October 8th, 2001

Dear Diary,

Today I watched the sunrise…I was already awake… so I just… left. I walked to the beach and just watched the sun come up. It was so pretty. The colors were a mess of gorgeous hues… all which remind me of him. The blue sky reminds me of his blue eyes…. The golden rays of his golden locks…. The pinks and reds of his lips… so soft… It all makes me miss him… so much…

I wonder if he misses me as much as I miss him? I wonder what he is doing… who is he with… sometimes I fear he has found another girl. And if he did… what does she look like? Does she remind him of me? Is she like me? Or is she my complete opposite? I wonder if he knows how much I care about him…. I wish I could tell him… but it's just so hard….when he is so far away. Sometimes… I feel like… he has apart of me with him, like… I'm there… but I can't be… cause I'm here… but she's… there?