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I Wish I Were Blind

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I'm not entirely sure when it happened. All of a sudden I was in love with my best friends girl. It's not like I set out to do this, or feel this way. It crept up on me so quickly I don't think I could have held it back if I wanted to.

Suddenly I was looking at the most beautiful girl in the world. How had I never seen it before? Granted we both had been a little blind to the appeal of this woman. She was smarter than both of us. Her quick wit left us gasping most of the time. When they became involved I was happy for the pair of them, he had been my friend for as long as I could remember. And she matched him completely in every way. They fitted together so perfectly.

That is what makes it doubly hard, if they weren't happy. If they didn't love each other so much, I wouldn't feel so guilty.

I love to see the cottonwood blossom
in the early spring
I love to see the message of love
that the bluebird brings

One day, and I will never forget this day for as long as I live. We were sitting together, outside.

We had had a picnic lunch with their young daughter. He had taken her inside to take her to the bathroom. And we were side by side, and she had the sweetest little smile on her face. He left us there for god - it must have been at least fifteen minutes. She started giggling.

I must have given her a strange look, because she started to explain why she was laughing. Apparently their little girl had walked into the bathroom last night, while Draco was getting ready to shower. And seen a new body part that she had never seen before. She thought it was hilarious thinking back on Draco trying to explain what it was.

Hermione was glowing, her eyes were shining as she lay there reminiscing about that moment. She was truly happy. There wasnowhere else on the planet, that could possible be better than where she was now.

I think that was the day that it solidified in my mind, that there was no chance of us ever being together. Not that I held much hope before then.

I love to see your hair shining
in the long summer's light
I love to watch the stars fill the sky
on a summer night

I'm surprised that I didn't seem them develop they did. I was blind I suppose to many things when I was younger. All I remember is they were working together at the Ministry. And after a while Draco stopped coming home looking like he wanted to throttle someone, he started coming home in a more neutral mood, then he started coming home happy. I didn't connect it to them becoming friends.

Then all of sudden Draco was dragging me down to the Leaky Cauldron for a drink, where we would just happen to come across Hermione and her friends. He and Hermione would sit in a corner talking and laughing about who knows what, then he stopped taking me with him. And he stopped coming home at night. Then he was going away for the weekend, and Hermione started coming around. A lot.

Then they were dating, moving in together. And then they got married.

Now don't get me wrong I am happy for Draco, after the childhood he had. No one deserves what they have got more than he does. I'm trying to make this go away. It's hard. I know I have to do it. The only other option would be to move away. But I don't want to do that, so I just ignore it. Date other woman and pray to whoever is listening that I stop feeling this way, because I'm not naïve. I know it isn't returned, nor will it ever be.

It will go away eventually. I just have to wait till I find someone who looks at me the way she looks at him.

And though the world is filled
with the grace and beauty of God's hand
Oh I wish I were blind
when I see you with your man