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Chapter 22

Riverrun was really beautiful, but I couldn't appreciate it. Jaime was marching against my family, and I felt I was in the wrong side.

For what I knew, Robb was marching to fight against the Lannisters because of Jaime's stupid action (from what I remember from the books and the TV show). And mother took Tyrion by prisoner because she thinks that Tyrion tried to kill Bran, which I deeply know he didn't do that, I was sure of it.

I didn't want anybody died on battle, especially not my brother nor Jaime. But sadly, that's how it works here in this medieval world.

Jaime and I still have this uncomfortable tension, we barely speaking to each other. We were having a really bad time between us, our relationship was getting worse. One moment we were getting along, even I was beginning to fall in love with him, and our marriage was beyond political reasons; but now… He attacked my father and killed my longtime friend and mentor, and now he was marching against my family. A new fissure formed between us.

Jaime had won several battles. And while Jaime and his soldiers were on battle, I was on our tent with Luna and twenty soldiers waiting impatiently and praying so hard for my family. Luna, as always, sensing my humor, she was constantly by my side nuzzling towards me or whining, placing her head on my lap.

I was useless here, I was doing anything. On King's Landing I would be useful, I would take care father while he is recovering and take care of my sisters. I was starting to resent Jaime, for making me leave my family behind and feeling like I was just a decoration around here.

Both of us were dinning uncomfortable. I was picking at my food, I was barely hungry and lately almost everything gave me nauseas. "Stop playing with your food, start eating."

"I'm not hungry-"

"I'm worried about you. You have barely eat in the past few days, you're getting thinner-"

My patience broke down and I release everything I got kept. "You know why I'm barely eating?" I asked him and I didn't wait for Jaime's answer. "I'm worried about my father and my sisters. I'm worried that you kill my family on the battlefield. Everything is your fault-"

"Your mother start it-"

"You're fighting because of your foolishness and my mother's misunderstanding. Both started this." I spat angry at him. "You won't win, not while my Uncle Brynden is there to hold Riverrun." Jaime snorted. "If you and your father keeps this way, conquering lands or absorbing Houses, The North will get separate from The South, just because of your pride and misunderstanding." I explained to him. "The person who pushed my brother from a tower started this. The person who ordered to kill a defenseless and unconscious boy, started this." I said angrily at him. Right now I stood up from my seat. "Do you think my mother would let that go? I give an example of you sister when Joffrey was bitten by Arya's direwolf. She ordered to kill Sansa's direwolf who was innocent, she was going to kill Luna too. That's what mothers do, they will move the whole world for her children. Your father doesn't care if Tyrion dies, he only cares about his House reputation and his ambition, nothing else. And that's sick."

"Bite your tongue or you will lose it." Jaime hissed and I roar with laughter.

"I'm not scared of you or your men. And if you tear my tongue, Luna will rip your arm off before you do it." I told him. Luna growled as she was proving she was right. "The same will happen if you order some of your men to do it for you. Many people will hunt you down if you try to hurt me."

Jaime's eyes were on fire, his intimidating look was immune to me. When Jaime was going to say something, a squire appeared rushed inside our tent. "My lord, news from The Capitol." I forgot quickly about our discussion and look at the squire. "The King died a week ago, and the Queen Regent has locked Lord Stark in the black cells for treason against Joffrey. The North is raising an army…" I stopped listening, I couldn't hear anything around me.

He's going to die soon, very soon. Three days. The next week. Or even in a month exactly.

My father was going to die by doing the right thing…

I saw Jaime in front of me saying something, but I couldn't hear anything. I was missing air, I tried hard to breath but I couldn't.

Everything around me went black.

When I woke up, it was dark and alone with Luna, who was guarding the tent entrance. I remembered what happened, I was arguing with Jaime and his squire gives the news from The Capitol…

Father was going to die soon… Eddard Stark was branded as a traitor…

What happened to my sisters? I knew Arya will survive at anything, but I doubt Sansa…

My thoughts were interrupted when I heard Luna's growl and barking. I heard closely, and I heard a commotion outside the tent. I heard screams and swords clashing.

My family were possibly near…

I rose from the bed and search quickly my shortsword. The only time were I was grateful to Jaime, was permitting me to carry a sword and use my riding clothes.

Once I found my sword on my trunk, I got out from there with Luna. My eyes widened when I saw tents on fire, Jaime's men scattering and riders on horses killing Lannister soldiers like they were boars.

"This is your fault!" I heard a shout. I saw a Lannister soldier with a sword in hand, running towards me, but Luna pounced on him and knock him to the ground. I heard the gurgling sound from the man and then silence. Luna's muzzle was stained by that man's blood.

"Come on, Luna." I gestured with my hand to her.

Both of us were running and hiding from Lannister soldiers. I wanted to avoid the raid and prevent myself to be founded by Jaime's men.

On the way of my escape, I could find a bow and some arrows, and a horse. Also, I found two Lannister soldiers. One killed by Luna and the other by me. For a moment I was shocked when I saw the man I killed fall to ground when I shoot him on his head. I had to tell myself that I was in the middle of a war, it was life or death for me.

I kept running with Luna behind me, until we passed through the tree line and enter to a wide clearing. Fear spread through my body when I saw that we just entered to the battlefield. I was going to ran away back where I was, but I saw Stark banners waving in the wind on the other side of the field. My only thought was running to them to be saved.

While I was galloping to the Starks banners and killing Lannister soldiers in the process, I heard my name being shouted and I snapped my head where I heard my name, and I found Jaime with blood splattered on his face and dead men at his feet. When I was going to say something I saw how Jaime's face turned into terror.

"NO!" he shouted.

Everything happened so fast. I felt something painful on my left leg, my horse began to whining and fall, I heard Luna growl and screams…

The pain took over me as I was losing the sense of time and place.

I blinked, I was on the ground with that throbbing pain on my left leg. I blinked again, Luna was by my side whining and behind her I could see Jaime attacking Lannister soldiers. I blinked once more, Jaime was by my side, hugging me and repeating "Stay with me. I'm so sorry, love." his face was full of terror and his eyes were watered. And then… everything went black and cold.

I didn't know if I was dreaming, or it was really happening. I felt myself floating, I saw the dark night full of stars and everything was silent. I felt myself in peace when I perceived all of that, but once again I returned to that cold and dark world.

*.*.*.*

Everything was pitch dark and fucking freezing. I look everywhere to find some light or something that give me some heat.

Why everything it's so dark? Where am I?

Then, colors began to appear in front of my eyes…

Images of Jaime…

Images from his point of view… as if I was watching the TV show again…

The images were showing me how he saw me, his thoughts and conversations…

How I called his attention… My wild and intimidating personality called his attention… My way of fighting called his attention… And Tyrion teasing him…

But…

Jaime and his twin Cercei… No… No!... JAIME TRIED TO KILL BRAN!... NO!

Then… Joffrey… Myrcella… Tommen… How couldn't notice…?

Jaime… seeing me so broken… he wanted to amend everything, but he didn't know how…

"I caused this on her, but I had to do it. Nobody can't know what that boy saw."

Jaime think and think… He think on a way to made me happy… He bought a hundred of winter flowers for me…

Cercei got upset because of his attitude… For the first time, he didn't care Cercei's attitude towards him…

On the Kingsroad, Jaime tried to talk to me, but he was busy… Jaime saw sadness in my eyes… He promised himself to try change my mood…

Jaime loved when he made me blush… But what he fall completely for me was what I told him about his pet name… My opinion about it and how I saw him as a hero…

"No one had told me those comforting words, no one had seen a light in me. Not even Cercei. This girl who barely know how the game of thrones works, she said the words I wanted to expect from someone close to me."

Jaime took care of me while he took my sister and me to the inn… and later when I fall unconscious while a Maester was healing my arm, until my father look for me after execute Lady…

Lady… That bitch Queen wanted Luna too…

Jaime found out my reasons I was avoiding him… He was furious for knowing who hurt my arm and Cercei's desire to kill Luna…

Cercei and Jaime argued…

"Joffrey attacked her!" he shout to his sister. "TO MY BETROTHED, CERCEI!"

"Our son was defending himself, that whore and her filthy wolf attack him."

Jaime resisted to slap her twin. "Lylian was defending her sister from being killed-"

"Now the whore, has a name." Cercei said bitterly.

"If you call her again a whore-" Jaime began to hiss but Cercei interrupt him.

"That wilding whore put a spell on you-" Jaime didn't let her finished and slapped her face. Cercei took her hand where she was hit. "What next? You will kill for her only because I naming her true name?"

"If you belittle her, speak ill of her or try to kill her. I will kill you surely." Jaime hissed.

"I'm the Queen-"

"I. Don't. Care."

Jaime wanted to show me he was trustworthy… He wanted to amend everything…

Jaime's patience was at his limits…

Jaime was jealous of Loras… He didn't want me to married with the Knight of Flowers… Jaime was capable of doing everything in his power to interrupt my decisions of choosing Loras…

Jaime was angry with the King… He didn't like how Robert Baratheon humiliate me when he asked me about my first killing… That drunkard can humiliate me about killing The Mad King, but not her… Jaime knew he couldn't do anything, he was the King… unless he wanted to highlight his infamous name…

Everything was appeased when Jaime stole a kiss from me… he noticed two things: how I answered to his kisses, and how he loved to kissing me… more than Cercei…

And again was at the edge of its limits… Cercei started to belittle me, and this enraged him… My calming words and touch pacify his rash actions…

I don't care if Lylian acts as a wildling, she is making an effort to be a lady without taking aside where she belongs…

In the following days after that first meeting with the Queen, his twin used all her persuasion to break Jaime… But Jaime… with all his strength, he avoid his sister or didn't pay her attention… Now I was in his mind…

Jaime knew he was going to win that tourney and the bet he made in that day when he stole my kisses… It was hilarious for him that day when I saw him in his golden armor… Jaime felt he was close to win my hand each time he won… He was ecstatic… until he saw my reaction when the new knight died…

Jaime was concerned when I passed out… he felt the need of taking care of me… And he did during the feast… He enjoyed that feast and after… when Jaime took me to my chambers… He kissed me again… Jaime felt young again with me… He started to fall for me…

The next day, Jaime was even more confident and younger… And even he dared to steal kisses in front of everyone, as a way to have my favor… However, that luck didn't work…

"I looked so stupid and lost the game. In any case, I will insisting on Lylian, I know she feels something for me. I will wait until she say the words."

His pride was hurt that day… However, he will never forget that night when I accept his hand… "I will make her the happiest woman in Westeros"

Also in that night, he will never forget that promise…

"I know our houses are not the best allies, but I hope this marriage will do it."

"I hope the same, Lord Stark"

"I tell you this as a father, Kingslayer. I'm not going to forget what you have done with King Aerys, but If you hurt my daughter, if you hurt her in any way-"

"I will take care of her, Lord Stark. I know that my family are not the best to trust, but my intentions are good towards your daughter. I want make her happy and protect her from the politics of this place."

"I trust in your word, Lannister." Ned told him with his cold look. "And I trust it because of my daughter. But if you break her trust-"

"I know you want the best for your daughter, and I will give it to her." Jaime promised to him.

Jaime finally accomplished his wish… practicing with me… Jaime wanted to know how I was against him… And he was right… I was a good fighter because I was small and fast, I could dodge every killing move from him or strike him back…

Jaime appreciate Jon's action of giving me a shortsword to defend me… He could noticed I was trying hard to act as a southerner woman and making good impressions at everyone… but I was still a northerner… All that Jaime cared was to make sure about my safety and my happiness…

Jaime was nervous that day when his father came for the wedding… For him, it was important his father's opinion about me… Every fear in him was forgotten when he saw me in that balcony… The effects of the sun in me, highlighting my features… made me looked like an angel to him… Jaime knew he loved me…

During supper was challenging and surprising for Jaime… Cercei seduce him under the table, touching him… he removed more than once her hand… Jaime was surprised when and I was acting as a proper southerner lady… But what surprised him more was the way I objected the decisions of his father…

"That Stark girl, is the vivid image of Lyanna Stark." His father commented.

"She is." Jaime agreed.

"Cercei told me a lot about her. Your sister said she acts as a wildling and she didn't care about her responsibilities." Tywin commented.

"She is a northerner, you know how wild The North is. It is usual to see woman like her in that cold place." Jaime explained.

"And her responsibilities?" Tywin asked. "I will not tolerate an irresponsible and a savage girl as your wife."

"You know that Cercei always make a bad judgment on people, she don't know her like I do." Jaime complained.

"So, how is she according to you?" Tywin asked.

"Yes, she can ride a horse, grab a bow and she is a good swordsman. It is usual to see that in northerner girls." Jaime explained. "But Lylian is not stupid, she is very clever. For what I've heard from villagers when I was on Winterfell is that many people think she can read people's minds, thing I consider a lie. She is always a step forward to everything and it's true, I've seen that from myself." His father nodded in comprehension. "Don't underestimate her like Cercei is doing."

"I will take that into account. As for you…" Tywin got up from his seat. "You will tame that Stark girl, I don't want to see her around in Casterly Rock with a sword. She will act as a southerner lady." He said finally to Jaime. "For let you know, I like how firm she is with her decisions. She must be hardheaded as a bull."

"And she is." Confirmed to his father.

Our great day came… The day of our wedding… Jaime was nervous and excited, it was the day I became his wife and only for him…

When he saw me entered in The Great Sept of Baelor, I looked in his eyes as a northerner angel… all in white and pure… and his eyes were glued in me…

However, Jaime noticed how my humor changed suddenly… I wasn't enjoying our wedding, I wasn't eating… only drinking and drinking… he knew I had a problem… "She must miss her family…"

Jaime started his duties as a husband… and he made it… he made stop the drinking, he made eat, laugh and dance… Jaime felt the happiest man in the world… Tywin accept me and I made his cold father laugh while both were dancing… He knew how Tyrion and I get along… Jaime felt he was the lucky bastard who had such woman like me…

That night in our bedding and the next morning was special for him… After so long he heard me singing for the first time in months, a song composed by me while I was thinking about him… When I became his wife completely and made him to say those three words out loud while he thought I fell asleep…

Jaime loved me deeply and he was capable of killing anyone who attempt my happiness and safety…

But all that love and confidence between us ended when Jaime found out about Tyrion being kidnapped by my mother, and his rash actions…

"Such a small pack of wolves" Jaime said from his horse when he saw Ned Stark outside the brothel.

"Stay back this is the Hand of the King-" Jory Cassel warned.

"Was the Hand of the King." Jaime corrected Jory, while he was dismounting from his horse. "Now, if truth be told, I'm not sure what he is."

"What is the meaning of this, Lannister?" Littlefinger asked.

"Get back inside, where is safe." Jaime warned to Littlefinger. "I'm looking for my brother. You remember my brother, Lord Stark? Fair-haired, mismatched eyes, sharp tongue. Short man."

"I remember him well." Replied Ned Stark.

"It would seem he has met some trouble on the road. You would know what happen to him, don't you?"

"Your brother has been taken at my command, to answer for his crimes," Ned Stark said.

When Jaime heard this, he unsheathe his longsword and his soldiers were ready to attack. Littlefinger groaned in dismay. "My lords-"

"You kill me, and your brother is a dead man, and surely Lylian will not forgive you." Ned warned him.

Jaime never thought about my reaction… but his priority at the moment was to save his brother, no matter the cost… "You right." Jaime agreed with him. He look at his men. "Take him alive, kill his men." Jaime ordered.

The bloodshed started… killing on the process Jory… Jory…

Then my father started to fight Jaime… But this didn't last long because I appeared, stopping one of his blows…

In that moment… when Jaime saw my eyes… he was frightened of me… how the wrath I had towards him would shatter us… his impulsive actions destroyed everything he did…

My silence hurt him deeply… my bitter comments hurt him deeply… sleeping away from him hurt him deeply… Jaime and I made love, and still he wasn't forgiven… Jaime saw how broken was I becoming each day… Jaime felt frustrated because he caused all of this…

Jaime felt he was in an unsteady ground when he had to march against my family…

"My lord, news from The Capitol." A squire entered to the tent giving those news…

I saw myself how I was falling in Jaime's arms, and he telling me to breathe…

"Cercei is behind in all of this. Lylian will hate me for everything I had done." Jaime told himself while he was looking at me… so pale and thin… "I'm so sorry, my love."

Jaime was fighting outside… killing Stark soldiers… his excitement for killing was beyond of its top… But the figure of a woman distracted him… It was me…

Jaime's heart stopped when he saw one of his men charging against me… but it was too late…

I saw myself in the muddy ground… with a spear in my left leg, exactly where I had my old wound… I was bleeding profusely… and leaving… Luna was whining by my side and Jaime had his eyes watered…

"Stay with me, Lily." Jaime whispered almost in sobs as he was trying to get myself closer to him. "I'm so sorry, love. Please, stay with me…"

"I wanted to protect her from everything… She can't die in my arms. Please don't take her away from me…" Jaime thought sorrowfully.

His world was starting to stop… For the first time he was scared…

Robb and his men took him… Jaime tried to explain but he wasn't heard… He was the Kingslayer and possibly Lylian's assassin…

Jaime didn't stop to looking at me until I was out of his sight… "I'm so sorry, love." Jaime whispered.

And again, everything went dark…