As always, I don't own A Song of Ice and Fire books and GOT show, except for my OCs and part of the story. English is my second (foreign) language, Spanish is my first. Sorry for the typos.
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Chapter 4
"What kind of music you have here…?" said the voice of a woman I can't recognize. I could hear her near me. "C'mon girl! Don't you have here some pop music…? Here is…!"
I began to hear a strange melody in one of my ears. "I gotta feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night, that tonight's gonna be a good night, that tonight's gonna be a good good night…"
"This song reminds me of our crazy parties, remember?" the woman asked. After she said this, flashes came to my mind…
Drinking so eagerly… smoking a pot and taking some pills with alcohol… Dancing over the tables at the rhythm of some music… Dancing with different people at clubs and other parties…
I heard a sigh. "I miss those times, but nothing is forever. We all grow up and control ourselves on parties, we change our priorities." The woman told me while I was listening to music. "I don't how we didn't get addicted to all that."
Because I was the reasonable one…
Now I remember that voice… Emma was the spirit of the parties, the one who drank and consume excessively, and I was the one who controls her from everything of that craziness and defends her too from the guys who wanted to take advantage of her.
I got fun on those occasions too, but I controlled myself… well, not all the time, luckily I didn't suffer any delicate situation because of the alcohol and drugs.
"Yeah… you were the reasonable one between the two of us, and then Peter came…" Emma cut suddenly by the name of Peter. "I shouldn't talk you about him…" Emma muttered. Was he my ex-abusive-boyfriend…? No… For some reason, I felt happy with him, not sad or upset… What happened to him?
Without noticing, another song was played. A woman was singing. "I breathe you in again just to feel you. Underneath my skin holding on to. The sweet escape is always laced with the… familiar taste… of poison."
"Heartbreaking songs no…" said Emma and change the song. A familiar song filled in one of my ears… "Game of Thrones Intro! Nice!" commented Emma happily. "You remember when I introduce you into this?" Emma laugh. "You were very reluctant to see the show. What did you told me when I talked about the show…?" Then, Emma began to imitate my voice. "'I'm not going to see that stupid show. Everybody watch it, and I'm not everybody.'" Emma laugh again. "Now you know more than me. You are like those freaking fans who studied in detail the whole story."
I wish I didn't watch the show or read the books. This world is giving me pain, the greatest pain that is making me forget the happy moments. But still, there are several things which maintain me here, tied to this world…
Another familiar song sounded. "Tonight I'm gonna have myself a real good time. I feel alive… and the world turning inside out… Yeah! And floating around in ecstasy so… Don't. Stop. Me now… don't stop me… 'cause I'm having a good time, having a good time…"
"That's your song!" Emma said excitedly while Freddie Mercury was singing in my ear. "That's what I love about you. You are the most annoying and stubborn woman I've ever met. When you have something in your head, is very hard to make you change your mind. Also a very badass woman." Emma laugh. "You are unstoppable, girl!" I felt pressure in one of my hands. "Keep being like that, Blondie. Fight for your life and wake up soon. I miss you girl…"
I opened my eyes, having still a sobbing in one of my ears, and the other ear Freddie Mercury's voice. I look at my hand where I had the pressure, and I still was feeling it there.
What is happening to me? These dreams… they felt so real…
I looked at everything around me. Everything is real? Or is it just a dream?
The sound of my stomach, the movements of my baby, and Luna's intense gaze distracted me, and make me realize that the place where I am is real.
"You want to go out Luna?" I asked her. Luna's answer was barking, telling me in her own language 'yes'. "Let me get up and break my fast." I told her as I ruffle her fur around her enormous head.
I got up and called the servants to prepare my breakfast and my bath. Once I was ready, I spoke with the guards to let Luna out for hunting.
"Take care of yourself, Luna." I told my direwolf before leaving the castle. I stayed there until the big doors were closed. I look at one of my uncle's men. "Please, inform me when she return." I ordered.
"Yes, Lady Lylian." The man nodded.
Almost a month has passed, my leg was completely healed, my baby keeps growing and growing very fast, and Jaime's cell was changed. That night, when my brother took me to Jaime's cell, it wasn't easy for me…
The guards opened the cell for me and, as the last time I come here, my first sight was the dark and biggest shape of Luna with those strange eyes of hers.
"Hello, girl!" I ruffled her enormous head. She was full of mud, piss, and shit. "Tomorrow I will give you a nice bath, Luna." I looked behind her, Jaime's eyes were fixed over me.
Jaime was even thinner than the last time I saw him, his hair was longer and the same with his beard. His clothes were even dirtier. Oh, Jaime… "I thought I'll never see you again-"
"Come Luna." I ordered my direwolf as I was getting out there. I can't look at Jaime, everything about him was painful.
I wait there patiently and trying not to break down there while my brother's men cover Jaime's eyes and put on him shackles on his wrists and legs. Once he was outside the wooden cage, I began to walk back to the castle.
"Not even your wife loves you, Kingslayer." One of my brother's men said, provoking Jaime.
"You caused her shame, Kingslayer." Another man said, keeping the game.
"Robb, control your men or I'll do it." I snarled to my brother. Robb's answer was shrugging.
I exhale noisily when I keep hearing my brother's men provoking Jaime. Until I heard my husband speaking. "I will be a Kingslayer, and a sister-fucker, but tell me gentlemen what your wives said if they find out that you rape and fuck whores. At least I've been faithful to my wife since I'm married."
My husband's comment made my brother's men get furious and began to hit Jaime. The first to stop those men keep hitting my husband was Luna with her intimidating size and growls. My brother was going to intervene and stop me by grabbing one of my arms, but I pushed Robb, and I look at him deadly enraged; he understood clearly how my mood was.
I got closer to where Jaime was, Luna and my brother's men were, very furious. "If you keep provoking my husband, I will make sure that you never speak again in your life." I threatened them having Luna behind me with her growls and showing her sharp teeth.
"You will defend this sister-fucker? I'm sorry Lady Lylian-" One of my brother's men began to say and I interrupt him by punching him in the face, specifically in his nose, breaking it in the process.
"Yes, I will defend this sister-fucker. He's my husband still, I have a duty to him." I snarled at the men. "And the next who provoke my husband again... YOU WILL BE LUNA'S FOOD, AND I WILL NOT HESITATE! DO YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND?!" I threatened my brother's men. And of course, all the men nodded nervously. "Good." Then I turned to Luna. "Take care of Jaime."
When I began my steps back to the castle, I heard Jaime speaking again. "Thank you, sweet wife. I love that mandatory e intimidating voice of yours." His words stopped me, and still enraged I went back where he was.
I punch him in the face and then between his legs, making Jaime fall to the ground. "Better maintain your fucking mouth shut. Don't think I forgive you from what you did, Kingslayer."
I felt hands grabbing my arms. "Come Lylian, is bad for your child." Robb said behind me.
…I knew that my words hurt him, but he hurt me more. I was still hurt, and that wound was still beating alive and fresh-open.
The following days after that night, I've been receiving news of Jaime from my Uncle Edmure, his servants, and the men who are watching Jaime's cell. Jaime's cell was in an old tower of the castle; he receives food, he has a bed and even he receives the right of having a bath, my brother gave him the necessary comforts for him, only to show that my brother is better than the Lannisters on how is well treated important hostages.
As for me, I'm trying not to think about Jaime, and these strange dreams and nightmares I have, but it was difficult. During the day I distract myself with several things, drawing, some needlework, walking around the castle with Luna, and even praying for my family, knowing that it will be useless at some point. When the night came, sometimes became very long, all because of my dreams and nightmares; I had nightmares about Jaime begging me to forgive him, or seeing Jaime doing some act of love with Cercei; sometimes the nightmares were not about Jaime, were old memories before coming here, sharing with my old family, friends and my boyfriend, but they were blurry… Also, from what I've read from the books, or from what I watch in the show, they came to my mind according to the order of the events and they were painful to me remember those events; remembered how Sansa is bad-treated by Joffrey, how Arya is trying to survive, how my little brothers are missing our mother and having a big responsibility on Winterfell, and now Winterfell is going to fall soon because of Theon (that fucking traitor!); but the most strange dreams were the ones in which any sensation kept there for seconds after I wake up, like today for example, or that dream I had few days ago in which I heard some men talking between them and calling me 'little sister' with a kiss at any part of my face and grabbing my hand.
After having these nightmares and dreams night after night, day after day… I'm close to a point in which I don't know what is real and what is a dream; where I truly belong, here in Westeros or California; I feel like… my body and mind are getting more separated through the days, dying here and starting to wake up in another place. I have the feeling that I will close my eyes, and suddenly I will wake up in another place.
I've been yearning… begging to return where I belong. But now, I'm scared for both leaving this world and waking up in an unknown place. I don't know what will happen to me if I die.
I was in my own thoughts that I didn't notice how I arrived at the Riverrun's Godswood. This Godswood was very different from the one in Winterfell; this Godswood was bright and airy, full of birds, flowers, and very tall trees, its Heart Tree was a slender weirdwood with a sad face.
Once I was close enough to the Heart Tree, I kneel in front of it and I look that sad weirdwood. "I know I've been praying too much in these past days, I've been praying to you since I wake up here in your world. But this time, I need your help. I need guidance." I told to the Heart Tree in whispers. "I know I'm a foreigner here, I don't belong here and maybe, I don't deserve it. But… I really need your guidance." I paused for a moment, thinking about my exact words for the Heart Tree… there are many things to say. "I don't know what to do… That voice in my head disappeared again, I have these dreams and nightmares almost every night, and the man I love…" I paused myself shocked for the weight of my words about Jaime. Do I love Jaime after everything he did to me and my family? "Just… please… Tell what to do, tell me at least the end of the road in this world for me." By this time, I began to cry. "I can't bear this pain, I'm scared of leaving but I want to leave… I…" I began to weep in front of the tree.
"Lylian?" I heard a voice behind me. I clean quickly my tears and turn to where the voice came from. It was my Uncle Edmure. "Are you well, girl? You look-"
"I'm well, Uncle. I was just praying." I said calming my Uncle and his questions. "Can you help me to get up?"
My Uncle nodded and grab one of my hands to help me. "I was looking for you. It is important." I look at my Uncle with interest. "Ser Cleos return with Lannister envoy. They pledge peace and surrender their weapons, so I allow them to enter. It wouldn't be so bad if you receive them as a…"
"Lannister? It could be said that they are my soldiers too." I said with a sigh. "Take me to them."
A group of five soldiers, plus Ser Cleos Frey, were at the entrance of the castle. My uncle ordered to give them what they need, and at night they took supper with us; during our food, Cleos Frey told us the Queen's answer (I wasn't surprised by her answer, neither my Uncle), and all the men wishing me good for my pregnancy. When our supper ended, my Uncle took me to my chambers.
"Uncle, can I give you an advice?" I asked him when we were near to my chambers.
"Of course, girl."
"Be careful with that envoy, I have a bad feeling." I told him.
"They pledge-"
"It could be a trap." I interrupt him. "The Lannisters play dirty, Uncle. They do anything to obtain whatever they want."
My Uncle nodded. "I will tell my men to watch them. You are the one who lived with lions."
Once I was in my chambers, I change my clothes for a sleeping gown, having still that bad feeling about that envoy and I keep it until I've fallen asleep.
…I move towards the beaten woman to make sure she wasn't seriously injured. The woman looked about my age. "Are you okay?" I asked worried and the woman nodded. "Why don't you come to my place, it's safer. You can get cleaned up and rest until morning or until the rain stop" I offered. "It's not far. Would you be okay with that?"
The woman looked around fearfully a couple more times before looking at me and nodded. The woman was taller than me, with dark hair and tanned skin, her eyes were a strange deep brown color with reddish spots…
…"What can I do…?" when I turn my head to the person in front of my desk, I noticed it was the same woman I saved in the ally. "Hi!"
"Hello, Joanna."
"What-? Do you study or work here?" I asked still surprised.
"No, I came to visit you." The woman said with a smile. "I bring you this as appreciation for saving me." she gave me a small wicker basket.
I was surprised by her action. "No, I… I just-"
"Please, accept this gift." The woman insisted.
"Nobody…"
"Did this for you? A stranger?" the woman completed. I nodded. "What did you do, was something brave. You are an angel…"
…Several images from the same woman appeared like flashes… Laughing, concentrated, drinking, serious… And my feeling at seeing her was surprise, her actions and words surprised me always, but her company was enjoyable.
"Nobody told you that you are an angel?" told me the same woman in front of me.
That voice… It's so familiar…
Wait a minute… That voice is the same mysterious voice in my head…
WHAT THE-?
I woke up already sat on the bed with my breathing erratic and sweating profusely. I flinched when I felt some movement in my bed, it was Luna who got close to me.
I ruffle the fur in her head as I was controlling my breathing. "It was just a-" I began to tell Luna when I noticed something in Luna's eyes and then I remembered Jaime's comment.
"Luna has the same grey eye as you, it's so strange…"
I got up quickly from my bed and I start looking for a mirror. When I found one, I look to my eyes and look at Luna's eyes, then I remember the color of my eyes in my previous life…
They were blue… intense blue…
I look again at Luna and I noticed the color of her eyes again. A grey eye like mines and an intense blue eye like mines… "What the fuck are you, Luna? You are not a usual direwolf…" I whispered.
Suddenly, the door of my chambers got opened and I flinched, slipping from my hand the small hand mirror. "I'm sorry, m'lady." Apologizing the servant.
"D-don't worry. I was… in my own thoughts. Can you prepare my bath? And I think the sheets of the bed needs to be changed." I ordered.
"Yes, Lady Stark." She nodded.
While the maid was doing her duties, I thought again in that woman and my strange direwolf…
Who are you? Why Luna has my eyes?
