Hello, my dear readers!
First of all, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year my readers. I hope you had a wonderful Christmas holiday in the middle of this pandemic and quarantine.
Secondly, I know I've been lost, but I assure you that I haven't forgotten you. So, I brought you 3 chapters as my Christmas present for you.
As always, I don't own A Song of Ice and Fire books and GOT show, except for my OCs and part of the story. English is my second (foreign) language, Spanish is my first. Sorry for the typos.
I'm not bothering you anymore, enjoy your gift!
Chapter 3
It was midnight when I escaped from my chambers, I was wearing my nightgown with a belt in my waist, my usual leather boots, and a furred cloak to cover my whole body. Luckily, Mother and Robb didn't forbid me from having my shortsword, so I took Iron Rose in my belt. Yeah… there were questions about it, but they prefer me to have something to defend myself during this war.
"I want to see him." I ordered the Umber's men who were guarding Jaime's cell.
"We have orders not let you-"
"I don't fucking care about my brother's orders, you ARE going to let me in." I snapped at the guards.
"Princess-"
I didn't let him continue speaking because immediately I unsheathed my sword. "If I have to fight with you to let me in, I will." Sooner, I heard a growl behind the men, they turned their heads slightly to the monster they had behind them.
"You don't want this wolf destroy the cell." I heard Jaime say. "Do what she commands you."
Both men look at each other and then at me. They nod nervously. One of the men turned and unlock the cell, finally both men gave me free entrance to the wooden cell.
The first thing I saw was my direwolf, her big size but a little bit smaller than a warhorse cover my vision to Jaime. Luna was moving her tail happily; she smelled my incipient pregnant belly and, as she was telling me something with her eyes, Luna was happy about it.
"Hello, girl!" I muttered to her. Luna's black fur was dirty with mud, and she was stinking with piss and shit. "You need a bath, Luna." I complained, and she corresponds to me with a small lick on my cheek.
"I never thought your brother let you see me." I heard Jaime's voice. Luna stepped aside to let me see him.
I walked cautiously inside the wooden cage as I saw painfully the sight of my husband. Jaime was tied with ropes and shackles in a wooden post like a dog; he looked thinner, his beaten gold hair was dirty and longer, he had a dark blond beard trimmed with some grey and white, and all his face was dirty with various small cuts and dried blood.
For a moment I didn't recognize him, but his fierce cat-green eyes confirmed it was him. Jaime still looked fierce, he didn't get weaker with the bad treatment that my brother and his men gave him.
"I escaped from him. I always find a way." I told him.
"You're unstoppable, my Wild Wolf. I love that from you." He smirked. "Come closer, I want to see you better. I've been worried."
I was hating this freaking cold night because of the pain in my leg. The cloak was protecting me, but for my left leg, it wasn't enough. "Luna, help me." I ordered my direwolf. She came closer and I clenched one of my hands to her fur, I walked carefully to him.
Jaime must have seen a wince of pain from me, he looked at me concern. "Are you well, Lily?" I nodded. "You looked pained."
"Is the leg, that's all. Don't worry about it, it's almost healed completely." I said as I was still walking to him.
When I was really close to him, Jaime spoke again. "I've heard some stories from your brother's men. Rumors from you."
"What stories?"
"That you are with child. My child." Jaime answered looking at me intensively. "It's true?" immediately after he ended his question, I moved my cloak to my back and took off the belt with my shortsword, holding them in one of my hands; and with my other hand, I tighten with one of my hands the nightgown around my stomach, to show him my small belly.
Jaime looked startled, his eyes moved to me and my belly. His eyes beamed in happiness but as soon as he saw my eyes, Jaime's expression changed. "You know what it hurts me so much? What bothers me? The fact that… I don't know what I'm going to do with you." I told him. "It hurts me to see you like this, but also I think you deserve it."
"I'm sorry for killing your father-"
"I know you didn't kill my father-"
"But your brother's men think I did it because I fathered Joffrey. He looked like me, so I have to pay the price for it." Jaime told me.
"You don't kill him, your bastard son did it."
"He's not my son, I never felt him like mine." Explained Jaime.
"But you left your sister pregnant-"
"I was a different man. Young and stupid."
I snorted for his excuse. "The same with Myrcella and Tommen, right?" I said sarcastically.
I wanted to scream so badly. I wanted to hit him. I wanted to cry, too…
I look to another place from the cell, almost giving my back to him, far from Jaime's eyes. My eyes began to prickle when I heard Jaime speaking again. "I tried more than once to forget Cercei. To end my relationship with her. And the solution for that was looking for a woman who makes me forget her, get married and return to Casterly Rock. But there was always something that pulled me back to Cercei." I knew he was telling the truth, but that confession was touching that fresh wound I have. Though I had to resist myself not leaving, I had the feeling that I needed to hear what he was going to say.
"Everything changed when I've met you for the first time, your wild personality and cleverness call my attention. You were very different from every woman I knew and I liked that, I thought of you a very good distraction and see what you had under those dresses you wore." I snorted and rolled my eyes at his comment. "But what made me fall for you completely, what made me change that thought of you, were those words you told me near The Eyrie." Yes, when I kind of told him he was not the villain or an oathbreaker because of his actions. I remember his feelings in that vision. "You didn't see me as Kingsguard who broke his vows. 'Kingslayer'. You saw me as a hero, a knight who did something good for the realm. For the first time, someone looked at me like that. Someone told me those words I wanted to hear. Not even Cercei, or my whole family told me that, nobody. That's why I wanted so eagerly your hand, I wanted you as my wife." Jaime said passionately. "And the more I was knowing you, the more I was falling for you, loving you. Since that day you saw me as a hero, you were the only one I wanted to protect, love and spend the rest of my life with. Not Cercei. You."
Tears already fall when he finished. I cleaned them before turning slightly to him. "You are saying that because you want to convince me to free you."
"I don't expect you to believe me." Jaime said quickly. "I hurt you over and over again, breaking my promise to your father and you. I never lied to you, I didn't want you to know about my past with Cercei, I didn't want you to get involved in this war or that encounter with your father-"
"You should talk to me first! Part of your rash actions caused this!" I spat angrily.
He looked pained and disappointed. "I know and I'm sorry. I'm sorry to cause you all of this-"
"You have to stop acting so rash! You have to stop lying!" I scream at him. By this time, I was weeping again, I was really hurt because of him. I want to return to my home… Where's home? Here in Westeros or where I originally come from?
"Lily, look at me." Asked Jaime and I shook my head. "Lylian… Lily, please… just look at me. I understand if you don't want to see me again, but please…" His voice sounded pained, and the wound in my heart got wider.
"Jaime… I can't-" I shook my head and with that, I left that wooden prison.
As the best I could, I ran far away from that cell. I needed air, I needed to scream, I needed to escape from everything…
Somebody stopped me and I started to hit what was stopping me. "Stop, Lily… Stop…" I kept punching and kicking, while this force was imprisoning me. When I was immobilized, I noticed what was stopping me. Theon was grabbing my wrist, imprisoned me within his arms; and Robb was in front of me, looking at me angrily.
"The Kingslayer did this to you?" asked Robb. I shook my head, as I was still sobbing and weeping. I just want to return home… "What happened? Why my men saw you enter and leave from the Kingslayer's cell?" his question made me sob even more.
"Let's take her to her chambers, Robb." Theon said.
I let myself be guided by my brother and Theon. My mind and heart were in chaos. My mind was blank but at the same time, I was thinking about Jaime, my pregnancy, and leaving this place.
I didn't notice when I arrived to my temporary chambers. As soon as I arrived, my mother took me to my bed, she gave me something to drink and seconds later, I fall asleep…
"…I have good and bad news." A man said. "The good news is that your sister is improving, is possible that, sooner or later, she doesn't need help for breathing." I heard sighs after this man said that. "The bad news is that her head is still complicated, she is still in a delicate state…"
"…we will pray for her improvement. She will wake up…" a second man said.
*.*.*.*
"Why you love the Kingslayer? He throws Bran through the window, he has that incestuous relationship with Cercei and he almost killed Ned. You must be very crazy." Commented my best friend.
"I know he did those things, I can understand him. He didn't have another choice." I explained. "With the exception of his impulsive actions." I added seconds later.
My best friend sighed. "I hope Jaime dies on the last season."
"Shut up! Don't say that! He deserved something better. At least, someone who can trust him." I commented. "He's not bad, just… complicated. But not bad."
"Definitely, you're crazy as fuck. Your taste of men is shitty." She answered my comment.
I rolled my eyes…
*.*.*.*
Once I finished writing a letter to Loras, I give it to my mother. "I don't promise anything, he will obey Renly's commands." I told my mother and Robb.
"If he's your friend, he will take sides with us." Robb said. He will not… Loras's priority is his lover and his sister…
"It doesn't hurt to remind that to both of you." I insisted.
Tomorrow, at first light, Theon, my mother, and Robb were parting ways.
Theon is going to the Iron Islands. Mother and I were against this, especially me that I tried to persuade Robb on not sending Theon to the Iron Islands, but it was useless.
Mother is going to the Stormlands, to convince Renly and Loras to make an alliance with Robb against the Lannisters (I warned them repeatedly about Loras's actions).
And Robb marching against the Lannisters, he didn't want to tell me where he was going because he thinks that I'm still under Jaime's influence (and I understand him), but I knew his intentions according to what I remembered from this world.
As for me, I will stay on Riverrun for my protection and the baby. In the beginning, Robb wanted me to return to Winterfell after he saw my state last night, but our mother and Uncle Edmure convince him to keep me safe on Riverrun because of my pregnancy state.
"Mother, I need to speak with Lylian alone." Robb asked.
"I will prepare my things for tomorrow." Mother said before leaving my temporary chambers.
Once we were alone, Robb began to speak. "You are right about what you told me few days ago." I look at him confused. When I was about to ask him, he continued quickly. "If I'm going to keep him alive, I need to treat him better. Just until the Lannister return our sisters."
"What you're going to do? And what is the problem that you don't want my mother's presence?"
"Mother will not agree about what are my plans for your husband." Robb answered before sitting down in a chair near me.
"I can imagine what you're going to say." I told him. I didn't know exactly what Robb is going to say, but I know that it can happen three possibilities.
One of them is taking Jaime and me with him to whatever the place Robb want to go, this is according to the TV show; a second possibility is Jaime and I staying here, Jaime is going to be taken to an isolated room in the castle which is going to be his new prison, he will receive meat and mead, a bed and other privileges according to his title, this is according to the books; and a third possibility is taking me to Winterfell, and Robb will decide Jaime's future.
"Your husband will stay here in Riverrun. I ordered Uncle Edmure to give him some space to establish his new cell. He will receive certain privileges and he will be treated better." Robb explained and I nodded. "As for you…" His final statement will decide what is going to happen with my future here… "You will stay here too, but you are forbidden to see him. Uncle Edmure will watch over you, I need to make sure that you are not going to free him-"
"I'm not that stupid little brother." I interrupt Robb.
"I know you are not stupid, you are very clever for your own good. So, I don't trust you while I'm not here." I rolled my eyes. 'Yeah… I'm smart, but not suicidal' I wanted to say, but I preferred to maintain my mouth shut. "If he sees or his men that you free the Kingslayer, or you have the intentions to it, you will be a traitor, and Uncle Edmure will lock you too. Do you understand?"
"Yes, I understand."
"Good, this is your duty while I'm absent. I'm telling you this without mother because-"
"She wouldn't like the idea that my husband is going to be in the same castle where I am, and he is going to be well-treated."
"Exactly." Robb nodded. "Now, I'm going to looking for you when gets darker, almost midnight."
"For what?" I asked confused.
"We are going to change the Kingslayer cell, and you will help me with Luna." Robb explained before leaving from my temporary chambers.
After he left, I spoke to the door from where I was. "His name is Jaime." I corrected him as if my brother was still here.
