October 10th, 2001
Dear Diary,
On days like today, I look to the sky and I feel… closer. Today was a rainy day… until suddenly I looked out my window and the sun came dazzling through the clouds. I know I'm still waiting for him to come and break through my clouds… but I just have to keeping hoping. I know he is out there… he is somewhere. With each passing day, I lose some hope… but I also feel like I feel his heart hearing my own… so close… but yet so far away. Our battles are being won… but the war is still raging.
I slipped on my cuts today. It's the first time in about a week… but I just couldn't help myself. I got into an argument with Mom and Dad again. They say if I don't improve in 2 weeks… they are sending me to grandmother's house. I told them I am NOT going. I need to wait here for him… just as he asked me to. I must stay here… ready for battle. If he or Riku returned and I was at grandmother's house…. I would be heartbroken.
I'm starting to think I should just move out. I think I should just live in our Secret Place… just in case the door opens… so that way I'll be out of my parent's hair and I will be ready… ready for him.
