Okay, thank you to everyone that commented, and gave me advice.
Thank you to: LorelaiLukeForever, JJSoulmatesLL, and flirtswithdisaster.
Don't worry; they will be back together, going strong again by next chapter!
Chapter 4
Finally it was getting close to the time of their date, and Luke was getting even more antsy then before. Every little thing made him jump, and he was getting really tired of it. He retreated upstairs for awhile to think. He thought of all the ways that this could go wrong, how he could ruin their first date, and how she could be changing her mind. That is what scared him the most, Lorelai changing her mind. He had no idea why she liked him, and could see nothing special about himself. He had ruined so many relationships…..he hoped beyond hope that this would be different. But truly he wasn't sure.
Lorelai kept watching the clock- for some reason she was getting scared. Like needing to run away type scared. Praying desperately that she wouldn't ruin this beautiful thing that was starting she knew that she couldn't go out on this date. She needed time. Suddenly she panicked, and there was only one way out. She grabbed her car keys, deciding to run. Now, the only question on her mind was to call him or not…….. she would have to think of an excuse if she did call him. Otherwise, the excuse could wait awhile, if it came at all. Oh, it wasn't that she didn't love him. She truly beyond any doubt loved him-and it scared her. But they had only shared their feelings 2 days ago, and true love was coming on awful fast. She hadn't had any time to process all that had happened, and now, the terror of jumping into something this big and getting hurt was hitting her. If it wasn't going to last, or wasn't really real, she didn't want anything to do with it. So she jumped into her car, and drove away. Lorelai knew that Luke probably was the One for her, but she wanted to be sure- whatever that meant. Her heart knew and understood, even if it did sound weird to her head. She wanted to be able to jump in completely if this was real, and before she thought through things, that wouldn't be possible. No, she wouldn't call him. She didn't really want to hear his voice. Life should be more complicated then it had been over the last 2 days, and it worried her that it was so easy. All in all, Lorelai needed some time to process. Lorelai had no idea where she was going- but the only thing that she knew that she wanted was Rory. Rory could put everything back into perspective. So she turned towards Yale.
Luke walked up the driveway of the house that he knew so well. How many countless times had he been here to fix something? How many times had he hoped that when that beautiful woman opened that door, she would be opening her heart to him too? Realizing that she was as in love with him as he was in love with her. But this time, he was walking up her driveway to pick her up for a date! He was going out with Lorelai Gilmore. He didn't see that her car was gone. He didn't even notice that there were no lights on in the house. He was too excited. So he knocked on the door, and knocked on the door. Finally he sat on the porch, he knew that girls sometimes took a long time to get ready but they normally opened the door to the guy first right? His hope faded around 8:20. Had she forgotten? Did she run? Was there something wrong that he should be worried about? Luke had no idea. But he got up and started to head back down her driveway. Then he realized that her car wasn't there. She wasn't here waiting for him…..she had run away from their date. He had hoped that he could be better for her then all the other guys in her life. But maybe she couldn't have a good relationship……He didn't know what to think, but he knew that he was really hurt, and felt really stupid to think that he could be better for her. Now his heart was deeply involved even if it had officially only been 2 days, for his poor heart, it had been 8 years of waiting and hoping for this moment/ chance. And it had been 8 years of a very long and bumpy roller coaster ride. His chance with her had only last for 2 days.
As Lorelai neared Yale, she reached for her phone and turned it on. She almost cried when there was no message from Luke. But it was Rory she needed to call, so she dialed the number- pushing thoughts of Luke out of her mind for the moment. When Rory answered the phone she barely said hello before her mother sobbed out her story.
"Mom, you have got to go back to Luke. You and Luke and so right together. You have been happier in these last 2 days then ever before. Go and get him! He probably thinks you bailed on him, which you did! Please go back to him mom, you two were perfect." Rory was starting to panic, her mother was running away from the first truly perfect relationship she had ever had, and it scared her. She wanted her mother to be happy. Really really happy.
Lorelai went on to tell her daughter all of her concerns. She cried a little, sobbed a lot. Lorelai knew deep deep down, that this was right……and her running away wasn't really about that. It was working out all of her confusion about finally having the perfect relationship.
When Lorelai got to her daughter's dorm, they talked this through much more thoroughly. Rory hugged her, and listened to her babbling. That was really all her mother needed. Lorelai liked to be in control of her life, she liked to have all the answers, and sometimes she crashed and needed to be picked up and cared about for awhile. It didn't really happen very often, but it stopped scaring Rory long ago. They talked and hugged and cried, and talked about how perfect Luke was for Lorelai. Lorelai still didn't believe that Luke had liked her all these years, but Rory knew the truth. They spent hours talking until Lorelai realized that she might have just ruined everything with Luke. Lorelai knew that she was still into this, but Luke didn't know that! In trying to fix her confused heart, she might have lost the perfect relationship. Suddenly she needed to talk to Luke. Lorelai jumped out of her seat and said a quick goodbye to Rory. "I need to fix things with Luke" was her only explanation, and she ran out of the door.
Luke sat in the dark up in his apartment. He was taking this a lot harder then he probably should have……..but all he knew was that this hurt. Lorelai hadn't even given them a chance. He probably shouldn't have let his heart get so involved before their relationship got very far, but he couldn't help it. It was so exciting to finally have Lorelai in his life the way he had always wanted. Luke checked his messages for the millionth time. He wondered if he should be worried about her, or just upset that she ran away. Oh well, might as well go to bed. So Luke got ready, and went to bed- though he had too many questions in his heart to really sleep.
