Sango left closing the door quietly. She went into her study that she now just built a while back where she could sit on the futon and relax for a while before Kouga came home to deliver her breakfast. Looking back 7 years ago now as she sat down she can remember everything that had happened like it was yesterday. She came back from her village and she ran into Miroku after coming back from her village. He had this solemn look on his face when he looked at her.
"Miroku, is everything ok? Nothing happened while I was gone did it?" Sango asked him as she went and took his hand into her's.
He pulled back and took a few steps backwards. He looked up at her. "Sango, I have something to tell you. You are going to get mad at me, I know you are so I am just going to come out and say it." Miroku said.
Sango looked at him wondering what could be so important. Here it was 4 years into finding the shards. They only had a couple more to go and then they knew that Naraku would come for them full force and they were ready. Even Lord Sesshomaru was going to help them. She looked into his eyes and started advancing on him. He took a step back for every one of her's. She stopped and looked at him. "What is it Miroku?"
"Sango, you have been with me for 4 years now. A relationship longer than I could have ever imagined to be. You have stuck by me even in the worst of times and I am so grateful for this. I have loved you since that first year but I have been too scared to tell you until now."
Sango's eyes started to get large. She knew that this day was going to come that he was going to make her his mate for life. She was so happy with joy.
"I am happy that you never thought very bad of me every time I asked every beautiful woman to bear my child. But ever since we first battled with Kagura, I have fallen in love with her and you. I have chosen her to be my mate now that Kagome released her from Naraku. We did not think that it was possible but it is. She is going to join our group this afternoon to help us and InuYasha and the rest have assured me that she will be protected with the rest of us. But I would still like to have you there with us."
She just stood there with her mouth open. She didn't know what to do or what to say to him. He had not chosen her after all. He had chosen the everlasting wind woman that still walks. She looked down at her hands they were shaking. She just couldn't believe what she was hearing.
"What did you say? Did you say that you love me but you are going to take Kagura as your mate?" Sango asked him.
"Yes, I did. I do hope that you can understand the reason behind it. I am so sorry Sango. I never meant for this to happen the way that it has." Miroku's eyes showing remorse, pain, and sadness.
She ran from him, away from him. She could not bear the pain that was in her heart, in her soul and still face him right now. She ran to the West away from Miroku and InuYasha's forest. She was crying so hard the tears never stopping. She doesn't know how long she was running for but she knew that she had to get away from him. Far away from him for a while at least. At sunset was when she finally stopped. From both hunger and that her feet hurt from running this whole time. The tears did stop a while back but the pain in her heart never did. She stopped near a hot spring, she sat down and took off her shoes and dangled her feet in there. She started crying again with hard sobs. Her head hanging low on her chest with her hands together in her lap.
"Why are you crying Sango?"
She looked up quickly to find the great Lord Sesshomaru standing on the other side of the spring.
"Leave me alone Sesshomaru." Sango spat with anger in her voice.
Arching up one eyebrow, "Where is my half brother and the others. Surely you are not out here in my lands alone are you?"
"I ran away from him. Ok! Are you happy now?" Sango brought her feet out of the water and turned away from the great Lord. And she thought Sesshomaru was the cold brother of the two. Boy was she wrong on that one.
Getting rather impatient with her he walked over to her. He took her arm and pulled her to her full height. He then grabbed her chin to make her look at him. "What would make you say that? Are you not bound to help my half brother?"
"Not anymore." She said wrenching her face free from his hands. Not caring if he scratched her or not. She started to walk away when she ran into him again. "Can't you see that I would like to be alone right now Sesshomaru?" She yelled.
"I do not wish to hear your tale, although I think I know what it is already. I do not think it wise, in your condition that you stay out here. I am going to take you to my palace when you can stay and rant." And with that he turned around and started walking to Ah Un. Sango looked at him and couldn't believe that he was going to let her stay in his palace with knowing that Miroku caused her pain in her heart. She ran into Lord Sesshomaru's arm for comfort. She hugged him so hard that she thought that she would hurt him. "Thank you Sesshomaru." Sango said as she closed her eyes and just hugged him. They mounted on Ah Un and left for his palace.
She remembers being with him for the longest time. She thought that she was going to be his mate and bear his cubs for she became so close to him. But, the tearing in her heart every time InuYasha and the rest came around Sesshomaru was almost outraged. He wanted nothing but to ban Miroku from the Tashido palace but knew that he couldn't. He was helping InuYasha after all and Sango was just a human that he cared deeply for. She remembered sharing many nights with him and Rin. Kouga at that time was never found around the Western lands. He was so outraged that she had chosen Sesshomaru over him at that time. But, she never actually mated with Sesshomaru. He knew that she took her virginity seriously. He knew that she wanted a serious relationship and marriage like that of her time and he could not allow that. For the superiors counsel would not accept the mating between the two considering what happened to their previous Taiyouaki. Sango always wondered what had happened to him and his wife. What exactly transpired and if that was the result of Sesshomaru's coldness at times when she mentioned either his or InuYasha's mother. But that was the past now and here she was in the Northern Lands that she shared with Kouga. Their official wedding to be soon where she was going to have her family come over to this time and be here for a while to share the time with her and her new family. Kagome had the remainder of the ones that the group found and Naraku of course had his "chunk". It seemed rather odd that when all 3 of them got together, the jewel would be whole again. It was a long and hard battle to get through for Kagome and the rest of us. It was a long battle that lasted so long. But now he is gone. Kagome told her once that once the jewel is whole, and Naraku was gone, that she would give it to Kikyou to have her make the one pure wish that she wished upon her. And now that the jewel and Naraku was gone, everything was as it should be. Sango remembers just looking at this older version of Kagome. Wondering if Kikyou really was a bad person or not? She didn't think so and decided to make Kikyou one of her bridesmaids. She knows all who is to be there. It would be Sango, Kagome as her matron of honor, then Aayme, Kikyou, and Rin. She had a special place in her heart for Rin and it just broke her heart the day she left her and Sesshomaru to build a life of her own village again with Kohaku. Rin had just started to call her mommy every time she would see her. Sango still visits her almost every other day to make sure that she is keeping up with her studies and is being nice to Sesshomaru.
Sango at that time started traveling back and fourth between her village and the Kaede's to get supplies. She went back to Kaede's village to start building herself a nice home and a new life. She knew that Miroku regarded that as his village also but her house was on the otherside away from him and his mate. She decided that was for the best and she was getting used to the two of them being together without the pain in her heart. She had to admit to herself that she was becoming quite mature in her young age. Because then she was just going to turn 21. Even at that time as she sat in her home alone on her futon, reflecting over the years remembering that it was now 6 years from the first time that she encountered the group.
She had her usual visitors during her time there. Kaede visited quite often to teach her how to train her on healing powers/herbs and keep them in track and trained her on how and when to use them properly. InuYasha and Kagome finally hooked up! After all this time! Their home was near Kaede's house. InuYasha and Kagome were finally happy and it was rather funny when they finally admitted their feelings for each other! And she heard that they did the love blood bond and made Kagome a hanyou! Which was wonderful because then they would be spending many more years together and happy!
Miroku and Kagura rarely visited her for obvious reasons. But, he would always be nice and say hi when he saw her roaming around the village or the countryside. Sango heard that after InuYasha and Kagome did their bond, that Miroku and Kagura did the same thing.
Even Sesshomaru would bring Rin over to her house to see her! She loved it when he would come and do that. They would spend hours talking and picking the flowers in her backyard garden that she had made up of all of Rin's favorite petals. Sesshomaru would just sit and watch the two interact. Always wondering where he went wrong with her. He had changed a lot since she left the palace. Although she remembered when Rin told her that he would just stay in his bed chambers and not come out for days on end. Saying that her scent was fading so fast from his bed sheets. Sango felt in her heart that she had made the right decision. But, it was always nice to see them and they would stay for days on one visit to her. Sango always insisting that Sesshomaru stay in her chambers with her so he could get his fresh scent of her and so they could talk into the wee hours of the night without disturbing Rin at all.
Kouga finally made an appearance to her after almost 3 years. He looked like he was hardened from the last time that they saw each other in Sesshomaru's study. The two were not in the greatest of moods that day when she walked in to have tea with Sesshomaru. The jaki of both demons were so high that she almost fainted from it. It took a lot to get Sesshomaru calmed down and to get Kouga to leave the palace. She remembered placing the tray down just inside the study on a table and walking over to Sesshomaru placing her body in-between the two demons. His eyes were red, the marks on his cheeks more purple than ever, and his skin more white than normal. She remembered placing her hand on his face, stroking his cheek with her thumb. Making him look at her this time, "Sesshomaru, I am here now. Please calm down." She pleaded with him. Never stopping her thumbs movement. He pulled her towards him to sit on his lap and caress her face with his hand. She remembered Kouga's face. The beautiful blue eyes that were now green staring at her with disbelief that she had chosen the mutt's older brother over him. "Kouga, please go to your quarters and we will talk later on the matter. But, for now leave and calm down." Sango said in a whisper. Her head now on Sesshomaru's collarbone and her arms wrapped around him, her hand still caressing his cheek. Kouga stormed out of the room slamming the door shut. Sesshomaru could hear his footsteps to his quarters and slamming that door shut too. She then moved in his lap to face him once again, placing a kiss on his lips to see if that would calm him down. "Sango…." Was all that came out of Sesshomaru's mouth until she returned to his quarters later that evening after talking with Kouga. Kouga was so furious that she would have chosen cold-hearted Sesshomaru over him! He always told her outwardly how he loved her after he found out about Kagome and InuYasha. He decided that the demon slayer was just as good as the miko. How he could take care of her every need without insults or yelling. He loved her wholly and with all his soul and she chose Sesshomaru. She came into his quarters not 30 minutes after what happened in the study.
Her head was low on her chest as she spoke. "Kouga, I am sorry for you saying that. I never meant for you to find out this way."
"Sango, tell me this and then I will leave you to be with Sesshomaru. Do you love him?"
At that question, her face shot up to look him straight in the eyes. Those beautiful blue eyes. "No, but he makes me happy and I don't know yet where this is going with Sesshomaru but I did not want you to die in there. You know that he would have since he considers me his. And his demon side would like nothing better than to have me marked. But I have avoided that till I know for certain that he can love me. I have been hurt so many times by InuYasha and that last blow that he delivered hurt the most. And you know that. I guess with Sesshomaru, I did not expect this to happen let alone think that I would be his mate. Please I never meant to hurt you nor did I know that your feelings for me ran this deep." Sango said.
Kouga looked at her with sad eyes. He walked up to her, and hugged her. Knowing that his scent is all over her and making sure that Sesshomaru does not miss the fact that Kouga was on her. But, that he was going to take a long walk to think things through.
He looked at her and pushed her chin up to look into her eyes. "Sango, I do understand your feelings. Your decision was of great concern for me. I love you for that. I love you no matter what Sango, human, miko, demon, I don't care as long as it is you." Kouga let go of her and kissed her on her forehead and left the palace. That was the last time that she saw him for almost 3 years. And now he makes sure that he visits at least 3 times a week. Making sure that she is ok.
She thought that it was so cute how every time he would come, he would have a new set of flowers to give to her. It was rather cute that he would court her. After all this time of seeing nothing but his arrogance and now she is seeing him for this true self. Sure the man showed some great compassion in everything that he did with her but she knew that it was to show that he still cared for her. That he still loved her and was willing to take the time to court her properly. Especially since he was the Lord of the Northern Lands. He wanted to make sure that everyone knew what was going on. Especially the monk and his sorceress bitch. Kouga never understood how Miroku could stand her everyday all day.
Well, ever since then, they have been together. Yes, he had finally won her heart and her soul. Ever since then she has gotten Miroku, Sesshomaru and Kouga to get a long like normal gentlemen when it came to her. Especially when it came to her. Even asking Sesshomaru for favors after she moved into Kouga's castle, for help on Shippo's studies and his training. She remembers the day that Kagome came with the little kistune in her arms. He was shaking but understood totally why and what was going on.
"Sango, could you please take Shippo. With me I am sure that soon going to have pups of my own, I would like to intrust you with him. He has always considered you as his second mother, and now he can think of you as his one mother." Kagome said while handing Shippo to her.
"Kagome, are you sure? I mean, do you trust me with him?"
"Yes I trust that you will do what I would do and that is your best."
Kagome then left with InuYasha who was rubbing his ear out of habit. Ever since then, she was happy at the time for the way that things were going. Kouga was giving in to her every need. She also told him of a red blood ceremony that she was going to do with him just after the service. He was very excited and yet scared at the same time because he did not know what was going on at the time or what it entailed at all. But he was ready for anything with Sango. He was so happy when she accepted his courting question while he visited her one-day. He never told her what he did after he left her in his quarters at Sesshomaru's that day. He thought it better if he did not. Because now it was in the past and he was ready for the future with his new mate.
Sango had to admit that she was happy with Kouga, there were times when she did purposely get him so mad at her that he would start yelling. Yelling challenges between her and him did not last long because he always gave in but she loved having them all the same. It took some time for Shippo to get used to the fact that he was not spending everyday with Rin anymore but was very happy on the times that her and Lord Sesshomaru have visited them at Kouga's castle.
She understood what the poor little kistune was going through. She wanted to give him the best that she could offer him. Especially since she was human and him being a demon. She wanted to have him grow up to be a very powerful and strong demon like she saw the others to be. She knew that if given the courage and the confidence he could do it. She remembered all the times that she would go out on a date with Kouga and poor little Shippo had to stay back with Kagome. He would cry every time because he was so scared that she wouldn't come back. And every time she did, and he would cry and tell her how much he missed her. It touched her heart every single time. Even now when they would go out to have some fun, he would do the same thing. Gosh how much she loved him, ever since Kagome and InuYasha found him all alone trying to be so strong to defend himself and then gave her to him to raise into a strong demon. He was so little then. And now with him being older, she is hoping that the training that he is going to get is going to make him more confident in himself.
