"I am so sorry, Bella."
Bella stopped crying.
She looked into Edward's topaz eyes and said
"Don't be."
he looked confused.
"Now we can be together f-f-forever."
"I love you Bella."
"Forever?"
"Forever."
Bella stared up at the ceiling. She hated her lately. It was too bright, she thought often. She was still getting used to the fact that she didn't sleep anymore. She had tried to eat 'normal' food, but it didn't fill her up, as she had hoped. When ever she thought of hunting she wanted to cry. Edward was going to take her hunting this weekend, to teach her. To think all this time, this is what she wanted more than anything. More tham anything, she had wanted to become a vampire. Now she was one. What would she tell Charlie? He would notice sooner or later that she had changed. She didn't want to look in the mirror. She was afraid of what she would see. And now, her birthday was coming up. Eighteen. She was already dead, before eighteen. She hadn't planned a party. She wasn't up to it. She was still weak. It had only been a week since her transformation. She also wondered, how would her life be? Her future? What would she see? What terrors and pain would she have to live through? Death. Charlie's. her Mom's. All of her loved ones, her friends. She knew what pain was. She had lived, more like died, through Mike's death. Bella whimpered. She still felt horrible about Mike's death. It was her fault. All hers. Bella rolled over, and shut her eyes hopefully to the night.
Edward paced about his room. He was so restless, his mind swirling with questions. Would Bella survive? Would she be in pain? Will she change? Will she be able to adapt to our life style? He was worried about her. He hadn't seen her for three days. What was she doing? Where was she? He slammed down on his bed.
He would see her this weekend, sure, but how would she fend? How would she hunt? He knew she hated the thought of it. Would she skip it? Would she come? Just when Edward was about to explode, Alice walked in.
"Edward, are you ever going to come down?"
"No."
"Why not."
"Because I need to clear my head."
"Edward, you have been clearing your head all week!"
"There's a lot of stuff up there."
Alice walked over and sat next to Edward.
"Edward. It's about Bella isn't it."
Edward sighed and looked down. Alice placed a hand under his chin and lifted his eyes to hers.
"She'll be fine. Trust me. She's strong. She'll survive."
Edward thought for a moment.
"Alice, I'm just worried. This is the one thing I didn't want to happen, and it has. At my hand!"
"Edward you had no choice."
"I know, it's just, I wish I had. I took her life away from her."
"Edward. It really is okay. You really have to stop beating yourself up about this."
he sighed, stood up, and him and Alice walked downstairs.
