Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! I'm sure you all hate me for leaving you in a cliffy for so long but I had to figure out a way for everyone to be happy. I don't have the heart to break Suze's heart by sending her back with no Jesse and I couldn't break Jesse's heart by never letting him see Suze even though he loves her. So enough of my blabbering lets get on with it.
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(in a narrative kind of voice like you hear on general hospital or all of my children) We last left our love triangle with this meaningful statement:
I looked him straight in eye and told him two little words, "Trust me."
Chapter 11 They think you're gonna die
I of course only had the rough sketch of my plan in my head, but I would tweak it and work out the fine details later. I grabbed Jesses's, well you get what I mean, hands and hurried inside to try and find Mr. and Mrs. de Silva to feign an illness or something that would allow me to leave with out it looking too suspicious. I turned to both Jesse's and told them to meet me at their carriage. They did as I said a little apprehensively and went to go find their carriage. That must be awkward for them.
Now I tried to look a little sick so I ran back out to the fountain outside and splashed my face and then kind of dried it up so when Mrs. de Silva felt my face I would feel a bit clammy. After I went to a lantern and got my forehead really close and sat there for a moment cautious not to catch my head on fire.
I walked over to where I thought I saw the de Silva's last. I slumped over to them and mustered up my most hoarse voice. "Mrs. de Silva I do not feel so well. I think I might have a fever. Will you feel my face for me please?" I am such a good liar I should become an actress. No, I'd be in the spotlight too much, but I should win an Oscar or something. She brought her hand up to my face and placed the back of it on my forehead.
"Oh dear, Enrique her face is warm and she's a bit clammy." (A/N: Enrique actually means 'rules the home'. I thought it was perfect for Mr. de Silva.) My plan worked. YES! Okay Suze tone it down. She turned to me. "Susannah I'm sorry, but I'm afraid we have to send you home. If you can go ask Jesse to take you home. I'm sure he won't mind. These parties have never really been his favorite past time. I hope you feel better by the time we get home." I said I was so disappointed that I had to leave, but understood.
"Susannah when I get I will make sure to keep you company in case you want to talk." Mercedes offered. I nodded and walked away toward the entrance so I could meet up with Jesses. I am going to need to go back to those therapists after this.
"They bought it."
"What exactly did my family buy Susannah?" Ghost Jesse was tapping his foot. He's always questioning me.
I voiced this "Why do you always question me? Why can't you trust me?"
"Well because every time I only have a small amount of information on your actions I usually have to save you like I am now."
I just rolled my eyes at Ghost Jesse. I must be crazy because its things like that make me love him more. "I just splashed my face with water and heated up my face a bit so now they think I have a fever or whatever illness is associated with a hot face and clamminess."
"Susannah they think you have the flu. They probably just don't want to tell you so you can stay calm because in my time-"
"Your time is now Jesse."
And of course he just ignored me and continued to lecture me. What else is new? "-the flu killed people." Ghost Jesse looked a little peeved. Oops.
"Well how was I supposed to know? I needed a way out of there and I got it. Anyway it's not like I really have the flu."
"May I just say that if are going to continue this conversation may we finish it in the carriage so people don't start thinking she's delirious because she is talking to thin air." Alive Jesse said. Oh right. So first I climbed in so because those are just the manners of this time. Alive Jesse followed in tow. Ghost Jesse just materialized next to me. The ride back to the de Silva ranch was fairly quite well it was quite on the inside of the carriage, but on the inside of my head, yeah whole other story. (A/N: I could stop here but I'm not. I almost did though.) I was just trying to figure out a way where my heart wouldn't get totally smashed into a million pieces but Jesse wouldn't get hurt either. I mean the only reason Jesse hadn't moved on was because I hadn't made my choice, right? What if he's still here because he was still meant to meet me? I had to know.
"Jesse do you know why you still haven't moved on to where ever you go?"
"Well I thought is was because I didn't know whether or not you were safe, but now that I rethink it if that were so then I would have already moved on. So it must be some other reason, but what?"
"I think I might know, but I only think this because of the impending doom. What if the reason you're still here is because you were meant to meet me? I mean sure you know me now, but I guess you being here helps me choose where I go and I think that you're still a ghost that hasn't moved on because over the years you no longer remember who I am."
Jesse pondered the idea for a moment. Then as if something clicked in his brain he got a big old grin on his face. "Susannah you're right I had forgotten you had come back to save me. This is wonderful!" I've never seen Jesse this happy before. I knew I was just being selfish. He really did want to move on and leave me behind. I thought he would always be there for me like he promised, but I guess when your just rewards are hanging right there you have to take them. So the fact that I've been on emotional overload and I'm a bit hormonal at the moment explains why I felt a lone tear fall from my right eye. I wiped it away so fast that neither Jesse saw it. Well that's one thing good I've had come my way.
So I put on a brave face. "What's wonderful Jesse?" You know how I was taking about that Oscar thing, yeah well totally forget. When it comes to the matters of the heart, I suck.
"Querida, what's wrong?"
"Nothing it's just I guess it just now hit that I'll never see you again after tonight. That a big blow for a girl you know."
"Yes I know Susannah, but we both knew that this day would come."
"Still doesn't make it any easier." I looked down at the floor afraid that if I looked at either Jesse I would start crying again.
"Querida." Jesse lifted my face gently with his thumb and forefinger so I could face him. "Know that whatever happens here tonight that I will always be with you because… I love you. I love you Susannah with all of heart." Jesse was staring me right in the eyes. I couldn't move or speak because he never flat out told me he loved me. So you see that when I tried to talk I couldn't make coherent sentences.
"I… Jesse…" See, told you.
"Now I understand if you don't feel the same, but I felt that-"I cut Ghost Jesse off by kissing him. Well if I couldn't use my lips for talking I could at least use them for kissing Jesse, right? Right.
"Jesse I love you, too. I think I always have I just didn't want to face it because I was afraid I would fall deeper, but that's a little late isn't it? Jesse I love you with all of my heart and I always will no matter what any one says." I was about to kiss Ghost Jesse again when Alive Jesse, who I had forgotten was even there, spoke.
"I don't mean to interrupt, but we have arrived to the ranch." He seemed a bit awkward in the carriage and my assumptions were made clear when he bolted for the door. I smiled.
"I think he found that a bit awkward. What with him watching... himself make out with me."
"I guess you're right Querida." Ghost Jesse helped me get down from the carriage so I would fall flat on my face. We met up with Alive Jesse who was only a few feet ahead of us. We all went up to my room because if the de Silva's were to come home and found Jesse in my room he just say he was checking up on me, but if I was found in his room? Well, as Ricky Ricardo would put it, 'Lucy, you got sum splanin' to do.'
I didn't want to be in that huge and un-breathable corset of dress. (A/N: I made the word up I think. So sew me. Actually don't.) So I asked them to wait outside for a moment while I got some other clothes on. I put my twenty first century clothes on- ripped jeans, T-shirt, leather jacket, and air. Ahh. Deep breathe in, breathe out.
When I let Ghost Jesse and Alive Jesse in Alive Jesse looked shocked while Ghost Jesse just rolled his eyes. "Hey I saw that mister. Don't roll your eyes at my choice of wardrobe. It was the only thing I had that I could either breathe and/or be comfortable in."
Alive Jesse looked between himself and me and asked, "Is this a normal thing between you two." Both of us nodded our heads. I think he found it weird how we kind of fought about the weirdest things and yet were still in love. All I can say is that love does weird things to people and don't people say opposites attract? Well Jesse and I are about as opposite as it comes. Any way back to the problem at hand.
"So Querida your only tie to 2005-"
"By the way how long have I been gone?"
"About a six or seven hours. To what I was saying. Your only tie to 2005 is… your clothing. That could be potentially problematic (A/N: I just had to take that line from Goblet of Fire. Hermione to Harry Potter says it in the library before the second challenge. Shutting up.) Also we have to find a place where we know you that after you time travel you will end up in a familiar place that is also a place where people won't find it strange that a young lady just appeared out of thin air." Wow I mean I guess I already knew this, but when it's being listed to you it sounds like a lot.
"Wait, how about the basilica? I mean I left at about nine so add six and it makes it about three in the morning in 2005. In mean that's where Paul left from."
"That's brilliant Susannah, but how are we going to get you there?" There's the million dollar question that all of America is waiting for.
"I don't know. You guys know this era better than I do. You think of something. I figured out how to get back." Yeah I know I was getting a little bitchy, but my reasoning is that soon I shall never see, hear, or remember Jesse so I thought I should be mad instead of depressed. Hey, don't give me that look. You'd do the same in my position wouldn't you? Yeah thought so.
I just kind of waited until they figured out a way to get me down to the basilica before morning. After a while I zoned out and just started thinking of different things like how my life would be if I never met Jesse. Now that I truly do think about it, won't I be dead I mean Heather almost killed me, but because of Jesse I'm here. Great. I voiced this to make sure we were all on the same page.
"Hey guys I was just thinking about life with out Ghost Jesse here and a thought came to me. Would I be dead? Because Jesse has saved my ass a couple of times. Literally in life or death situations." I guess that thought never came to them. Both Jesse took a moment to fully grasp this concept.
"Well I think that might put a rift in the plan."
"Thank you Captain Obvious. Now tell me, why does the sun come out in the daytime?"
"Susannah please don't be like this. I know you are upset about the current events that have taken place, but we must find a way so that all should return a certain level of normalcy." I couldn't just sit there any longer waiting for them to come up with something. So I tried to shift to the basilica. The one in 1850, I mean. I saw what it looked like. So I pictured it in my head. The pews, the crucifix, and all those candles. When I opened my eyes I was standing in the middle of the basilica in 1850. I wonder what the Jesse's are thinking right now? I called Ghost Jesse and told him to grab himself while he was it. In a couple of minutes both Ghost and Alive Jesse were there. Alive Jesse looks really pained.
"Jesse you have a shifting headache don't you?"
"I'm not sure. Are they supposed to feel like-"
"Like World War III is going on in your head." Wait has World War one even happened?
"Three! There's going to be two in the future?"
"Maybe. But that's not the reason why I had Jesse bring you here, I think I might just see my mom in a moment and I wanted to just say… well, thank you. Thank you for everything." I went to go and hug him. I was 'making a memory' as Lindsey Lohan said in Parent Trap. I just hope I remember it when I get back to 2005. I think Jesse can read my mind because he started rubbing my back so he could comfort me.
I get to go see my mom, Andy, David, my window seat, weird I know, I miss an inanimate object, Father Dom, and, believe it or not, I miss school. I mean school connects me to Ceecee, Adam, and Father D. I especially love how Father D always calls me during religious ed because he knows I hate that class because Sister E teaches horribly. Although it was funny that one Adam, Cee, and me were in the basilica during religious ed and Adam was imitating Sister E. I remember he had walked up the pews and started to-
Why do I feel a tugging? Oh no. I was thinking about the basilica in the basilica. When the tugging had subsided I opened my eyes. Both Jesse and I had let go of each other. Why is Jesse here? And…alive! Oh god I brought Jesse with me. I forgot about Dr. Slaski saying that whatever you're touching will time travel with you. So where's Ghost Jesse? He was touching my back.
"Querida?" NO! It could be, could it?
"Jesse? Which Jesse are you?" Leave it to me to ruin the moment.
"Querida it's me. I'm the one you first met in Carmel. I'm the one who helped you with your poison oak. I'm the one who visited you in the hospital. I'm the one who you came to save from Shadowland. I'm the one who tried to protect your honor. I'm the one you fell in love with. Susannah I'm a alive."
This was too much which explains why I did the most unlike me thing…
…I fainted.
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