it is," Lucky said, as he walked up to the window at Elizabeth. "I would do anything to help her, but I don't know what to do, if she doesn't want me there."

Audrey put her hand on his shoulder. "You just going to have to wait, I know it is hard, but she is dealing with a lot right now."

"I just want to be there for her."

"You are, by letting her deal with this on her own for a while."

Lucky nodded. "Thank you, Audrey," He said, as he hugged her.
"You are part of the family now, Lucky. You have been for a long time though," Audrey said.

"I'm going to go and see Elizabeth," she said, as she walked into the room. Lucky was walked towards the waiting room when Emily and Cameron came up to them. Lucky run to Cameron and grabbed a hold of him and hugged him.

"Da Da," Lucky smiled as he touched Cameron's face.

"That's right, Daddy is here. I know it is hard for you to understand, but mommy is not well."

Emily looked at Lucky. "What's wrong with Elizabeth?" she asked. Lucky and Emily walked over to the chairs and sat down. Lucky put Cameron on his lap, and he played with the toy that was in his hands, not really care about anything else.

"She has lost her voice and her memory," Lucky said.

Emily put her arms around Lucky. "I'm so sorry."

"Thanks Em."

"If anybody knows how this feels you do." Lucky responded.

Emily nodded. "I do, but at least you can be there for her, and help her through this something I couldn't do with Nikolas."

"If only she wanted me to help."

Emily sighed. "I'm sure this is hard for her to deal with. She doesn't only have to deal with her memory loss, but also about losing her voice, there is only so much someone can take."

"It's not that, Em. She was okay with me being in the room with her and then when I didn't tell her about Cameron, that is when she told me to leave."

"You didn't tell her about Cameron, because it was going to be too much at once for her," Emily replied.

"I guess all doctors think like,"

Lucky replied. "I'm not a doctor yet," Emily said, with a smile. She then turned to Lucky. "It's going to be okay,"

Suddenly her pager went off. "I need to go. Take care, Lucky. I'll come by and see Elizabeth later," Emily said, as she walked away from Lucky.

Lucky smiled at Cameron. "I love you, Cam, everything going to be okay, I promise you." he said, as he kissed Cameron on the forehead. Later that night, Lucky had just said goodnight to Cameron on the telephone when he bumped into his mom.

"How's Elizabeth doing?" she asked.

Lucky sighed. He was going to have to explain everything once again.

"She has woken up, but she is not truly better, she has lost her voice and her memory."

Laura hugged Lucky. "I'm so sorry… is there anything I can do?" Lucky shook his head.

"There is nothing anybody can I do."

Laura looked at Lucky. "I know how hard it is, you just be there for Elizabeth that is all you can do."

"I want to do more mom," he said.

"She's everything to me."

Laura placed her hand on his shoulder. "I know, Lucky."

"You two have been through a lot since you known each other."

Lucky looked at Laura. "How long did it take for you to remember everything again?"

"My condition was different than what Elizabeth is going through," Laura responded. "So I can't tell you how long it will be or if she will remember. Just remember that you aren't alone, Lucky. Either is Elizabeth, she has lots of people looking out for her. Just don't let her push you away, because that is what she will try and do."

Lucky smiled slightly. "Thanks mom, I'm so glad that you are home."

Laura hugged Lucky. "I'm home for good, I'm not leaving. So go be with your wife. I'll come by and see you and Elizabeth tomorrow morning. And I want to see Cameron too. He's going to get really spoil by me."

Lucky smiled. "Cameron would love to see you; he's staying at Audrey, while Elizabeth is in the hospital."

"How is he dealing with it?" Laura asked.

Lucky smiled. "He doesn't really understand what happened. I didn't tell Elizabeth about Cameron so when he comes in the room; she was pretty confused why this little boy was calling her mommy. I should have told her before, but Dr. Jones didn't want me to do that."

"Let me guess she is upset that you didn't tell her," Laura replied, with a laugh.

"You should have known that she would be mad, but I guess you haven't been married to know that you can hide anything from your wife even if it is so she doesn't get upset. But you will learn in time, Lucky."

Lucky smiled. "Thanks mom," he said, as he hugged her.
"Thanks for everything."

Laura smiled at her son. "You don't know how much I miss this," She said, as she walked away from Lucky.

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Lucky walked into Elizabeth's room, but she wasn't in her room. He knew that she wouldn't be having tests yet it was too late at night for that. He then saw her sitting against the wall, rocking up and down.

"Elizabeth, what happened?" he asked, as he grabbed the notepad, and placed in her lap, as that is the only way he can comminute with her. But she just looked at the notepad and throw away. He touched her face. "You can trust me." She just kept on rocking up and down.