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When Names are in () that mean there in thought.

Hanyou: Half demon

Kitsune: Fox demon

Hiraikotsu: Big Boomerang and Sango's weapon.

Baka: Stupid, asshole

Bouzu: Insult for a monk

Miko: Priestess

Youkai: Full demon

Kawaii: cute

Sutras: Holy paper spell

Shikon no Tama: Jewell of 4 souls.

Gomen: Sorry

Hai: Yes.

Koibito: Boyfriend, girlfriend.

Ai Shiteiru: I love you.

Aisuru: Beloved.

Goshinboku: The God Tree.

Neko: cat

Kazaana: The hole in Miroku hand (Wind Tunnel)

Chibi: Little

Chapter 6: Inuyasha' s long and painful pass.

He was there remembering all of his pass memories, painful, hurting, disgusting and betrayal was much of he had think when he remember it all, but it wasn't all bad feeling, with an heavy sign he start to write his long and sad life and the even of it what a nightmare Inuyasha though.

Inuyasha's memories:

I was born 219 years ago, I never said my age because that doesn't mean I'm an elder or your elder, I consider myself to be by human age and standard 19 years old, so I continue, I was born half human half demon or if you prefer a hanyou in a castle of noble. I'm the second son of the great dog demon and lord of the western land named Inutaisho and my mother Lady Izayoi. My father died protecting me and my mother so I don't remember him except for what I saw when I banish Sounga to the hell I saw what he look like and his voice, he said that he was proud of me. I have a half brother named Sesshomaru, he's a full dog demon born from the same father, but another dog demon tribe witch why he had poisoned claw his mother Churia was a poisonous dog demon and left them because it was just for an alliance. That I know from my mother. Now for until 7 I live with my mother in a small village of noble but no one would talk, play or anything with me or my mother, when I first heard the word half breed and ask my mother what was the meaning of those word she cry for the first time in from of me she hug me tight and said to me that it was some bad word. Almost a week later on a dark night for my they set the mansion where we were napping they had but some paralysis poison in our food, as a half demon I wasn't totally numb when I sniff the smoke I wake my mother who say to go and run for my life because she was paralysed but I wouldn't, I try everything to save her but I was weak and a little numb myself. She wanted to me to live a long life and find love and friendship so for her wish to come true I flew my heart breaking into all piece. Now I was alone in the forest against demon and human, I learn the hard way to kill for survive, hunt and all, since that fateful day I didn't really slept for more than 150 years I've gone to forest to another something meeting my bastard of brother but never done anything but pass by. Until I heard some rumours of a jewel that could make me full blooded demon. If I was to become that I will be accepted by a least the demon so a started headed the way the rumours headed to. That when I for met Kikyo, I try to stole the jewel from her but she stop me but not kill me, I ask her why she didn't do it, she answer with another question, she ask if I was really an half demon, well that's when our relationship start, first I just watch her from the tree but I knew she was aware of my presence, than we start talking about her life not mine I wouldn't wanted to, we sat by each other side talking for hour, then one day she came with the idea of a future together without obligation, all I must had pay his my demon part to became human, I was foolish then to accept this without thinking first, but when we take on that boat little trip together something happened I start to stop feeling alone, I was ready to open my heart once again but week after we continued to talked about it and when the day finally come something happen, has for what I though then I felt betrayed and I closed my heart and came to the village and stole the jewel for my previous wish, but again Kikyo pinned me to the god tree for 50 years, sealing my soul into a sleep and not aged for that much time. Than someone arrived someone that will change forever that someone his Kagome Higurashi, even if she's Kikyo reincarnation she nothing like her, Kagome is kind to all even demon, always smiling and warm, she's young but is more mature for her age, she have, even if I always said the other way, she an excellent archer and miko, she just as stubborn as me. So she pass through the well he saw me pinned on the tree when I woke up she was cry for help a giant centipede demon on her tail, I say Kikyo, but she said her name was Kagome, I was comparing her to Kikyo than, I saw that she had the jewel so I plan to escape that prison with my wish so I ask her to remove the arrow from my heart since she was Kikyo's reincarnation if she wanted to live of course, she decided to live and free me, against the old hag warning, after killing that demon I when to grab the jewel and try killing her, but again the hag put a subduing spell on me that Kagome choose the word SIT ! Just because I have dog-ears, how humiliating! Since she has broke the Shikon jewel we travel trough all the country to find all pieces and the one who kill so many people and made Kikyo and me betray each other, and put a curse on Miroku's family. I've became more close to them to any other with the help of Kagome, she's the one who brought us all together. Since him on it I should say that I don't hate Shippo, even if I act like a jerk it's for him to learn that life he's no always easy, I see him like his was my son, I realise it when he protect everyone from the fire when we were fighting the band of seven and you were poisoned. We are like a big family even if I'm closer to some of them more. I know that when I go see Kikyo it hurt Kagome but I still feel that I have some obligation for her but then again I start to think I was wrong to promise my life to her, she not herself anymore and I want to live not die after we beat Naraku. I always feel sorry as if I betray Kagome again and again. Even if I'm eager to finish this journey I hope that when it's done and the jewel gone for good, I hope that Kagome would still be able to gap between times, I feel so alone without her, even if I have friends.

Inuyasha read it's sheets and with many emotions and blush for what he had wrote he go down the tree and enter the house to follow the path to the kitchen where he find the others except Kagome, why was she making so much time. He asks to the others to not look at his sheets, he's not ready yet.

Shippo: Baka we agreed to wait to all of us to finish of course we don't look at your sheets.

Inuyasha: Hey watch what you say twerp.

Shippo: Grrrrr.

Mrs H.: He's right honey you must respect your elders even if it's Inuyasha.

Miroku: Well that a news!

Sango: Yeh!

Inuyasha: Keh!

Inuyasha use it's hearing to hear what Kagome do, but she was doing nothing, he sense that she was afraid to write something that she might regret maybe or wouldn't want to write about him, that disturb him until he heard her begin to writing. He pushes all negative thoughts and starts a conversation with Kagome's mom about food in this era.

Back to Kagome, before Inuyasha came and try to hear her, she was lost in her thoughts and memories, where to start, what to say, what to don't say, she didn't want to hurt anyone feeling especially Inuyasha's, and if she don't says that much she would be considered as a coward for not giving all the truth.

(Kagome): no everyone are counting on my participation, but if I said something bad about what I feel toward Kikyo, Inuyasha and Kaede might get personally hurt, but if I don't say anything about those thing how can Inuyasha truly love me for who I am, that maybe the only way I will start with a little of me then the adventure trough the well house, yes that's it I just hope to not break heart, or get my heart broken by what Inuyasha wrote about her. A come on girl, he right what he felt and feel and you do the same let him see that you're a strong mind, all right please god help me with this, her I come. (Sigh)