Kouga walked in to her study smiling at the sight before him. Sango was on her futon sleeping with a smile on her face. He was so happy to have her finally in his arms, in his palace, with him. He had worked so hard to make that happen. All the courting and the work to get her to realize what she truly means to him. And to get her to forget all that has happened in her past, even though he knew that he could not get her to forget her first love, that damn monk. He hurt her so much and then to have her run to Lord Sesshomaru for comfort when he was standing right there. He couldn't believe himself. He remembers that so clearly.
He was in Lord Sesshomaru's study talking, well more like yelling at him because he could not believe that Sesshomaru was taking care of his woman this whole time. And to even let Miroku visit the palace when he knew that it was tearing Sango's heart apart considering what had happened between the two. He was demanding to have his woman in his care to help her get through all of this turmoil. Lord Sesshomaru was not backing down. Kouga knew that Sesshomaru's full demon side claimed her as his mate already even though both him and her would not allow it yet since their relationship was just beginning. And Kouga did not understand how they could even share the same bed every night when she was his! He was in a total outrage and he was very super close to letting his demon side take over when she walked in.
He remembers seeing her face, it was so pale and so full of worry when she saw what they were doing. Kouga had a ping of guilt run through him when he saw her face like that. And then to see her walk in between them when it was clear that they were ready to fight to the death for her love. It was heartbreaking to see her touch his face and request that he back down and calm his soul. And to hear her to tell him to leave them alone! That was so bad. To hear that come out of her mouth and that she was going to explain things later in his bedchambers. He was so outraged and hurt and so sad. It felt like his heart was ripped out of his chest and she had it in her hands standing in front of him with it. He just didn't know what to do. But, he knew that he had to obey his woman out of love. Love that she knew he had for her but he did not think that she knew the ferocity of it. And he was going to show her no matter what. Given the time to do it now or later, he was going to show her that he loved her deeply with all his heart and soul. That he would do anything for her.
When she came to his bedchambers, he was standing there walking in circles wondering what in the hell just happened. She walked in with a sad look on her face. She knew that she broke his heart and she didn't know what to do. And when she spoke, the words came out as a whisper. Even though he did not have to strain to hear her words, she knew that she broke his heart the moment she moved in between the two charging demons. Her words dug deep into his heart. He did not know what to do. All he knew to do was to rip something apart. To feel the blood all over his body. The feel of a fresh kill in his hands. Maybe then he could calm down and not hurt anyone else.
Kouga remembers giving her a loving kiss on her forehead and then leaving. He went deep into his lands and worked on his palace. Making it better and ready for when he was going to bring her there and be his mate. He changed the layout of his bedchambers to accommodate her things in there also. He changed the battle courts incase she wanted Shippo to start using them. He started doing so many changes to everything! Almost every room to make sure that she would feel comfortable there. Even making sure that he would make sure that Kirara felt safe there with all the wolves. That was very important considering that fire cat could defeat any of his wolves in her full demon form. That was going to have to get used to also. He even made Kirara a cute little bed in their bedchambers.
He felt rather proud of himself after making all the changes in his palace. Even he had to admit that all the changes were needed heavily. He was also glad that he did not hurt anyone in the process of his rage when he came back. He reflected heavily on what had happened with Kagome at that time when he came back. How he thought that he loved her also and yet she also deceived him and went into InuYasha's arms for love. He was ok with that after thinking about it more. He always left her in his care, he always ran away from her even though he told her that he loved her. He was so wrong and do not blame her for that. He always admired the demon slayer from afar. Even for her putting up with that damn monk always groping her every chance that he could get! He always felt sorry for her because he would go and ask any woman to bear his child and then think that she would stick by him all the time. And for the most part, she did until she found out that his secret love was the wind sorceress. Damn how he hated her. Especially how she would think that she was the best in the world at controlling the wind and his heart. Even when she was with Naraku, everyone thought that she had her eyes on Lord Sesshomaru, and she played on him for the longest time. But she could never capture that ice-hearted demon. But he thought that Sango did because he still visited her to this day even in his home! At first Kouga thought that he should consider Lord Sesshomaru a threat again but was quickly calmed down after Sango and Sesshomaru explained things to him. He had to admit that Lord Sesshomaru does hold some feelings for his woman because he was offering his services of his servants to Sango's disposal of training and teaching the kit. He had to admit that he did not have an arctic fox at his disposal to teach the kit how to use his powers or proper combat to their origin. It is true that they are not directly related but they are like cousins in the family strain. Shippo was very happy when he found that out. And to tell you the truth he was also. He always wanted to find out where the little boy was from and if he could find family that was around here since the Thunder brothers killed his father.
But now as he sits here with her head in his lap brushing aside her hair so it is out of her face, he still wonders what he did to deserve her love.
