My class this summer takes up so much time, plus my job, I never have a chance to just write, but things are slowing down so maybe I'll do better. Hope ya'll enjoy the update. By the way, ADDEK forever!
Addison had waited so long to hear him say that he loved her. Why did he have to do it now? Why did he have to sleep with Meredith in the first place? It wasn't like she was absent, unlike him, when she had slept with his best friend. The tears continued to slide down her face, as she recalled the pleading look he had given her when she was getting into her car, and the way he had stood there, in her rearview mirror watching her drive away.
He had said he needed last night to realize that he rally loved her. What the hell? It seemed the only thing he was capable of giving her lately was more heartache.
She wanted to believe he meant the words that he was saying to her, like she had wanted to believe him when he said he would try, and look what that had gotten her.
Addison pulled her car into her parking space at the hospital, and flipped down her mirror. "God I look like shit," she said, "How could I off all people leave my house with no makeup on?" She reached into the back seat where she had tossed a small bag, and grabbed it and her purse. She would at least put on her face before she saw her patients, they were already in enough pain, no point in having to see her at anything but her best.
Addison made her way to the doors of Seattle Grace hospital, and stopped before entering. She took a deep breath and said to herself, "You can do this, you're Addison Forbes Montgomery Shepherd, and you are Satan incarnate."
She made her way up through the lobby without anyone noticing her, it wasn't hard. Nobody was expecting to see the "She-Shepherd" in jeans a long sleeved t-shirt and a baseball cap. Addison headed straight for the chiefs office, might as well get this over with first, she thought.
The chief's door was open, and she knocked on the door frame as she entered, and then shut the door.
"Addison, are you okay, you like awful."
"Thanks a lot Richard, but I need to talk to you about something." She replied. "I, well, I want to thank you for giving me the opportunity to work here, and I've enjoyed working here for the most part, but I have to go back to New York."
"I don't understand Addison. What about Derek, is he planning on leaving too? Besides you're under contract, this hospital has invested a lot of money in you, the both of you."
"Chief, what I told you yesterday, about everyone knowing Derek loves Meredith, except Derek and Meredith; well I guess they finally know. Last night at the prom, Derek slept with her, I confronted him about it this morning and he admitted to it, I just can't go on like this. We take a step forward just to take three back, and I'm tired. I'm tired of competing for my husband's affection." A tear escaped out of the corner of Addison's eye as she said this. "So please Richard, you're like a father to me, please understand that I can't stay here, not with him and certainly not with her. I had a life in New York, it'll certainly be a lot different now that I'm single again, but I need to go, and to move on. So please let me out of this contract, please."
"Addison, why don't you just take a vacation, takes a few weeks to work some things out. There's no point in rushing to anything here. I can give you two weeks paid vacation, since you haven't been here that long, that's the best that I can do, but your making a life here, Addison. You're making friends; don't give all of that up because of Derek's stupid mistake." The chief said.
"Chief, I don't think two weeks is going to cut it, and it's not a sudden decision. I never planned to stay here this long anyway; it was just one of life's wicked curve balls that kept me here this long. And as far as friends, they call me Satan, Richard. And the money, I promise you I'm not hurting for it, and besides I could always pawn this lovely ring," Addison said as she raised up her left hand, showing off her wedding ring.
"Addison, come on now, I was there when Derek put that ring on your finger, while you two might be going your separate ways, you can't just pawn that ring, or your memories." The chief's voice was soft as he spoke to her. "While I would love to just let you out of your contract, I can't, not right now anyway, but I'll tell you what. Take your two weeks, rest, relax, go visit your friends and family in New York, then comeback, give me another two weeks at the most, and I will do my best to get you out of here. That will give me plenty of time to talk to the hospital lawyers, and board, and then we will accept your resignation. It's kind of prolonging things, I know, but it's the best I can do."
Addison nodded her head in agreement, and then the chief went on, "I'm so sorry about everything. It's hard to lose someone you love. And when it hits Derek, what he's lost, it will ruin him. Like I said earlier, I was there that day Addison, I saw the way he looked at you then, and how he looked at you back in New York. Ya'll were meant to be, and I still believe that. And if Derek is too blind to see that then he is stupid."
Addison then headed to the locker room where she changed into a pair of scrubs, and put on her makeup. No use scaring these poor sick people, she thought. Then as if nothing was wrong she walked out into the hall of the hospital to face the day, as confident as always, showing no fear.
Derek had stood there watching the road long after the dust had settled back down. He kept hoping that Addison would realized he meant what he said and he did love her, and would decide to come back to him. When it finally hit him that it was hopeless, she wasn't coming back; he made his way back into the trailer and looked around. He could see her everywhere. She was in the kitchen, she was sitting in their bed reading, and she was in the bathroom hollering about a trout in the house.
God he was a bastard, it had taken all of this for him to realize it. Why couldn't he see things clearly earlier, why had it take this long for him to see how much he was hurting the most important person in his life.
Unfortunately for Derek, he couldn't sit and ponder the question for long because he had to be at work in an hour. He was going to have to face everyone there, and Addison had been right, the gossip of last night's events had probably been spread all over the hospital by now.
