Disclaimer: I do not own Teen Titans.

Warnings: This is rated M for a reason.


And So It Is

Chapter 3

"Get up."

"No." I rolled onto my stomach and pulled the blanket over my head.

"Get up."

"How the hell did you even get into my room?"

"One of the maids let me in. Now get up. We have to get going."

I pulled the blanket off my head and eyed Rachel suspiciously, "Where are we going?"

"To Vic's house for a barbeque, " Rachel tried to say nonchalantly, "To celebrate Dick's return."

"I'm not going."

Rachel frowned, "You are not gonna lay around in your sweatpants, stuffing Cheetos down your throat, and having a Batman marathon."

"I was thinking more along the lines of The Rocky Horror Picture Show and Purple Rain." I yawned.

"Prince?" She asked, looking concerned, "Is it that bad?"

I shrugged, "I got drunk last night and had a major dance floor make out session with my ex boyfriend who I am still madly in love with, but unfortunately he doesn't even like me. Worse, he has a girlfriend who is just the sweetest thing ever and on top of that.. I was gonna fuck him in a dark corner without a second thought.. hell, I probably still would."

"Wow.. that is bad. Well, don't think about it. He probably doesn't even remember."

"Yeah.. that's gonna boost my spirits."

Rachel rolled her eyes, "Just get dressed. You slept through the morning and we have to be at Vic's in an hour."

I pulled myself out of bed and took a quick shower. I decided to wear a pair of tight, low rise white capris pants and a tight baby blue spaghetti strapped top that shows off a little bit of my flat stomach. I wore a pair of white flip flops and pulled my hair up into to pigtails. I was looking beyond adorable. Rachel was looking sexy as ever in a jean mini skirt and a white tank top.

KNOCK. KNOCK. KNOCK.

"Hello ladies. Everyone is in the back." Victor's father told us as he answered the huge door.

"Thanks Mr. Stone." We both said and made our way to the backyard. I followed Rachel, as we made our way through Victor's gorgeous house. Victor was at the grill with Karen by his side, helping him flip burgers. Roy was in the pool repeatedly dunking Terra, while splashing at Garfield. Richard was laying in a hammock reading a magazine with Barbara curled up at his side. This was going to be hell.

"Hey Rach, Hey Legs! Glad you could join us!" Vic yelled cheerily. I smiled at him and nodded. I noticed everyone was looking at us. I tried to get out of the spotlight so I focused their attention elsewhere.

"So Roy.. Terra.. is love in the air?" I asked coolly. Roy smirked and Terra blushed profusely.

"You should have seen them at the club after you left last night.. They were all over each other." Garfield said as he climbed out of the pool. I just winked at them and went to sit down on one of the loungers. It seemed like a good half hour passed with nonsense talking and what not, when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and came face to face with 'Babs'.

"Hi Babs." I said as happily as I could.

"Can I talk to you?" She asked timidly. I nodded and followed her inside, she pulled me into a deserted hallway.

"Stay away from Dick."

"What?" I wasn't sure if I heard her right.

"I saw you last night. I saw you practically dry fucking him on the dance floor. Stay away from him." She said coldly.

"Babs it's not what you think. We were drunk. It was nothing."

"To him, it was nothing.. to him, you are nothing, but to you. I know you are in love with him. I don't know what went on in your past, but it's the past. Drop it and let him go." She frowned at me.

I just nodded my head as she turned to leave, before she completely disappeared out of the hallway I heard her say, "Kori, I will not tell you again."

I stood dumbfounded in the hallway for what seemed like hours, but in reality was only probably 10 minutes at the most. I opened one of the guest bedrooms to rest when I heard giggling coming from the hallway. I quickly hid inside the closet, hoping whoever it was they would pass by the room. It seems like fate hates me with a passion.

Richard and Babs came stumbling into the room kissing each other fiercely. I had to suppress a groan, why is this shit always happening to me? Quickly they removed each other's clothing and were on the bed, kissing and touching. It was one of those horrible moments where you know you shouldn't look, but you can't turn away. No matter how much pain you are in or how heartbroken you are.. you can't stop watching. His body was amazing and I felt so envious as he placed himself between her legs after rolling on a condom. I wanted to laugh.. a condom. When we were together we never used them. I always wanted to feel him inside me.. him. Not some rubber latex shit that made me uncomfortable the one time we used it. Nothing compares to a hard condom free cock.. especially Richard Grayson's.

I blinked away tears as he entered her, she clinging to him moaning his name. I didn't hear him say anything, just watched him pounding into her repeatedly. I was thankful I didn't hear what he said, if he said anything at all. I never wanted to know if he said those naughty things to other girls as well or if I was special. Soon they were finished and I watched him roll off of her and pull his pants back on.

"I love you Dick." I heard Babs whisper and I held my breath. I almost felt a bit triumphant when he didn't respond, but instead quickly redressed and left the room. Babs took a little extra time and then left. I sat on the floor of the closet, upset and heartbroken and yet, I wanted to laugh. I wanted to laugh so hard that I would piss myself, but the laughter never came.. just tears.

I went to the bathroom and washed my face before I went back out to the 'party'. I slowly made my way to the backyard and just stood there. Victor and Karen were cuddling up on the hammock, feeding eachother. Roy was kissing Terra on a lounger. Rachel and Garfield were holding hands and talking quietly, and Richard sat at a table, with Babs on his lap, playing with her hair while she was talking to him. In that moment I realized I was completely alone. Everyone has someone... everyone, but me.

I felt sick. I felt disgustingly sick.

I noticed Rachel looking at me funny. She walked towards me and held my hand. Everyone else looked at me also, if I cared, I would of blushed. Right now, all I wanted to do was get away from everyone.

"Sweetie, are you alright?" Rachel asked me. I didn't answer her. I just tried to focus so I wouldn't be so dizzy.

"Kori.." Richard said in that beautiful silky voice, "Maybe you should sit down. You look a little pale."

I turned my attention to him. He looked concerned for me, yet he still had Babs on his lap. Still twirling her hair between his perfect fingers. I took a deep breath and shook my head.

"I'm fine. I just.. I gotta go." I quickly ran from the house as fast as I could. I made it to the driveway and froze. I came with Rachel.. I couldn't leave. I sighed in defeat and was about to turn around when I saw a pair of keys dangling in front of me. I turned around and saw Rachel smiling sadly at me.

"Are you ok?"

"No."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"No."

"Take my keys, I'll get a ride with Gar. Just be careful."

I nodded and took the keys. I made it home quickly and locked myself up in my room.

I stayed in my room for hours until Mandy came in. She sat next to me on the bed and hugged me tightly, running her fingers through my hair. She could really be a good sister. Most of the time she was Bitchy McBitch, but she knew when I needed her.

"Rachel called. She said you almost passed out at the barbeque. What happened?" She asked, stroking my head softly.

"Last night.. Richard and I.. kissing. Then ..today.. Babs.. him..sex.. everyone.. together..I'm alone." I cried into her shoulder. She responded by holding me tighter.

"I'm alone Mandy! I have no one. I'm alone!"

"You aren't alone. You have me and mom and dad and everyone. You aren't alone." She tried to reassure me.

"You don't understand.." I started, but she cut me off.

"You're in love with Richard still."

"I saw them having sex in a guest bedroom. It hurts so bad."

She rubbed my back, "Maybe she's just a fling. You never know."

"Two years. They have been together almost two years."

She sighed, "Well don't get so down. You need something, or, better yet, someone to take your mind off it."

"I don't want someone else. I want him." I cried exhaustedly.

"Well you don't always get what you want."

"I know.." I spoke quietly, "It's over.. and it's driving me insane."