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Meeting You

Chapter 4

Nimbly Cloud put his feet onto the cold floor. Running his hand through his spikey hair he got to his feet and dressed. A picture of a church was still carved into his mind. Had he not seen this church before when they went for a walk to the park?

Cloud decided he would need a walk – and an accidental visit at the church. He was cruious wheter he would find this woman there, this woman he had seen. He felt something grow inside his chest, a feeling. Each time he recalled her face it seemed to grow.

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(Cloud POV)

In a fast pace I strode down the dark and empty streets. A few streetlights spent light for people that would wander around at this late hour. Would I see her there? Something inside me told me that I had to see her, that this might be my only chance. Why? I don't know.

There I was. Standing right in front of a church, or actually the remnants of a church.

I pushed the doors open and inhaled the breath of flowers. Flowers, how beautiful they were. Flowers. I bent down and touched a white one. It felt as though a piece of my past rushed inside me when touching it. I saw this woman again under a water surface and the very flower I had touched right now, was floating to the ground, right through the face that started to blur.

I got to my feet again and strode through the fields of flowers.

"You are here." That's what I would have expected to hear now. But I heard nobody talking. I closed my eyes, feeling the soft breeze and the noise the night made around me. Why did I even come here? I could have just slept in my warm bed, but instead of cuddling into my warm sheets I walked out in the dark. How ridiculous. And all that for a woman I saw in my dreams? Just because she might have seemed closer to reality than any woman that I could imagine to appear in my dreams? I had to chuckle. I felt as though I was crazy. Standing in a huge field of flowers stretching my arms far away from my body. Like an angel I stretched them away, inhaling the sweet scent. I remember her smile. Was she trying to tell me something? I loved this smile. For some reason I did.

This church I remember it so clearly. The pillars and the walls. I was here again once already, right? I wished someone could have told me, but there was noone else here other than me. I had a feeling that I had to search for my past here.

"You've come Cloud. I am happy." Now did I really hear that? Rubbing my eyes and scratching the back of my head I opened my eyes again. I was just lacking sleep. Yes Cloud, all this is just something you made up, your imagination. There's noone here as you saw. Stop thinking your dreams are gates to your past.

(Cloud POV End)

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Cloud stepped back inside the bar, shutting the door as quiet as possible. Turning around his eyes met those familiar brown eyes he felt to be so enchanting. "Tifa. Did I wake you?"

"No. Where have you been?" A bitter tone underlay her words. Cloud swallowed and stared at his feet.

'That's so something you always do. Whenever you face a wall, whenever you have reached a dead end are you are supposed to face the consequences you face the floor. Are you returning to your old self? Or is this just something that just belongs to a person, like a scent, something you can never get rid of? Face me Cloud, and tell me you have not been visiting her.'

Cloud raisd his head again and spoke. "I have been visiting a church."

"A church?" Tifa's head lowered a little. Her stern expression still on her face. 'I tried to protect you, and you? You run away and search on your own. Foolish little boy.'

"Yes. There were lots of flowers there. Actually it was not really a church anymore, rather just what was left over of it." he retorted. His voice was calm and he sounded curious. Somewhat like a little boy that had just seen something amazing, something fascinating.

(Tifa POV)

I felt my heart sank. He had heaved it up this high, made me feel that he touched the right spot for once, and now he let it fall, let my heart fall so deep again, back where it had been the very beginning. You caused me to feel so inferior to her again.

Why did you go see her? Is your bond still so strong that losing your memory wont make you forget her? I am not going to tell you anything. She is dead Cloud and she will never appear at your side again. It is me, who is still at your side, yet you wont notice me. Why? I ask you, why? Am I not pretty enough? Am I not as kind as she is? What do I need to do, to make you realize I am there for you? Don't hurt yourself. She is dead, you can move on. Move on with me.

"Cloud, who did you see?" I asked, even though I knew the answer already. No, no you will not come back and draw him back into this darkness, I know you do not intend to, Aerith, but he is happy, and he will stay this way. I will keep him happy. I want him to be happy. The wound you left has healed, and you will not open it again. I will not allow you to.

"I saw a woman, a brunette woman. Part of her hair was braided at her back and she wore a ribbon." Watching Cloud talk I realized how he gestured with his hands while talking. I never noticed he really did that. Was he nervous? Was he confused? I could not tell, but he was anything but the Cloud I knew.

There was something in his look that stung me even more. It was not happy, not sad, it was as though he felt whole. As if he found something that filled him from the inside. There was a certaonm curiousity in his words that hurt me. As if he found a lost piece. No, she left the hole, someone else should fill this hole, someone who is actually around him.

Though he has no idea who she was and still is to him, I did not want her to take this space in his heart. I wanted it to be me. I am still here Cloud. And I've always been. But you never saw me.

Pain, you just need to face it. Truth is, it's something you can not avoid. Pain is what makes us strong and weak at the same time. That's what I believe. You though, Cloud, had suffered too much, to the point you got cold, so cold that you would extinguish any fire.

"I guess that's just from all this medicine you are still taking. Yes I know the church you are talking about. But there's no way a girl would have led you there." I chuckeled, hoping he would take it as it is and not inquire any further. Once again I wore my mask, the mask I am always wearing when I felt he hurt me.

"I guess you are right." he retorted feeling a little uneasy. Yes, that's the way. Ban her out of your mind, it's better this way for you. I saw you suffer once, and I never want to see you suffer again. This time it would be me to hug you whenever you need comfort.

(Tifa POV End)

Cloud said goodnight to Tifa and wandered up to his room. Tifa stared after him for a while. Everything came too fast, he was not supposed to remember her so fast. Would he regain more of his memory this fast too? Or was it just the love they used to share that made him remember it so quick. 'Will I ever be someone like this to him, someone who he will never forget for real even though he would lose his memory? Or will I stay nothing but a friend forever?' Tifa wondered. Shaking her head she went into the kitchen. 'A drink might do me good. It's no use thinking about it. I have to try my hardest to keep him at my side. But it's all up to him, it's his heart beating, and I wished it beated for me.'

(Cloud POV)

"Cloud, I love you so."

I love you so - Who said this? Was I in love before I got shot? Who loved me? Might I have had a girlfriend before the incident? The voice, I can not tell whom it is. These words, I can not remember ever having heard them. But then again, everyone hears these three special words – I love you – once in his life, right? Might someone had told me to be in love with me? I wonder. If so, who was it? Who told me? Was it this woman I had seen? Was it someone else I had not met yet?

I felt that there is someone I was close to, but who? All those faces I saw in my dreams, they were so blurry. So far I only met Tifa. She said she's a childhood friend. Might I have ever shared a romance with her? Maybe I should go ask her. Though it seems to be somewhat rude.

I felt the urge to hold someone close, tell someone I care for him deeply. But who, who was the person I wanted to tell this? It was a feeling that wanted to burst right out of my chest. But I could not tell who I should direct it to. I knew there was someone, yes I remember there was someone, but who was it? I wanted to know, know the person that belonged to me. The person that had part of my heart. I wish, I wish I could remember your face. At least I believed this feelings were something good. Something I would have liked to remember at any cost.

"If it's that how you feel. Goodbye Cloud."

No face, just the words – depressing words spoken in a depressed tone. Might I have hurt somebody? Might I have left somebody in pain? It felt as though I did not return someone's feelings. Those pieces I remembered, they didn't seem to make any sense.

(Cloud POV End)

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Liked it? I do hope you will like it as much as my previous. And I hope it did not come out too confusing. It just wrote down whatever came to my mind at the moment. I figured I made some tense mistakes, I'm sorry if there are still any I forgot to correct. Please be lenient towards me. Mabye I'll let Tifa reveal her feelings soon, who knows. ;) Once again I'll be most glad to see reviews.