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Chapter 4 Shocked

Jesse's POV (January 4,1850)

іMamá! I yelled, "¿Que estas hacido?"

"Ay m'ijo yo sabía que le gustó ella y soy muy feliz para usted"

"No mamá¿que estas hacido aquí ahora?"

"Iba a comprobar en Susannah antes de que yo me acostara y cuando me puse aquí usted pareció a este."

"Mamá¿puedo hablar con Susannah solo?"

"Sí."(A/N: Translation

Mother what are you doing?

My son I knew you liked her and I am very happy for you.

No mom what are you doing here right now?

I was going to check on Susannah before I went bed and I find you like this.

Mother can I talk to Susannah alone?

Yes.) And with all said between my mother and my self she went upstairs to bed.

"Susannah this all my fault I should have never kissed y-"

Susannah cut me off right there, "Jesse, don't apologize. You may have started the kiss but I went along with it. So us getting caught by your mother is just as much my fault as it is yours."

"No Susannah this all my fault. I, being older, should never have even started kissing you. I take full responsibility."

"That may be so, but you a member of this family ,and me being a guest, is going to be the person blamed because they all know that you would never do such a thing." I tried to cut in but she stopped me once more. "Don't say anything right now think about it over night and we will talk in the morning."

Suze's POV

On my way up to my room I was thinking about what just happen. You think you know I'm taking about the don't you?. Nope. I'm talking about what I learned during the kiss, no it's not how good a kisser he is, but that the moment I kissed him my memory came back to me.

"Why was Jesse yelling down stairs?" asked Mercedes when I got inside our room.

"Oh that, I'll tell you but you cannot tell any one else, okay?"

"Okay."

"When everyone went upstairs to get ready for bed I went to go do the dishes and I thought every one was upstairs. Then I hear Jesse behind me telling me that I shouldn't do the dishes because I'm a guest. We started talking about why he was in the stables tonight and why he calls me 'Querida'"

"Wait he calls you Querida? He only just met you." Why dose everyone find that hard to believe. Then again she thinks we just met.

"I know so then after he told me what it stood for, our faces were really close so he kissed me."

"Finally, all of us were wondering when you guys would kiss."

"Really? Well any way we kissed for a couple of minutes and then your mother comes in on us."

"uh-oh"

"uh-oh is right. Now Jesse is all mad at himself for kissing me even though I told him it wasn't his fault and I have a feeling he is going to be avoiding me for a while, or at least until he can figure out what to say to me."

"How do you know that's what he dose when he's frustrated? You just met today."

"What if I told you I met him before?"

"I'd say do you have proof?" Thinking of what I could show her. I reached into the pockets of my jeans looking for the picture I put in them. 'Aha' found it.

"Here you go this should prove it" handing her the mini picture of her brother. The moment she laid her eyes on it to say she was shocked would be an understatement.

"Where did you get this? The only person who has one of these is Maria." She scowled at the thought of her. "Did she give this to you because, she wasn't supposed to?

"I got the picture from your brother at the inn where he took me, so no, I didn't get it from Maria."

"Dose Jesse know you have this?" I nodded, "Okay so I have a feeling you got your memory back?"

"Yes but please don't tell any one I want to figure out what to do and what to tell Jesse when and if I have to leave here probably forever."

"Well if you decide to stay you can stay here with us and then…"

"And then what?"

"And then you can marry Jesse. You can tell he loves you so much."

"Thanks. And do you really think so?"

"Yes I do."

"I have another question?"

"Okay what?"

"Can I talk more like myself when it's only you and me?"

"Of course"

"Okay you are going to have to excuse me when I say this: Shit how am I supposed to know what time it is in my life, how long have I been missing, and what am I going to do to figure out a way back?"

"Okay I think you need sleep you sound tired."

"Yes maybe that's what I need."

Next Morning (January 5,1850)

(still suze)

"Susannah…Susannah…Susannah get up!"

"Five more minutes please."

"No, mother has made you another dress so you don't have to wear the same one"

"Where are we going Mercedes?"

"The beach." I got up really quickly then. I saw the dress and asked, "Um do you have bathing suit or something. I really don't feel like wearing a dress in this heat."

"Sorry but the material is light."

"What are you talking about?" picking up the dress. "It weighs the same as last nights only now it's red."

"No it is lighter actually this one has…"

"Wait is this silk on the top layer?" She nodded. So I put the dress on with no help from any one. I learned to take it on and off last night, except the corset, which I still needed help with. This dress was almost like the last one only this has a sweetheart cut and beautiful bow in the back. After I got it on I went straight to Jesse's room. I knocked on his door twice. He wasn't in his room, so decided to just go down stairs and get breakfast and just wait t get to the beach to confront him. When I got down stairs every one had already started eating. I sat down next to Jesse, he was really quite. When it was finally time to leave we all got on horse back, every one except me because I didn't know how to ride a horse. When Mrs. De Silva saw this she told to ride with Jesse. So I got on the horse behind Jesse he just got all stiff. Because there were two people on our horse we kind of stayed a few yards behind everyone. I had to think of something to loosen Jesse up a bit so I did what fist came to mind and kissed him. He was surprised when I did this at first but then he got into a bit but then pulled away.

Jesse POV

"і Querida!" I half whispered and half yelled, "What are you doing?"

She gave a smile and replied, "You were all stiff so I had to loosen you a bit and kiss seemed perfect for the job." 'Nombre de Dios. If only she knew how right she was, but I cannot keep doing this. One day she will remember and leave or someone will take her away. I must keep distance so not to get closer than I am already.' With that decided I looked at her in the eye and told her firmly, "Please do not temp me Querida, it is already hard enough to stay away."

"What if I don't want you to stay away." She had a look in her eyes that told me that that she knew something that I will soon find out. I gave her a look and she said, "Fine if you want to have it that you're going to have that way." We spoke no more on our journey to the shore. She conversed with all my sisters the rest of the way especially Mercedes. I had figured they would grow close sharing a room but it seems they even shared secrets with each other on their first day of meeting because they would say little things to each other and would start laughing even though no one knew what was so funny. When we reached the shore Susannah got down of the horse and walked slowly to the water. Half way down the shoreline she sat down and just looked around at the ocean. I thought that she may have remembered something, but as soon as I thought this she got up and walked back to us.

Suze's POV

I decided that I just wanted to get away for a moment. You know not the vacation get away but the just sit and stare while you think get away. I sat about three yards away from the ocean and just stat thinking about what I had to do. Starting to get depressed with my thought I got up and walked back to the de Silva's and started talking to the person I confided in, Mercedes. I guess she saw the sadness on my face because next thing I know she asks, "What's wrong?" In a very sympathized voice.

"I'm fine I just needed some time to think."

"Are you sure" I nodded not sure if I could keep a steady voice with out it cracking mid-sentence. "All right but if you need to talk I'm for you." I hugged her and she went back to helping her mother unload a few things like food and more things like that. I asked Marta if it would be okay if I could just walk along side the water by myself for a while I told her it felt familiar here and she let me go. Walking along I was just remembering all the fun times I had here with Ceecee, Adam, and Gina, even though it was only a couple a days, it was fun nonetheless. Thinking about this I felt the oh so familiar lump in my throat. 'Pull yourself together Simon. You can't cry in front of them.' But it was too late; I could feel the wetness on my cheek. Wiping it away fast I pulled myself together and started walking towards the mission that was only a few yards away.

When I reached the mission I went inside the church and sat down. Not really thinking of anything I suddenly heard a familiar voice that I hated so much. "Hey Suze where have you been? I've been looking all over town for you."

Paul Slater