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Hello my readers! The following chapter was modified, but still has the same essence. In this chapter I mixed two chapters from the previous version. Therefore, this is the last chapter. Don't worry, you will not get lost when you read it.
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Chapter 23
And again, everything went dark…
"I never thought you were capable to change the Kingslayer's heart. But you could. And you do it good." I heard the voice of a woman clearly, like she was whispering in my ears. For a moment I didn't recognize it, but sooner I knew it was the same woman voice who was on my head for several months. "But that doesn't mean you changed the course of the story."
"What was that thing I've just saw?" I asked.
"You saw it for yourself. The life of the Kingslayer since he met you." Explained the voice.
That cannot be… "You are playing with me!"
"I'm not, everything you saw is the truth."
"Jaime is a good man…!"
"Before killing The Mad King, after that… his heart got darkened. His heart began to be good after you saw him as a hero. You change him, you change his world."
I felt a massive pain in my chest, it was an indescribable pain. Jaime break completely Lylian's heart and mine's.
Why I couldn't noticed before? Joffrey, Myrcella and Tommen scream everywhere Lannister. They had the same green eyes from Jaime, some facial features and even their gestures… Why I didn't see this before?
If father was declared a traitor against Joffrey, it was because he found out that Cercei's children weren't from Robert. That's why father was worried and reticent towards Jaime.
That's why Jaime tried to kill our little brother, because he saw Jaime fucking Cercei. Now I can understand that strange memory I had on Winterfell, the day when Bran fall from the tower. Nobody can't know what Bran saw that day.
Now, our brother Robb is marching against his family because he suspects that Lannisters tried to kill Bran and declared father a traitor… Soon our family will find out about why Bran was pushed from the tower and father will die.
Lylian hated to death Jaime, as for me… I was confused. I was still love him, but it was difficult to swallow everything he had done. Jaime tried to protect me until the end, but his rash actions and his secrets destroyed everything.
"Am I dead?" I asked to the voice.
"Not yet. It was written you were going to die in this world when you get speared, but I decided to extend a little bit more your life." Told the voice. "Give you another opportunity to change everything."
"How so? I want to return to my world. I can't bear this pain…"
"You will thank me for returning to Westeros. Take advantage of your days remain in this world, before returning to your world."
"I don't want to wake up in Westeros." I beg to the voice.
My plea wasn't heard because I felt something pulling me from my back and, and the pull was taking me very fast to an unknown place.
"NO! I WANT TO RETURN TO MY WORLD!" I scream desperately.
I felt my body falling in a cold water, I tried to swim but my body wasn't responding. Then, stopped feeling the water, now I was feeling very heavy. I felt my body hot and cold at the same time; I was shaking because of the cold and sweating because of the hot. A pain began from my left leg, and this pain went through all my body.
"Drink, Lily." I heard someone said as I felt water on my lips and fill my dry mouth.
I tried to move, but my body was too heavy. I tried to open my eyes so hard. Once I did it, everything was blurry and a shadow was in front of me. I blinked several times until my eyes were clear. My mother was in front of me giving me sips of water.
"Mother…" I muttered. I looked around and I was inside a tent. It was night. "What… happened?" I asked her between my shakes.
She put somewhere the bowl where she was giving me water. "The Kingslayer tried to kill you. You almost die."
I remember what happened before I lose conscience and what that voice showed me. "Jaime… he saved me… he didn't tried to kill me."
"Maybe it was your imagination-"
"No… mother!" I stopped her. "He saved… me!" I shout the best I could to her.
"Lily you are awake!" I heard Robb. When he was in front of me, I saw him older. He wasn't that teen I knew him, he was a grown man. A man who leader thousands of men.
"Your sister thinks that the Kingslayer saved her." Mother told to Robb, and my brother look at me confused.
"Lily, we found you with a spear on your leg-"
"I'm not… imagine… anything… I saw him… killing his men with… Luna. He saved… me, Robb!" I insisted. Both look at me even more confused and surprised, and even they looked each other. "Where's… he? What… happened? Where's Luna?"
"He's my prisoner and don't ever think I will release him because he's your husband. He hurt our father-" Robb said firmly, but I interrupt him again.
"One of his soldiers… did it. The… soldier… disobey Jaime." I correct him. When he was to respond, I continue quickly. "I was… there when everything… happened."
By the look of his eyes, I knew he believed what I told. "But still, he's a Lannister. His house declare traitor to our father" Robb point out.
"Where's Luna?" I asked again.
"Luna is guarding the Kingslayer, she didn't let anyone to get close to him, not even myself or Grey Wind. Luna permit getting close to the Kingslayer when we are going to give him food."
One part of me was glad that Luna was protecting Jaime, but the other part of me didn't want to know anything from him. For now.
"Any… word from… father?" My mother shook her head. "Sansa, Arya…?"
"Arya and Sansa are under the Queen's wing." Robb answered.
"Rest my daughter, we will maintained you informed from any news." Mother told me and few seconds later I fall asleep again.
*.*.*.*
In the middle of my sleep, I heard some mumbles and then a sob, making me to wake up. When I opened my eyes, I found my mother crying and reading a letter. "What happened, mother?" My mother look at me with sorrow in her eyes. What happened..? "Mother?"
"Your… your Father was executed." I shake my head and my eyes began to water. No… "Under the King Joffrey's command." I began to whimper.
I hate the Lannisters… I'm going to kill them all… Especially Joffrey and that Queen bitch Cercei… I'M GOING TO KILL THEM ALL!
I began to cry and scream because of the loss of father. Mother came to me and hug me, both of us were consoling each other.
I will kill those fuckers, I will make them suffer…
I couldn't think anymore of the ways to avenge my father's death, because darkness took me again.
When I opened my eyes again, I found myself alone in the tent, it was almost dark and I was still feeling weak.
I need to see him… I don't care if mother or anyone sees me… I need to see him… I need fucking answers…
With difficulty, I stood myself from the bed I was. My left leg hurt as hell and barely I could stand on my own, but still I did the best I can to stand and walk. Also, I noticed that I have a different dress, what I supposed was from my mother's.
When I was outside the tent, the light was hurting my eyes and head. "My condolences, Lady Stark." I heard one of Robb's men telling me.
I nodded as way to say my thanks. "Where are the prisoners?" I asked the men and he indicate me where they were.
Every step I take or were I put my eyes on it, I encountered more Robb's men. Every men were muttering towards me their condolences and I nodded without saying a word.
When I began to see the stakes with Lannister soldiers far and isolated from the rest of the tents, I searched Luna or Jaime's form. Before I could look for them, I heard Luna's bark.
When I saw my direwolf, it felt like I didn't see her for years, I forgot how big she was. Luna might noticed how weak I was, because she hurried where I stand. Once she was near me, Luna smelled my wound and I clenched my hands into her fur. "Take me to Jaime." I muttered near her ears. Luna apparently understood and she guide me.
Jaime's stake was far from the rest of his men. He was giving his back to the rest of the prisoners, his hands were tied in a very tight ropes at his back in the stake. Like in the vision and the last time I saw him, Jaime's face was dirty with mud and blood; he wasn't wearing his armor, only a jerkin, his pants and boots.
"Lylian…" Jaime muttered when he saw me. "Are you well? You shouldn't-"
"I know everything." I hissed to him. "About Cercei and you, and your children, about Bran…" I muttered to him. "I know every single thing about you."
"How do you-?" Asked surprised.
"There's no need explanation. Don't fret, nobody knows. Yet." I said coldly. "You lied to me, all this time." Jaime lowered his face. "You tried to kill Bran, your bastard son kill my father and have my sisters kidnapped."
"I'm sorry about your father-"
"I'm gonna to kill them all." I told him in the same tone. I didn't care what Jaime was thinking, I just wanted to kill all those fucking Lannisters. "Each Lannister who hurt me. Your lover, your older bastard son, your father… any men and women who support them."
"Then you have to kill me. I tried to kill your brother and your father-"
I snorted and smiled bitterly. "I wish I could kill you right now, but I can't." I confessed frustrated. "You saved my life. Life for life."
This pain was unbearable, I didn't want to come back here… Jaime is causing me pain…
My tears wanted to come out, I turn my head far from Jaime's painful and intense gaze.
"You still love me." Jaime said.
"I never told you those words. And I doubt to tell you that after everything you have done." I hissed without looking at him, trying to hold my tears.
"I'm sorry for what I've done to your brother. I'm sorry for attacking your father and kill his men. I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you because of my rash actions and my life before met you. I'm really sorry." I turn to him and I saw the same pain and sorrow. The same pain and sorrow as mine… He's lying… He's full of lies…"But, there are few things I have to disagree with you. I didn't kill your father. Your mother is accusing Tyrion for something he didn't do. I never lied to you, only those secrets you found out. And you are not a murdered, you don't like killing."
"I know you didn't kill my father, but you fought against him and kill his men. So, you attack him." I began to tell him. "I already knew that Tyrion wasn't who tried to kill Bran for a second time. It will be stupid if you send an assassin with your knife, someone else did that." Who wanted to create a chaos between the Starks and Lannisters? "About the lies and killing…" I snorted. "I don't know you enough to believe you, and you don't know shit about me."
"But I know you well, and you don't like killing people." I shook my head. "You are a good heart-"
"You don't know me-"
"I know you enough to tell you that." Jaime said firmly. "I know you well enough to tell you that you don't want to kill me because you love me, but you don't want to admit it." I look at him coldly, Jaime didn't pay attention to it and continue. "I know you well enough to tell you that you are not a killer, you don't like death." Jaime assured me.
"Those men I killed-"
"-was self-defense, Lily. Those men you kill doesn't count." Completed for me. I shook my head. "I am a killer. I love killing. I enjoy killing your brother's men." Jaime told. "Leave those dark thoughts to me." I turn my face way from his. "Lily, my love… look at me." I avoid his eyes and his call. "Look at me!" Jaime shouted.
His shout made me upset and I throw myself in front of him, clenching my hands on his jerkin, pull him closer. I didn't care getting my skirt dirty with mud, shit and piss; I didn't care the state I was or all the pain I was suffering. I just wanted to hit him and scream at him so hard.
"You won't change my mind, Lannister." I spat furious.
"I will keep insisting until I die. I will keep insisting because I love you." Jaime muttered near my lips.
That electricity we had appeared again after so long. I wanted to kiss him so hard… all my strength to keep away from him, vanished.
When I was about to join my lips to him, I felt a stabbing pain in my left leg, also something warm. Luna began to whine. "Lily…?" I saw worry in Jaime's face. Sooner, I began to feel week and dizzy again. Jaime's face turn into something blurry, I tried to touch his face but I couldn't. "Lylian." My body fall on the ground, beside him. "Lylian!"
The last thing I remembered was Jaime screaming at my name and asking for help, and Luna's howl.
*.*.*.*
Almost two weeks in bed, between fevers, pain and cries.
Jaime's screams and Luna's howls call the attention of everybody. One of Robb's men found me and took me to the tent were I was staying and immediately informed to my mother and Robb about what happened to me.
The wound in my leg reopened again, luckily I didn't feel anything because I was unconscious. I had fevers and the throb in my leg was unbearable, most of the times I was sleeping because of the milk of the poppy to ease the pain.
The few times I was conscious, I was crying. Mother and Robb thought it was because of the pain in my leg, but besides of that, I was crying for what Jaime and his whole family do to me.
The man who I fall in love, hurt me deeply. That mysterious voice was right, I shouldn't fall in love with him.
Besides my fevers and the pain in my leg, I began to feel sick in my stomach. There were certain foods I could eat well, but others I return it; making my recovery slow down. My uncles Brynden and Edmure gave me my mother's chambers on Riverrun's castle, and offered a Maester to heal better the wound from my leg and help me with that flu I had.
Days passed, Robb was named 'The King in the North', I didn't have any more news about my sisters, the mysterious voice in my head disappear again, and the pain of my leg decrease a little bit and the fever stopped, but still I was sick in my stomach. I couldn't eat very well and stand by my own, I was still feeling weak. "You need to eat, you're so thin." Mother put in front of me a plate with some meat and bread. The smell of that food wasn't very appetizing, I wanted to vomit.
"I don't want to, I can't stand the smell." I told to my mother, sniffing the food. She put the plate away from me and tilt her head.
"You eat whatever is in front of you and now you turn picky with the food. And when you eat those foods you don't like, they make you throw it up." Mother told me. "Also, your breast is getting bigger."
"Maybe because of the flu I have. And about my breast, maybe is because I'm getting skinny and my breast is starting to showing up-"
"The flu comes with fever and you don't have fever anymore." Mother point out. What she supposed to mean..? "When it was your last moon blood?" asked mother.
"What?" I asked confused.
"When it was your last moon blood?" Mother asked again.
"Why you are asking me this?" I look at her still confused for her question.
"Tell me, Lylian. When it was your last moon blood?" Mother insisted.
"It was, er-" I began to calculate when it was. I started to get nervous after I remembered when it was. I shook my head. "It can't be…" I whispered. All the symptoms indicate me that sickness I have.
It can't be…
Everything is pointing at that…
I hide my face between my hands, shaking my head in denial. "Lily…"
Nausea, big boobs, vomit certain foods, absence of menstruation…
"This can't be happening…"
"Lily, tell me-"
"Two fucking moons!" I shouted. Mother looked at me surprised. "I can't be pregnant!" I began to sob.
I can't be pregnant…
Not in the middle of this disaster…
I felt my mother hug me and hushed me. "Sweetling, calm down. It's bad for the child." I heard mother console me. "We will help you to raise your child. Don't worry, my daughter…"
Mother keep talking and console me, but I stopped listen to her. My head was a complete chaos, it was both blank and thinking a thousands of things.
I can't be pregnant…
I can't be…
"WHY THE FUCK YOU ARE DOING THIS TO ME?!" I asked furiously to the voice. But, as most of the times, there was silence in my head.
