One week later
She had to make a decision, but how? She knew what she needed to do to be able to move on, but that wasn't what her heart wanted. She had made up her mind, she knew she would regret it, but it would be for the best.
She woke up late; she hadn't been able to fall asleep until 3. She took a trip down to the kitchen and met Seth and Ryan. Neither of them was speaking. She poured herself a cup of coffee and went back upstairs. She was still in her pyjama when she sat down on the bed and took up a photograph of her and Sandy together.
"Sandy, Sandy…"she hesitated, could she really do this? "Sandy" she whispered at last.
The white light came and went, and there stood Sandy. She cried at the sight of her husband. He frowned.
"Kirsten? What's wrong honey?" he asked as he sat down beside her. She leaned against his chest and continued to cry. He held her tight.
"You know this is the last time you can see me this month" he whispered as she pulled away from him.
"I'm so sorry Sandy. I'm so sorry. I - I can't…I can't do…this" she said as tears ran fast down her face. Sandy didn't understand.
"What do you mean…?" he stopped, suddenly having a clue of what she meant. "No, you don't mean…" he started but was unable to finish the sentence. She nodded sadly.
"Sandy I'm so sorry, but I can't keep seeing you like this. I can't have you being my guardian angel anymore. You're…you're dead…and you just make it harder" she looked away; she couldn't stand to see the tears that were forming in his eyes.
"Harder? But how?" the question left his lips as a whisper, barely hearable.
"Because.." she closed her eyes and opened them again. "Because I can't move on if I keep seeing you. Cause I try so hard to let you go, and whenever I move just a bit forward I think that I still can see you, so I don't want to move on cause I need you. And whenever I see you, it's so hard when you have to leave. It would be…easier if I could just move on, try to put the past behind me. But that doesn't mean I will forget you, cause I never could…" she said sadly. " I will never forget you. I will never…I will never…" she repeated crying and leaned against his chest again.
He held her close to him, crying silently as he said "If that's what you want, I can't stop you. You know I'll do anything for you, even if it breaks my heart. Are you sure you want this?" he wanted her to realize that this wasn't the solution; although deep inside him he knew that this was the only way for her to move on. When he had been offered to be his wife's guardian angel, his first thought was that a problem like this would come up, but his love for Kirsten was so strong that he didn't want to lose her.
"I don't want this, but I need this. Sandy I will always love you." She said quietly. He stood up and brought her with him. They stood so they were facing each other; he took her hands in his.
"Ok. I'll take care of it. So I guess this is the end… But we'll meet when you die, I'll be waiting…" he said as the tears ran down his cheeks. She used her thumb to wipe them away.
Neither of them spoke. Kirsten leaned in and kissed him passionately with their arms wrapped around each other. Sandy was the first one to break apart. She could tell from the look on his face that the time was almost up. They quickly got back to holding hands again.
"Kirsten, I love you so much. I'll always think about you, you're my everything, my heart and soul, the light of my life. You're the love of my life"
"Sandy, since the day I met you I have been the luckiest person in the world. Everything you just said about me, I feel the same way about you. I'll love you forever. You have always been my angel. I love you so much…so much"
When they had said their goodbyes, he leaned in and kissed her one last time. His lips left hers and he backed away from her, their hand losing each other. They looked at each other, both of them were crying. She blew him a kiss and he smiled at her. The white light came, and he was gone. She put her hand to her mouth to stop herself from screaming out loud. She sank back onto the bed, unable to believe what she had just done. She had lost him, and it was her own fault, she knew that. She grabbed the book lying on her bedside table, the same book she had thrown the first time she had summoned Sandy, then she had been mad at him, now she was mad at herself.
Crash
She stared at the shattered mirror and the pieces of glass on the floor. 'I shattered the mirror'
"Kirsten?" she heard Julie's voice say. Kirsten didn't turn around; she didn't want to see the look on Julie's face, the eyes that were full of sadness and shock. "What happened?" she whispered as she stared at the broken glass.
"I –I'm not felling well" Kirsten said as she touched her forehead. Kirsten's world was spinning, she fell down into darkness.
"Kirsten!" Julie screamed and ran towards her, but she wasn't quick enough. Kirsten fell forwards and her head hit the floor with a loud thump. Julie fell to her knees next to her body.
"Kirsten! Wake up! Come on sweetie!" Julie screamed as she tried to move Kirsten so she could see her face. Kirsten's eyes were closed and her cheeks were wet from crying, her chest moved, but only just…
Julie heard people running up the stairs and seconds later Seth and Ryan entered the room, followed by Marissa and Summer.
"Mom, no!" Seth shouted as he rushed forward and pushed Julie aside so he could sit next to his mother. "Somebody call 911!" he yelled as he searched for her pulse. He found it, it was weak. "What the hell! Call 911 before it's too late!"
Ryan quickly took out his cell phone and started to deal the number.
"We need an ambulance here quick. It's my mother, she's lying lifeless on the floor, and her pulse is weak." Ryan told them the address and then he hung up. "They're one their way" he announced to the others.
Seth reached for a blanket and put it over his mother.
"You're going to be ok mum, I promise. You're going to be ok…everything will be ok." He whispered as he stroke her hair.
Minutes later they heard the ambulance coming, Julie hurried down to meet them and to tell them where Kirsten was. The men hurried up the stairs and together the got Kirsten into the ambulance. Seth wanted to go with her, the others stood outside the Cohen's house and watched the ambulance drive off before they got into their own cars to drive to the hospital. They were all praying Kirsten would be ok, they couldn't deal with another death…
