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Present day 10:30 pm Olivia's apartment

"I love you so much" Elliot said kissing her neck

"I love you too" Olivia said kissing him back. The two of them have been dating for six months now, and they were both as happy as could be. Elliot lied her down on the couch and kissed her again. Olivia pulled him closer and kissed him harder.

"Are you sure about this?" he asked her kissing her on the neck again. Olivia smiled at him and nodded yes. Even though they had made love many times, he still asked every time if it was okay

"bedroom?" Olivia asked him putting her arms around him. Elliot nodded, then got up and the two of them got up and started to go toward's the bedroom before they heard a knock on the door. They stopped kissing and looked toward's the door, then back toward's each other.

"Maybe they'll just go away" Olivia said looking back toward's the door, but then there was loud knocking again. Olivia went toward's the door, and slowly opened it. Out side was a girl about thirty with red streaked hair, and a pierced nose.

"Hey Liv girl! whats up! God I missed you so much!" the girl said hugging Olivia. Olivia looked at Elliot strangely, then at the girl still hugging her

"um, who are you?" she asked the strange girl. The girl released her and stepped back, looking hurt.

"you don't remember me?" she asked softly. Olivia looked at her in confusion

"no sorry I don't." The girl scoffed, shock her head, then looked at her again

" it's me, Rachel, from high school, your best friend." Olivia looked at her for a moment, then her eyes got wide.

"Don't ever come near me or my house again!" she yelled at her and she slammed the door in the Rachel's face. Olivia stood there for a moment before she turned around

"honey whats wrong?" Elliot said noticing that she had tears in her face. Olivia didn't speak, she just wiped her tears away.

"El I think you should go now" she said wiping away more tears. Elliot walked up toward's her and looked into her eyes.

"Liv, baby please tell me whats wrong?" Olivia looked at him, and then hugged him.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" she said hugging him harder. Elliot hugged her back and stroked her hair.

"It's okay, it's okay." Olivia released the hug, wiped away the tears, and then looked at him.

"I think it would be a lot better if you left" she said quietly. Elliot wanted to find out what was wrong, but decided not to push it. He nodded, then hugged her.

"I'll see you tomorrow. I love you." Olivia nodded and then Elliot left. Olivie wiped away her tears, then went into the bath room, and washed off her cover up from her arm, revealing old needle marks, and faded scars. She looked at them for a moment before looking at her self in the mirror. She stared for a moment, disgusted, before she lost it. She yelled loudly and smashed her hand on the mirror over and over again. She sank down, ignoring the searing pain through her hand, and started crying. She started crying for all the pills she popped, for all the needles she got stuck with, for all the times she cut herself. Never enough to die, but enough to feel the pain. She cried for a few more minutes before she got up, wiped her tears away, and looked at her hand, witch was bleeding freely now.

"I got to take care of this" she said slipping into cop mode. She reached down and took out a small first aide kit, and got out some gauze. She nursed the hand, then got the broom and swept the broken glass out. She decided even thought it was only 11, she was tired, and wanted to get to bed. She changed into a tank top and shorts, and slipped under her covers, then she heard a knock at the door again

"go away Elliot" she yelled

"Liv girl its me. Will you please open up?" Rachel yelled thought the door. Olivia tensed up, then started to cry again

"go away Rachel!" she yelled loudly.

"will you please just open the fucking door?" Rachel yelled loudly. Olivia rolled her eyes, wiped away the tears, then got up to answer the door. She took a deep breath, then put on her best detective face, then answered the door. Rachel stood there with a smile on her face

"What the hell do you want?" Olivia said crossing her arms. Rachel's smile disappeared, then looked down.

"I thought you'd be happy to see me" she said softly. Olivia glared at her, then crossed her arms.

"Well you thought wrong, now get out." Rachel looked up at her and smiled.

"Damn Liv, you've gotten hot, not that you weren't when we were younger, but now, damn. If I was a lesbian, I'd totally fuck you." Olivia rolled her eyes

"well thank you, now get the hell out" Olivia said pointing toward's the door. Rachel looked down, then at her again

"well Liv thats the thing, I don't really have a place to go." Normally Olivia normally would have let the girl stay with her, but having her stay with her would mean pills and needles, and Olivia didn't want go down that road again.

"Well I'm sorry you don't have a place to stay, but I don't care." Olivia tried to close the door, but Rachel blocked it

"come on Liv, your so nice to all your victims, why can't you let me stay with you for a while"

"because I don't want you to stay with me, and how the hell did you find me any way?"

"I looked you up on the Internet. So your a cop now huh? wow, a few years ago, you hated cops"

" well I've changed, but I see you haven't" she said pointing toward's a small prescription bottle in her pocket. Rachel took it out and then passed it toward's Olivia

"its for a back ache, its a perfectly legal prescription." Olivia snatched it from her and looked at it more closely

"yeah its a legal prescription, for a Jessica Mythic. You stole this medication" Olivia said glaring at her. Rachel rolled her eyes then tried to take the pills back, but Olivia pulled it out of reach

"come on Liv give it back" she said trying to take the pills back again but Olivia snatched them out of her reach again.

"no, Rachel I should arrest you for something like this" Rachel's eyes got big

"no Olivia please don't put me back there. I don't want to have to go through it again" Rachel said crying. Olivia rolled her eyes and looked at her old friend crying hard and not even bother to wipe away the tears. She sank down on the floor, and started to cry harder

"come on Rach stand up" Olivia said helping her stand up. Rachel stood up,and sniffed

"I just wanted a place to stay, thats all" she said wiping away more tears. Olivia sighed then looked down.

"I want to let her stay, but if she does, then what will happen if I start doing that shit again" she wondered to herself.

"It's not going to happen, I'm a detective now, and if she offers some to me, then I can just arrest her." Olivia sighed then looked at her old time friend

"Rachel. If you promise, and I mean promise, not to get out any pills, or needles, or anything when I'm around, I'll let you stay." Rachel looked up at her and smiled

"thanks Liv, you won't regret it I promise" she said hugging her. Olivia nodded then let her inside.

"heres the couch, theres a blanket and pillow on there are ready, and I have to get up at six tomorrow, so good night Rachel" and then Olivia went back into her room, and laid down on her bed. She looked over at Elliot's picture and frowned

"what if he finds out all the shit I did when I was younger? Will he still love me?" she wondered silently. But she quickly answered her own question

"of course he will" and then Olivia fell asleep.

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