Lucas walked over to his closet and pulled out the only suit he owned, usually he would wear this on a happy occasion but today was anything but happy. Going over to the mirror to fix his tie he noticed his once blue eyes were anything but blue but red, from crying almost every waking moment since he had held Brooke in his arms.

He heard a soft knock on the door and turned around to see Haley, he turned back and started to get frustrated with the fact that he couldn't get his tie right. Letting his frustration get the best ut him he ripped it off his neck and threw it across the room. Haley walked over and picked up the tie and began to put it on Lucas, as she was half way through Lucas started to break down.

"Haley, today is the day that I have to face the fact that she's really gone and i don't think i can do that" Lucas said with Haley embracing him with a hug

"I know Lucas, I know its hard. We all lost her but you're gonna get through this, I promise and ill be here for you whenever you need me ok?" Haley said trying to stay strong for Lucas, and not break down herself.

The fact was Brooke was the one who made everyone feel like they didn't have a care in the world, that no matter how bad things got their was always a window opened that you could get through and be happy again. Now that she was gone it felt like someone had shut that window on Lucas for good.

"Come on lets get you fixed up, you know Brooke would hate us if we looked bad at her funeral"

Haley said getting a small chuckle from Lucas remember how Brooke thought people she look their very best at all times.

"Okay lets go"

The ride to the cemetery was short and quite, Haley had gone with Nathan, Peyton . Lucas was driven by his mom and Keith. Brooke's parents had buried Brooke at the nearest cemetery so that her friends could visit anytime. On the way their Lucas kept think of how if he would've knocked Brooke down or jumped in front of her she still be here or maybe if he would've paid alittle bit more attention to Jimmy Brooke would still be her, cheery as ever and alive!

He couldn't help but go back to last year how he hurt her, how could he have been so stupid and let her go, Lucas had a hard enough time thinking about Brooke but seeing her body at the funeral was killing him, he kept wondering what he could've done differently that the outcome would be her alive in his arms.

He was snapped out of his thoughts by his mother who said gently that they were at the cemetery. Getting out of the car Lucas saw about a hundred people which isn't surprising because Brooke was tree hills all around social butterfly,up in the front byBrookes coffinwas an empty seat for him.

The cemetery went fast and people were asked to put roses on the coffin, after everyone had put their rose on the coffin and said good-bye Brooke, he crowd dyed down expect for the six people who meant everything to Brooke in life and her family.

After a while it was just Lucas and Brooke's parent siting by the coffin, everyone else had left and Lucas said he wanted to walk home because it wasn't that long of walk. Not to long after everyone left Brooke mother came over to Lucas who immediately stood up to greet her.

"You're Lucas right?" She said with tears in her eyes she looked so much like Brooke it took Lucas back a little.

"Yes, I am "

"Brooke talked about you all the time, at least when we did see her"

Lucas could see the guilt of not spending enough time with her daughter pouring off her face.

"Anyway, this is for you"

She handed Lucas box when he opened it he saw a few scrap books pictures of him and Brooke and a pink book with hearts covering it, Lucas looked at her with a confused looked across his face

"wha--", "Its a few of Brooke's things and her diary i thought you should have it and i know that's what she would want, you meant everything to her."

Lucas tried hard to fight the tears that were building up inside of him,"

I guess ill see you around"

she said with that she went walking to her daughters coffin and putting her rose and said her good-bye, she waved Lucas off and started walking.

"Ms. Davis!" Lucas yelled causing her to turn around

"Thank you for this"

She nodded and gave a weaken smile and turned and wonder off back to her, Lucas watched as the figure the from behind he would swear was Brooke shrink as she got future away.

Lucas set the box down and kneeled by Brooke's grave

"Hey, Brooke, umm I guess this is good-bye"He said breaking down into tears

"Brooke im so sorry I should've protected you, I shouldn't have let this happen, I love you so much I don't know I kind of just keep praying that this is either a sick prank or that its a bad dream because I don't know if I can take that you're really gone. Im gonna visit you, and not forget you ever. I love you cheery, and im sorry "

He said placing his rose on top of the grave and for a second he could swear that he heard the voice he loved so much say I love you.

He took the box and went on his way home, but on the way stopped at the river court to sit and think. He opened the box and smiled when he saw pictures of them and than picked up her diary and opened to the first page that said

"Property of Brooke Davis he almost broke down just seeing her writing but he knew he had to read this for himself, for Brooke.

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Okay so this is he second chapter, the next ch.s coming up will be brookes diary and more about how Brookes death effects the group.

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