October 1, 2001

Dear Diary,

I saw him again. It was the most beautiful thing. It's like 3 in the morning and I just woke up crying. He came to me again. It all felt so real…

I was in a dark room, all alone… I could feel the darkness taking me away again… I could see my heart… it was glowing red and softly beating, but the beats were becoming slower and slower. I could hardly move but I watched the color begin to fade as it continued to slowly decrease in speed. I could feel the life leaving me with each beat. Suddenly it stopped. I gasped for one last breath and I suddenly saw my heart split down the middle with a golden light that shined through it. His face broke though my heart while the golden light turned my pale heart to gold. I could feel air once again in my lungs and I saw him look back at me and smile. His face shown like the sun and his smile was radiant, with his blue eyes like sapphires. I sat in wonder and awe for a few moments. I could feel my body being reenergized and almost reborn. I looked down and saw that my body had indeed changed, my skin was glowing and my clothes were new. My body felt whole and complete. I stared back at him with tears all over my cheeks. I tried to reach out and touch his cheek that was still on my heart, but the second I touched it, everything shattered. I screamed, "NO!" and knelt down to pick up the pieces. The pieces were completely smashed into shards and they were unable to be fixed. I began to sob when I heard a noise. I looked up and I saw that I was completely surrounded by heartless. I looked all around for an escape, but instead I saw… the keyblade lying on the ground in front of my feet. It was dull and rusted in color. I cried harder and touched it. It instantaneously turned back to its pristine state. I looked into the blade and saw a strange face staring back… It was his face. He was me… and I was him. We were united.

Unfortunately… I woke up. It's only been an hour now… but I still can feel him inside of me. I do not know why I had that dream… but I do feel somewhat better for the moment. It feels like he was trying to connect with me… reach me. He must have known I was starting to lose hope. I know he is still out there, but needs me to hold on for a bit longer. I would wait forever for him. I have some of his strength with me now… I can feel it.