I Write Sins not Tragedies
A/n I'm so sorry this chapter is so late, my internet was out for about two weeks, I received a bit of writer's block and then we redid our flooring in my living room, we now have hardwood flooring instead of our old ugly carpet that I hated. Anyways I hope you guys like this chapter after the long wait.
dancingwindforever: I'm glad you liked the Pablo Neruda poem, he is a really great poet :D
Lyphta: yes my town is very small…and only getting smaller -.- and you'll see if Eriol walks in or not :D
AirStriker: thanks for saying you like how I bring other books into the story
Disclaimer: I do not own CCS, CLAMP does. I do own this plot though but the song I based it off of belongs to the great and talented Panic! At The Disco. I do not own the song that is mentioned in this chapter, the song is I Don't Know you Anymore by Savage Garden.
Recap of chapter 8…
They started to kiss each other passionately on the couch as one of Sakura's hands was on his shoulder and the other was placed on his neck while Syaoran's were on her waist. They eventually pulled away for air and Syaoran pushed her over and climbed on top of her and started kissing her neck. Sakura started to moan as he placed kisses all over. He eventually got back to her mouth kissing her again. When they pulled away again Sakura said with her voice breathless.
"Maybe I am like Dominique."
Chapter 9: A Bridesmaid to a Waiter
After she said that his mouth once again came crashing down on hers. Eventually they started to move towards his bedroom. They made their way over to his bed. They continued to kiss and Syaoran started to lift her shirt off. As Sakura felt her shirt being lifted off her, reality sank in.
She pushed him off surprising Syaoran. Breathing deeply she put her hand over her heart feeling how fast it was beating. "What were we doing?"
"We were making out on my bed, you know we could have gone further if you hadn't pushed me away," Syaoran replied in an annoyed tone. He was angry she had pushed him away, he had dreamed of that moment for years and she just ruined it when it was about to come true.
"But…but I can't be doing this…it's not right," she started shaking her head and starting to get off the bed until Syaoran grabbed hold of her wrist.
"Why is it not right?" he asked.
Her eyes widened as she stared at him in disbelief for she couldn't believe what he just said, "You're kidding me right? Syaoran I'm married!"
"So," was his response. "That doesn't matter to me."
"But it does to me!" she screamed, she wrenched her wrist out of his grasp and got off the bed while Syaoran just stayed on the bed starring at her while she continued to yell at him. "I made a vow on my wedding day to stay faithful to Akira! I can't be doing this with you! I don't even know why I'm even here or why I even went this far with you!"
"But you don't love him," was all Syaoran said when she was finished.
"Y-yes I do," she stuttered.
"No you don't," he stood up off the bed and walked up to her putting his hands on her shoulder. "You love me, you always have and always will."
"I'm married to Akira, Syaoran," Sakura sighed.
"So you don't deny you've always loved me and not him," he took his hands off her shoulder and smirked.
She clenched her fists when she saw him smirk but looked up into his eyes, "You want to know why I married him?"
He nodded his head waiting to hear the answer to the question he had been wondering ever since he first saw Richie at the dinner party he was working at.
"He was nothing like you," she looked down not being able to look at his face. "You were right earlier, I was doing the same thing as Dominique when she married Peter. He was nothing like you, at first he made me forget about you because there was absolutely nothing about him that reminded me of you in him, it worked for four years, until I saw you at that dinner party, then I couldn't stop wishing he was more like you because I couldn't get you out of my head and I kept thinking of the mistake I made marrying the complete opposite of you. I realized that I was just punishing myself for loving you and even though we didn't work out." She looked up at him with tears streaming down her face, "There's your reason okay? I married him hoping I could forget you! I had you know, I really had forgotten about you, and then you had to show up again and act exactly like you did before reminding me why I fell in love with you all those years ago! I know I wasn't in the happiest marriage in the world, but at least I didn't think about you anymore! All I thought of was how miserable I was in that marriage because he only liked to show me off, and then you came back and instead of thinking how miserable and pathetic my marriage was, I thought of how I wished I was married to you instead! Are you happy now? You got your reason, that's why I married Richie!"
Everything was quiet as he just stared at her as the tears flowed down her face. She was breathing heavily from all the yelling she had done but even through tears and breathlessness, she continued to stare him in the eyes while he did the same to her.
"After that confession you're just going to stand there and stare? You have absolutely nothing to say to me?" Sakura asked after five minutes of silence.
Syaoran didn't say anything at all, he just pulled her to him and kissed her. He pulled her towards the bed again and this time when he tried to take off her shirt… Sakura didn't stop him.
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Sakura woke up a few hours later feeling safe and content wrapped in strong arms with her head resting on a strong chest. She snuggled into the person's chest until she realized that the person she was snuggled up against didn't smell like her husband. Akira usually smelled like his cologne, but this person smelt like soap and mouthwash. She opened her eyes to look at who she was snuggled up to and almost screamed when she saw who it was.
Syaoran was the one holding her up against his bare chest still sleeping. She carefully turned over trying to find a clock in the room and saw that it was seven o'clock. She had been with Syaoran since noon because they went out for lunch. Hopefully Akira wasn't home yet. She gently unwrapped Syaoran's arm from around and got out of the bed to get dressed.
Right when she finished dressing she heard a sleepy voice call out to her.
"Where are you going?"
She looked over to the bed and saw Syaoran rubbing sleep out of his eyes and sit up in the bed.
"Home," she answered quietly.
"Already? Why?" he asked confused looking disappointed that she was leaving.
"It's seven o'clock, Akira will be home from work soon and he'll be upset if I'm not there. I've been with you all day," she replied heading for the door.
"Are you going to act like this never happened?" there was bitterness in his tone.
"That would probably be for the best," she looked down not being able to look him in the eyes.
"What's that supposed to mean Sakura?" he asked angrily.
I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called but someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend that you've forgiven me
"It means that we should act like this never happened. It never should have happened in the first place!" Sakura yelled at him.
'cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again
"You wanted it to happen just as much as I did. You would have stopped the whole thing after I tried again if you didn't," he kept himself from yelling at her, as hard as it was.
Springtime in the city
Always such relief from the winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold if you know what I mean
Everyone's got an agenda
Don't stop keep that chin up you'll be alright
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?
"That doesn't change that I'm married and just broke my wedding vows!" she argued.
'cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from these sentences
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again
"You already admitted that you don't love him and that you love me. You shouldn't feel guilty about it at all," was his retaliation.
I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the price
I'm still paying for it every day
"That doesn't change that I'm still married to him! I can't help but feel guilty Syaoran!" she was holding back tears now.
So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?
"What happened to you? What happened to the Sakura I know? The one who believed that you should only marry someone you love with all your heart? I don't think I know you anymore," the look in his eyes was cold as he stared at her.
Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again
"I'm still the same Sakura, I haven't changed," she spoke so quietly like she was saying it to herself to reassure herself it was true.
I see your face
I see your face
He walked up to her and placed his hands on her shoulders. "You're not if you stay married to him. You need to be married to someone who knows you, and he doesn't, I know you better than anybody and you know that."
"Can you just give me some time to get my thoughts together?" she pleaded.
"Fine," he sighed defeated. "Just let me get dressed and I'll see you to the door."
Sakura nodded and waited for him to get his clothes back on. When he did, he opened his bedroom door and let her walk out first.
As they walked into the living room, they heard voices.
"Okay, so name all the characters to Saved by the Bell," a male voice that Syaoran recognized as Eriol's say.
"Zack Morris, Kelly Kapowski, Jesse Spano, A.C Slater, Lisa Turtle, Samuel 'Screech' Powers, Richard Bellding, Tori Scott in the final high school season and in the college years Leslie Burke, Alex Tabor and Mike Rogers," a female voice replied.
"What about the first season when they were in junior high?" Eriol asked.
"Trick question, that season wasn't considered Saved by the Bell, it was called Good Morning Miss Bliss," the female responded triumphantly.
Syaoran and Sakura walked further into the living room to see Eriol sitting on the couch with an ebony haired female. They seemed to be quizzing each other on old TV shows and movies.
"Ah touché," Eriol replied while the woman grinned. "Now name two movies where the couple decided to meet at the top of the Empire State Building."
"Sleepless in Seattle, that one they actually meet there and An Affair to Remember but they don't end up meeting."
"Your good, but answer this, what two movies did Deborah Kerr play the same characters as Irene Dunne?"
"Deborah Kerr played Terry McKay in An Affair to Remember, which was a remake of the Irene Dunne 1939 movie Love Affair which her characters name was Terry McKay and Deborah also played Anna in The King and I while Irene also played Anna is the first version Anna and the King of Siam."
Before Eriol could respond Syaoran spoke up, "What's going on here?" he asked confused.
Eriol turned around and smiled at his roommate happily, "Oh Tomoyo, this is my roommate Syaoran Li, Syaoran this is my perfect woman Tomoyo Daidouji."
"Hello," Tomoyo gave a little wave and smiled at him and Sakura. "And who might you be?" she asked gesturing to Sakura.
"I'm Sakura Saiko," Sakura smiled at the other woman who looked to be about the same age as her.
Sakura and Tomoyo didn't notice the glare Eriol sent to Syaoran the moment Sakura said her name. Syaoran just shrugged the glare off not caring.
"So Eriol, why is Tomoyo here your 'perfect woman'?" Syaoran asked trying to get him to stop glaring at him.
Eriol smiled and put his arm over Tomoyo's shoulder, "She is the only woman who knows just as much as I do when it comes to old movies and TV shows."
"Ah, you really are his perfect woman than," Syaoran smirked over at Tomoyo causing her to blush looking down and Eriol to laugh.
"Well I got to get going, it was nice meeting both of you. I'll talk to you later Syaoran," Sakura said as she walked out of the apartment before anyone could say goodbye to her.
"She seems nice," Tomoyo said after Sakura walked out. Eriol gave Syaoran another glare while Tomoyo was staring at the door.
TBC
A/n I know this update is really late but I hope you liked this chapter. And I brought Tomoyo into the story so that should make up for it right? Anyways remember to read and review and I hopefully will get the next chapter up soon.
