Chapter
Five: Looking to the Past
Carly's nights were full of strange dreams mostly about Sonny. Images of him throwing her out of his home, berating her but then being sweet and loving to her. Every night she was yanked out of her dreams of Sonny and was in cabin with a man on top of her and she was struggling under him. This part of her dream always scared her because this man had a crazy glazed over look in his eyes. She woke with a start and saw Bobbie watching over her.
Carly: Mom?
Bobbie: I'm here Carly.
Carly: My brain is so fuzzy. The last couple of nights I have had dreams about that Sonny. Why?
Bobbie: Well, You and Sonny have a very complicated history. I think I should let him explain it to you though.
Carly: I guess.
Jax: Have room for one more in here?
Carly: Of course.
Jax: It's good to see you Carly.
Bobbie: Well I'm going to see about getting you home.
Carly: Ok.
(Jax sat on the chair next to her bed and looked at her. She looked very different from when he first saw her. She looked rested and her bruises were healing. There were no more tubes except for a couple of IV's.)
Jax: How are you feeling?
Carly: I'm ok for just waking from a coma three days ago. Jax…
Jax: Carly?
Carly: I can't remember.
Jax: Remember what?
Carly: This man named Sonny. He was here a couple days ago. Bobbie told me I knew him. That he was Michael's adopted father but I have no clue that he is.
(Jax smiled he could tell her whatever he wanted about Corinthos. How bad for her he is, anything. One look in her eyes and he knew that he couldn't betray their friendship like that. Even though he didn't want to he decided to be nice.)
Jax: Well I can tell you he never gave up hope that you were alive. He loves you and I think he should be the one to tell you about your past.
Carly: I wish I could remember.
Jax: When you're ready you'll remember.
(Bobbie came back in the room and sat on the other side of Carly's bed.)
Carly: Well mom?
Bobbie: Tony said that I could take you home if you have a nurse with you 24/7 for a few days. Just to make sure you're ok.
Carly: Will you do it?
Bobbie: I wouldn't have it any other way.
Jax: Well, I better be going. I have some business to attend to.
Carly: Jax?
Jax: Yeah.
Carly: How's the club?
Jax: Business is great. Never been better. You really did it.
(Carly felt relived. Now if she could only remember the man everyone said loves her. At the penthouse Sonny was sitting on his couch nursing a brandy. He hadn't slept since he left the hospital three days ago. All he did was sit on the couch and nurse the same brandy for hours at a time. Memories of him and Carly began to race through his mind.)
Dialogue from actual scenes used in flashbacks
(He thought about when she helped him through the breakdown he had a few years ago.)
Sonny (in thought): She helped me. I was cruel to her that night and she stayed with me.
Flashback: Sonny's Breakdown
Carly: You know, the other night, the only reason I stayed here was because of Jason. I mean, you're his best friend. I couldn't walk out on you, but I don't really care how you feel about it. It wasn't about you.
Sonny: So, what, I'm supposed to be grateful?
Carly: No. But you've got a soul. Not that I was looking for it and not that I even care, but, you know, you've got one.
Sonny: Oh, so that's your scam now. You're going to act noble and do the right thing so that way I'll keep you in touch with Jason forever, even though he finally got smart and dumped you? What if I don't tell Jason anything? What are you going to do? You going to tell everybody what happened? That you found me and what I did?
Carly: That's not the deal, and you know it.
Sonny: OK. I'll tell Jason.
(Sonny thought about when she was pregnant with his child, how she loved that baby. She would have done anything for him. This brought a tear to Sonny's eye.)
Flashback: Carly's gift for their baby.
Carly: well, didn't you get teased a lot when you were growing up?
Sonny: I did, and I just beat people up. A daughter maybe would have your blond hair. What do you think?
Carly: or maybe it would have red hair like Michael. You know, maybe it'll be a boy. Michael can have a little brother.
Sonny: that would be nice. I always wanted a brother or sister.
Carly: or a son.
Sonny: yeah.
Carly: it's amazing, sort of, having this little life inside that we've never met and yet it's already changed everything, you know?
Sonny: for the better. You know, I always say I regret it, and I do because it was wrong. I hurt Jason, and I -- you know, I remember what you told me -- I took his whole life and everything he loved and deserved to have. But I got to tell you, my child, our child, I tell you, is the best thing that ever happened to me.
Carly: you know what? It doesn't matter how this baby was conceived. What matters is that we love it. And we always will.
Sonny: thanks for the surprise.
Carly: I'm glad you like it.
(He remembered when she fell at the quatermaines. He remembered how she looked when he had to tell her that she lost their baby. The disbelief and sadness in her eyes, it killed him to have to tell her.)
Flashback: Sonny telling Carly their baby is dead.
CARLY: NURSE! GET OUT! I WANT MY BABY, SONNY. I WANT TO SEE MY SON. I WANT TO SEE MY SON.
SONNY: OUR BABY'S DEAD.
CARLY: YOU'RE A LIAR...
SONNY: CAN YOU --
CARLY: YOU'RE A LIAR. YOU --
YOU LIE. YOU'RE NOT GOING TO TAKE
MY CHILD FROM ME. YOU'RE A LIAR.
GET OUT. GET OUT. I WANT TO SEE MY SON. GET OUT! I WANT TO SEE MY
SON! SONNY, YOU CAN'T KEEP HIM FROM ME. I'M HIS MOTHER. HE NEEDS ME.
I WANT TO HOLD HIM. I WANT TO HOLD MY BABY. I WANT MY BABY. I WANT MY
BABY! I WANT MY -- MY BABY.
SONNY: YOU GOT TO TRY AND TAKE IT EASY, YOU KNOW.
CARLY: WHAT HAPPENED? HOW COULD YOU LET THEM TAKE OUR BABY?
(Sonny's mind shifted from one pivotal moment in their lives together to the next. He remembered when he finally told Carly he loved her.)
Flashback: Sonny tells Carly he loves her.
Carly: I guess that I should've realized that people will say anything when somebody's dying in order to help you through it, you know?
Sonny: What do you mean?
Carly: Alexis made something up because I guess that she was trying to help me, but - I wish she would've picked some other meaningless thing to say, Because she said that - that you told her that you wanted her to tell me that - that you love me. Like you would be thinking about me when you were laying there shot. You were probably telling her these are the orders that you wanted to give to Benny, right?
Sonny: I think I did. Then I realized that I couldn't breathe and I couldn't speak very well, and it occurred to me that I was probably going to die and I didn't want to. Not without telling my wife what she's given me. Not without telling my wife what she is to me. So I grabbed Alexis and I told her to tell you that I love you. Because I love you with everything I have.
Sonny (Thought): When Sorel started becoming a problem, I worried about Carly's safety and decided to shut her out and make her hate me, to protect her. She saw right through me though, she knew I loved her. She flew to Martinique to make me follow her and she saw me pray for her safety. Then our wedding began.
Flashback: Sonny and Carly's wedding
Carly: Well, yeah, because the other one was just, like, a formality, and this is -- this one really counts.
Sonny: You have any other superstitions, like throwing salt over your -- over your shoulder?
Carly: No, I'd probably blind the priest. Anyway, you're all the good luck I need.
Father Martin: Mrs. Corinthos?
Carly: Hi!
Father Martin: I'm glad to see you.
Carly: Ooh.
Sonny: We -- we're ready.
Carly: We're more than ready. We're extremely ready.
Father Martin: No more reservations, concerns? Now is the time.
Carly: No, I think that -- I love Sonny. Sonny loves me. We want to get married before god. We think he'll understand.
Father Martin: The union of husband and wife is intended by god for their mutual joy, for the help and comfort given one another in prosperity and adversity, and, when it is god's will, for the procreation of children and their nurture in the knowledge and love of the lord. Therefore, marriage is not to be entered into unadvisedly or lightly but reverently, deliberately, and in accordance with the purposes for which it was instituted by god. Into this union, Caroline and Michael now come to be joined.
Sonny (Thought): We were so happy then she decided to try and force me into the witness protection program. I was cold to her and shut her out. Then Sorel stabbed me at Lily's grave and Angel took care of me. I never knew how crazy Carly went when I disappeared until Bobbie told me. When I heard Sorel had Carly, Alexis, and Zander my blood boiled. I was so worried about Carly. Then I wore that bomb and tried to get rid of Sorel. Carly found me after the explosion I wanted to hold her and tell her I loved her but I just couldn't get by the betrayal. Then I saw the bruise on her face. Sorel had hit the woman he loved.
Flashback: After the Explosion in the penthouse
Sonny: I should've been here. Sorel - will not live to hurt another woman.
Carly: When he took me hostage, I thought I can make things right by saving you. That's why I told you not to come; I would've died in your place.
Sonny: You think that's what I want?
Carly: I would've killed him with my bare hands. I can handle this now; I know I can handle all the danger. I know how it works now and I will prove it to you. I will spend the rest of my life proving it to you.
Sonny: I'm not asking you to prove anything.
Carly: But I want to. I am worthy of being your wife Sonny, all you have to do is take me back.
Sonny: Come on, I'm taking you to the doctor. I want someone to look at that.
Sonny (Thought): Finally I was ready to forgive Carly and I wanted her back. She turned the tables on me and did something I wouldn't expect. She signed the divorce papers. Then that night on the docks and in the penthouse we were so close. Then Alexis came in and like an idiot I assumed Carly started trouble. She made me see that there was nowhere else for us to go.
Flashback: Carly convinces Sonny to sign the divorce papers
Carly: You see, there's no place left for us to go now. Don't you?
Sonny: Yeah.
Sonny: You know I love you, don't you?
Carly: Yeah. And I love you. You know that, right?
Sonny: Is there anything else you need?
Carly: Yeah. I need you to sign those divorce papers.
Singer: The ice is thin come on, dive in
Sonny: All right.
Singer: Underneath my lucid skin the cold is lost forgotten
Carly: Hey.
Sonny: All right. Bye.
Sonny (Thought): Carly and I stayed apart for a while. She looked wonderful at her club opening and again I wanted to tell her that I wanted to start over. Then A.J. married Courtney and that fateful night happened. I was so messed up that night. Alexis was there and I gave in. I knew Alexis was in love with me and I never imagined that Carly would be there. After Zander told me about the accident I didn't believe it. I knew Carly didn't drive but the car was hers. I had to go to Zander to find out the whole story. What he told me shocked me to my core.
Flashback: Sonny at Zander's to find out what Carly saw
Sonny: Why did you throw Carly out? What did she do wrong? Or did you throw her out after you got what you wanted?
Zander: No.
Sonny: Then why? Why didn't you let her stay?
Zander: Because even then, it wasn't about me. It was all about you.
Sonny: Okay, Carly came she came at you, but it was all about me, which means she well, it was payback. She wanted to even the score, right? She knew about she knew about Alexis and me, which means she was in the penthouse. She heard something. Found something? What? Tell me what Carly saw that night.
Zander: She saw you and Alexis in bed.
(Sonny remembered Zander's eyes they were so cold. Zander loved her. He was the one who kissed her at the bar and had Carly in his bed. He thought about taking care of Zander but thought better of it. A knock on the door finally brought him back to reality.)
Sonny: Come in.
(It was Alexis. As soon as she walked and saw his trashed penthouse she knew something was wrong. Her first impulse was to comfort him but she knew she couldn't.)
Alexis: Are you ok?
Sonny: Oh yeah, I'm fine. My ex-wife has no clue who I am but I'm fine.
Alexis: What?
Sonny: She doesn't remember me. She has no clue who I am.
Alexis: I'm sure it's just temporary, probably from the coma. I'm sure she'll remember you soon.
Sonny (aggravated): What then? She'll also remember what she saw that night. Remember Alexis, she saw us together. When I thought for a second she was dead. I went dead inside. I need her. If she remembers that night I could lose her forever.
Alexis: You won't lose her. She loves you. She's proven it more than once.
Sonny: I'm sorry Alexis.
Alexis: For what?
Sonny: I know how you feel about me.
Alexis: It's ok I am glad I could listen.
Sonny: Thank you.
Alexis: Actually, the reason I came over was to ask you to stay out of trouble while I'm gone.
Sonny: Gone?
Alexis: I am going to LA for a couple weeks. I need to get away for a little while. You know clear my head. Kristina actually convinced me to go. It could give you and Carly some time to work things out. Well, I better go. I have a flight to catch.
(Alexis leaves and Sonny decides to follow Alexis's example and go to the island to figure out how to get his family back. He was determined to win Carly back even if she remembered and wanted nothing to do with him he wouldn't give up. At the hospital Carly was eagerly awaiting to be discharged. Bobbie had gone to her house to pick her up a change of clothes. Carly was beginning to get stir crazy when a familiar face entered the room.)
Carly: Hi, Zander.
Zander: Hey, how are you?
Carly: Looking forward to being released. Where have you been?
Zander: Around. I'm sorry I didn't come by sooner. I actually came here to say good-bye.
Carly: Good-bye?
Zander: I need to get a fresh start. After Emily and everything else. I need to start over somewhere that isn't Port Charles and where Sonny isn't.
Carly (Carly disregards the last comment): I'm going to miss you.
Zander: I'll miss you too.
Carly: Well come over here and give me a hug.
(Zander hugs Carly and lets a tear fall down his cheek. He was going to miss her more than she would ever know.)
Carly: Don't be a stranger.
Zander: I promise.
(Zander leaves and Carly lays back and thinks about their friendship. As she thought she noticed there were holes in their relationship. Parts of time that she couldn't remember. She found this to be strange and wondered if it had anything to do with Sonny. She decided that when she got him she would look through her pictures and diary's to see if she can figure out who she was.)
