Chapter 6

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Is this story going too slowly? I realized that this is only the Sunday after their fight, and there have been 6 chapters. Three days in six chapters? Is that too slow? Please review and let me know!

Lorelai had fallen asleep, but it was a very restless sleep. She was having really weird dreams, and they were really disturbing. She was floating in a sea of apples- and all she wanted to do was take a bite out of every single one of them. There was something else weird about it, but she couldn't quite put her finger on it yet. Suddenly Luke drove by in his truck, singing "nanny-nanny boo boo, you can't have coffee!" and holding a coffee pot out the window. She could smell the coffee, and almost taste it, so she started swimming towards Luke screaming at him to hand over the coffee. But she couldn't swim very well, this confused her and she looked down to see what could be stopping her. When she saw that she had a giant-pregnant stomach she gasped and started drowning.

Apparently she gasped in real life too, because she scared Rory out of her sleep next to her. Worried that her mom was having a bad dream, she started shaking her, trying to wake her up. Lorelai leaped up when she was finally awake, and yelled, "I'm pregnant!"

Rory still sleepy shook her head a little, "Mom, are…..what are you talking about? Have you taken a test?" Realizing that it was probably just a very real dream, took her mom's hand, and tried to soothe her. "Mom, you are not pregnant….were you dreaming about being pregnant?"

Lorelai nodded, and clutched her stomach. She told Rory about the dream, and though Rory tried really hard to convince her that she was not pregnant, it all started making more sense to Lorelai then it had in weeks. She was a crazy emotional mess, and being pregnant really explained that…..it actually explained a lot of things. But it also made a lot of things much more complicated. She fell back into her bed, and started crying. Rory had been expecting this, so she grasped her hand a little harder and scooted closer to her.

"Rory what am I going to do?" she said.

Rory hadn't a clue, but she did want to soothe her mother and get her back to sleep. "Do you want me to go get a test? I could go right now and you could know for sure in the next hour."

She thought about it, but quickly realized that it was too soon for her. With everything happening, it wasn't something that Lorelai needed right now. The news of a baby could make a lot of things a whole lot worse- and it meant that she would have to talk to Luke again. Something that she had hoped that she wouldn't have to do for a long time. No, she just couldn't deal with that yet. Her heart was broken, and it would need to heal at least a little before she got more heartbreaking news- like Luke didn't want anything do with her even if there was a baby involved. She wasn't sure if she wanted Luke back in her life, but hearing that he WOULDN'T be in her life would break her heart worse then it was already. And she wasn't willing to do that yet. "No Rory. I'm not ready to know yet" is all she said.

"Mom, you really need to know if there is a baby involved. You need to know if you should stop drinking coffee or alcohol…..and-" Rory was starting to panic realizing all that her mother being pregnant would mean.

"Rory, I'm just not ready to know yet okay? I will be careful, and find out soon-but I am not ready yet." Lorelai answered.

Luke went to bed, but he didn't sleep. His talk with Liz had been interesting. Had he been ignoring the signs that Lorelai was upset for months? That was a lot to take in. "For months I've been skulking around, not saying anything, and not having an opinion on anything like I'm Clarence Thomas or something." His girlfriend being upset and not telling him so, that almost made him mad. Lorelai had always told him before when she was upset……….but the more he thought about it, the more he realized that she really hadn't ever told him she was upset. Why not? Why hadn't she ever told him when he did something that upset her? These questions nagged him for hours…and he didn't have any answers. Her words from the other night wouldn't stop going through his head either. "You need to figure out how April fits into our lives not the other way around", "I made a commitment to you, and I need to make it happen." and the one that broke his heart the most, "No, I'm not waiting anymore, it's now or never!" Had he messed this up? Luke couldn't decide…..there were too many worries racing through his head to grab one and think about it for any length of time. He tried to settle his mind down and sleep, but it was useless. He hadn't slept since their fight. As he tossed and turned in bed once again, Luke heard Lorelai in his head say, "But once we're married, everything with April will be fine, Anna said so." That one really puzzled him. What had happened between Lorelai and Anna? Did Lorelai come and demand that they elope because of something that Anna had said? At least that was a question that he could get an answer to. He was going to go and ask Anna what she said to Lorelai. He had to know what happened there. But he'd have to wait for several hours to find out. He couldn't just show up at Anna's house at 6am. She would think that he was a lunatic. So he tried to go back to sleep. But of course, it didn't work. He just tossed and turned some more until he couldn't stand lying there anymore. Luke didn't want to wake Liz up, so he grabbed a shirt and some pants and walked outside. When he got outside, he didn't really know where to go, but when he thought about it, all he wanted was to see Lorelai…..he really couldn't go talk to her, but he could walk to her house and see if she was home or not, and be closer to her then he would be at the diner. That would at least tell him something. So to Lorelai's house he walked, and like the other night- he just sat on her steps in hopes that maybe he could catch a glance at her, see what she was up to. Anything at all to tell him that she was hurting as much as he was. But sitting there hurt too. It reminded him of a lot of memories of her. The chuppah he gave her, and the two of them sitting right where he was, talking about getting married. How had things ever gotten so messed up from where they had been then? He was in love with her…..and he had been since they had met. How had he, once she had said to going out with him, allowed things to get so messed up? He had made so many promises to himself that if he was EVER given a chance with her, he would do it right. That he would be better for her then any of the other guys that she had ever gone out with. Luke was so tired of thinking through these things over and over. He just wanted desperately to figure everything out, and have an answer to how to make everything better. But Luke was so tired, that he fell asleep on Lorelai's front porch- not a very restful sleep, but sleep none the less.

Lorelai had had to get out of bed to go to the bathroom. She didn't want to, but she had to go bad enough that it was necessary. She did her business, and looked at herself in the mirror. Holy Crap did she look bad. She barely recognized the girl in the mirror. The girl looked old, and very very tired and worried. Could she be pregnant? Did that explain her crazier then normal behavior? More then likely it was true, she realized the more that she thought about it. What would Luke say? Was she willing to tell him? If she didn't then she was no better then Anna. Anna, she hated Anna so much. She was the root of a lot of the problems between Luke and her. She had made a lot of stupid rules that hurt her, and drove Luke and her apart. But it was Luke's fault too partly at least. Could she tell Luke she was pregnant? How would they deal with this throughout the kids' life? Would they end up together because of this without working anything out? There was way too much between them- Lorelai just couldn't bring herself to fixing everything without some true healing. They would have to talk through everything. Was she willing to do that? This whole thing was driving her crazy, and Lorelai covered her face and started sobbing. Her sobs woke Rory up and she raced to the bathroom to comfort her mother.

Luke woke up with a start, and realized that once again, he was at Lorelai's. And she hadn't come home yet. It helped a little that Rory was with her, but he still needed her to come home. As soon as she did they could talk, and fix everything……..but the longer she stayed away, the more he realized that maybe everything couldn't be fixed- and that scared him. As he woke up a little more, he realized that he could now go to Anna's without looking crazy, so he stretched and walked home to get his truck. As soon as he got there he jumped into it and headed to Woodbridge. They were going to have a talk. It took about a half hour to get there because Luke only vaguely knew where he was going. But he was worked up when he finally did get there. He had convinced himself that Anna had put a lot of rules on his relationship with April that had come between him and Lorelai. Anna was at least partly to blame for all of this, but he would make it right. He would make her understand. His frustration over not being able to control all this had led him to anger. And being he couldn't see Lorelai and work everything out, he was in blaming mode. Yes, Anna had not helped the situation at all, but she also hadn't really hurt it. But Luke needed it not to all be his fault, and needed to blame someone. So there he was, banging on her door at 11am. When she answered the door, a look of confusion was written all over her face. She had not been expecting this- and she didn't even really look happy to see him. "Anna, can I come in? We need to talk about something."

"Um, sure Luke. Come inside." Still confused, but willing to find out what was going on.

When they were somewhat uncomfortably settled in her living room, Luke rubbed his hands together and decided to just start talking, "Anna, I- what did you say to Lorelai the other night? She was really upset, and we had a thing……..but that isn't important. What did you say to her?"

"Luke, um. She came here, she told me that you two were getting married so therefore she was a steady person in your life and I should let her hang out with April. I didn't think that that was a good idea, and I told her so. I don't want April getting close to someone that you aren't married to. Engaged isn't married. She could only be around for another month, and then April is all attached and she gets hurt. I am not willing to let April get hurt Luke."

Luke was getting mad now he stood up and said, "Anna, Lorelai is in my life for good. We are getting married, and she needs to get to know MY daughter. Did you hear that? She is MY daughter too Anna. And my fiancé deserves to be in her life. Did she explain that she is an only parent? Because she is Anna. And she had the same thoughts as you are now. See, she never let guys into the house, even the ones that she was dating, for exactly the same reason- not wanting to hurt Rory-"

"Luke she said all that! And that's great- she should have been a little more understanding about this then."

"And what do you think of me? Do you really not know me well enough to know that I don't date just to date? If I am dating someone, it means something. And if I am engaged to someone, it means a whole lot more. I wouldn't get engaged if I didn't have every intention of marrying the girl. And this is Lorelai, she means everything to me- just slightly more then April does-" and something hit Luke. Did Lorelai feel second to April? That was a thought that he hadn't even come close to realizing before. But he could think of that later, right now he needed to get his point across to Anna. "You have made all the rules in this relationship between me and my daughter. Well not anymore. Lorelai is in my life so she WILL be in April's life too. April and her friends LOVED Lorelai, and April needs to know her."

"Luke, I just don't want April getting hurt."

"I know that, and I have no intention of letting her get hurt either Anna. She's my daughter, and you know me. I wouldn't hurt my daughter intentionally. Please tell me that you know that."

"Yeah, I do Luke."

"Okay, then please just let Lorelai have some part of April's life. It would mean a lot to Lorelai." Luke looked down. He wasn't sure if he was willing to tell her about his and Lorelai's fight, but he really wanted her to understand. "You know- I have been…. my whole world has been turned upside down since I found out about April…at first I didn't let Lorelai in on any of this. And it has driven something between us. I was confused, and didn't know how to deal with this. So I didn't even tell her about April. We postponed the wedding because of how confused I was, and I have hurt her so much through all of this confusion, so that she broke up with me in a huge fight two days ago!"

"See Luke! You two aren't stable enough to have April in your lives. April is officially not in your life anymore. I am not willing to let her get hurt, Luke, and that is all that is going to happen. I can see that now."

"No! Anna, it doesn't work that way. She is my daughter, and I can get a piece of paper that legally says so. I have gone by all of YOUR rules, and that is why Lorelai and I are where we are. I have let April be a bigger part of my life then my fiancé and that isn't right." And with that he stormed out of the house and to his truck. He was mad, and had a lot to think about.