As always, I don't own A Song of Ice and Fire books and GOT show, except for my OCs and part of the story. English is my second (foreign) language, Spanish is my first. Sorry for the typos.
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Chapter 5
"Hi, little sis." I heard the voice of a man by my side, following by a kiss in my forehead. Then, one of my hands was grabbed by other hands. "I hope you can hear me… The doctor told me you're improving, that soon you won't need help for breathing." The pressure in my hand increased… and I pressured my hand too. I heard a gasp and the grip in my hand stopped.
No… come back…!
As soon as that grip left, and my plea for feeling that again, I opened my eyes again.
I lost the count of how many times I had this kind of moments, but it was the first time in which I could move my hand. Each time I had these ´dreams´, every squeeze in my hand, and kisses on my forehead felt so real; two different men and Emma are always speaking to me, and sometimes a doctor speaks; a beep and a similar sound when you inflate a balloon were always the sounds of the background; also a slight smell of medicine and detergents were filling my nose. And not only this, almost every time I close my eyes, new memories came to my head… or better I should say, old memories from my previous life, but nothing about my name.
However, after this 'dream', I'm believing that these are not just simply 'dreams'. I think I'm starting to vanishing here and waking up in another place. If this is happening, my time here is going to end soon.
Every day is the same. I get up, eat my breakfast, have a bath, and depending on my mood I walk around Riverrun, pray to the weirdwood and drawing, or knitting, or reading… something to distract my mind, I eat my supper and again, to bed until the next day or having these crazy dreams until I wake up. Always being watched by my Uncle's men, with the exception when I'm going to the toilet, when I'm going to sleep and when I'm going to pray in the weirdwood.
My whole family don't trust me completely, they think that I am going to help him to escape. That's not a complete lie, but… I know he deserves being a prisoner for what he did against Bran and my father.
That detail, and not attending the Lannister envoy, thing that I'm agree with this. The first encounter with them I attend them, they saw that I was well and with a big belly. After I received them and give that advice to my uncle, for prevention it was decided to not encounter anymore with them. Since I have in my belly the future heir of Casterly Rock or Winterfell, I have a great risk of being kidnap. And that's why the escorts I have, thing that it's annoying, but it's for my safety.
Today I decided to be alone for a while by praying on the weirdwood, and be there. I feel like that is the only place I feel at peace and it's quiet. The same feeling I had on the weirdwood in Winterfell…
Winterfell…
My new and old home…
By this time, Winterfell may be taken already by Theon or Winterfell already fallen and my little brothers are on the run.
I was doing my praying when I remembered the words of that woman who brought me here.
"It was written you were going to die in this world when you get speared, but I decided to extend a little bit more your life. Give you another opportunity to change everything…"
What I would change here? Why I didn't die?
My death would change something or someone?
"You will thank me for returning to Westeros. Take advantage of your days remain in this world, before returning to your world."
Why I would be thankful for returning here? All that I have here is suffering…
I looked at the weirdwood in front of me. "I know I'm a foreigner here, and I've been praying for taking care of my family and my child, but… I really need your help, your guidance." I whispered to the tree. "I don't know what to do here, in this world. I feel useless here, and all I have is suffering and pain since my father was attacked by Jaime and his men."
Jaime…
I'm not denying that I still love him…
But I'm still hurt and I don't know if it can be repaired…
I know he loves his little brother, Tyrion, but his rash conclusions and actions against my father were unrepairable. Jaime should have told me this before attacking my father…
However, Jaime saved me from not being killed by one of his men, and I know how deeply he loves me.
"Please, give me guidance in this world. Give me a sign on what to do, or something! That woman who brought me here didn't give me her reasons about why she chose me, or what I'm going to change here. If you really exist Old Gods, please…! Give me a goddamn sign, a fucking clue!"
I looked to the weirdwood for a while, waiting for something from that tree… but there was just silence. Just the sound of the branches moving by the breeze.
With my hands still united and sitting over my legs, I closed my eyes and started to cry silently. I'm all alone here, I don't know what to do, and soon I'm going to leave… I'm not going to see my baby…
I need to be strong and accept my fate here… I don't have another choice…
I took a deep breath and my eyes looked at the sky. It was cloudy, like it was going to rain at any time. Then, my eyes turned to the tower where Jaime is prisoner. I noticed in one of the windows of the tower, there was a person with a golden hair was looking at me and then disappeared when I noticed his presence.
Jaime…
With the help of Luna, who was always with me, I got up from the ground and went to one of my escorts at the entrance of the weirdwood.
"Can you take me where my Uncle Edmure's is? I need to speak to him."
"Ser Edmure said that he will be out to solve certain business-"
"That 'certain business' includes drinks and whores?" both soldiers looked at each other as if they don't know what to do. "The only business that my dear mother and my dear brother, or The King in the North, left him is taking care of me and the Kingslayer. Additionally to this, a Lannister envoy came and he must be precautious."
"That's what Ser Edmure told us to tell you, m'lady."
My uncle is very stupid as a Lord of Riverrun and as a leader…
Suddenly, my head started to hurt horribly. It was sharp and throbbing. I was blind by the pain in my head.
"What if you wake up in Westeros? What would you do?" Emma asked joking.
"I wouldn't last long there." I told her chuckling.
"But, what if you already know all of this." She insisted.
"I don't know, but I keep insisting that I wouldn't last long there." I said laughing at her stupid question. I decided to keep her game. "However, I would like to be a Stark, a mix of Arya and Sansa, and being with Jaime."
"Why him?"
"First, he's my favorite character." Emma looked at me as an alien, and when I saw she was going to say something, I didn't let her. "And second, he's not a bad person, he's loyal and bold. Cercei is the one who made him a stupid and horrible person, I mean… when he's around her. Also, after gaining the name of 'Kingslayer', it's logical to be on the defensive with everyone, including his arrogance and being dishonorable."
And then, everything went black.
Edmure killed the envoys… False envoys…
"…they tried to free the Kingslayer. That big brute killed two guards with naught but those ham hands of his, caught them by the throats and smashed their skulls together while that skinny lad beside him was opening Lannister's cell with a bit of wire, gods curse him…"
"…Jaime got hold of a sword, slew Poul Pernford and Ser Desmond's squire Myles, and wounded Delp so badly that Maester Vyman fears he'll soon die as well. It was a bloody mess… I hanged those beside the four who freed him, and threw the rest in the dungeons. Jaime too… He's down in the dark this time, chained hand and foot and bolted to the wall…"
The Lannister envoy is a trap! Tyrion sends them to rescue Jaime… Jaime is going to escape!
When I opened my eyes, it was blurry at first, but after several blinks, I found myself in my chambers with one of my uncle's men and Luna at one side of my bed with her muzzle caressing one of my hands.
"Lady Lylian, are you well?"
"My uncle returned?" I asked the soldier without paying attention to his question.
"No, m'lady."
"The envoy?" I asked immediately.
"In their chambers, m'lady-"
"Find four or five of your partners, find that envoy and watch them. Don't let them out where they are." I order him and the soldier nodded confused.
"M'lady, may I ask you why-?"
I didn't let him finish. "Just do it!" I order him sharply.
"My duty is taking care of you-"
By this time, I was already got up from the bed "I have Luna with me. Do what I'm telling you."
Luna perceived my impatience and started to growl at the man. The soldier got out of the chambers quickly. Once I was alone, I turned to Luna. "Thank you, Luna." I told her while I was ruffling her fur. "Luna, we need to go to see Jaime. I need to warn him about what I saw-." Suddenly, I heard screams of pain from outside my chambers, and Luna started to growl.
It started…
I search for my shortsword as fast I could, while Luna was in position to attack in order to protect me. Once I had Iron Rose in my hand, I stand behind Luna, waiting for those Lannister soldiers to enter.
Seconds felt like minutes. Minutes felt like hours. Swords and screams fill my ears, they were far from where I am, but could hear them getting close. My breathing and heart were erratic, I was scared of what is going to happen when they get here. I know that Luna can fight against men, she was fast, silent and smart; however, because of her size, it will be difficult for her.
This was different… whole different…
This doesn't look like the show nor the books…
Suddenly, someone knocked on the door strongly, making me jump in fright. My swordhand was shaking. All of me was shaking.
I never shook in fright…
"Lady Lylian, we know you're there with your wolf." Spoke a man behind the door. Luna growled stronger. "We come to rescue Ser Jaime and you-"
"I WILL NOT RETURN TO KING'S LANDING!" My scream instead of showing boldness as always, it sounded frightened.
What is happening to me? Is it the pregnancy hormones?
"We have orders, m´lady. But first, we need to give orders to your wolf, m'lady." I didn't answer. "M'lady?"
Then I heard mumbles behind the door, and suddenly the door of my chambers was open. "Kill the wolf!" commanded a man.
"LUNA! NO!"
Everything happened so fast. Luna began to attack the Lannister soldiers, leaving through its way blood all over the floor.
In that moment, I began to see everything in a painful slow motion. I saw how several soldiers speared and bolt Luna; my direwolf crying in agony with every attack against her, but she kept fighting and killing the soldiers. Everything got worst for me when one of the spears went against her grey eye, and Luna cried louder.
I felt how my body was getting thorn in two. It was so painful that I lost any kind of strength in that moment. My mind was blank, seeing Luna fall to the floor. Dying in front of my eyes.
You can't die…
I can't die like this…
They are going to pay for this…
"AHHHHHHH!" I ran towards those men to kill them with my shortsword.
I couldn't do much, my big belly made me slower and clumsy, one of the Lannisters imprisoned me and took me. "GET OFF ME! NOOOOO! LUNAAAA! NOOOOOO!" I screamed, fighting with the Lannister soldier.
I found myself imprisoned by several Lannister soldiers outside my chambers, screaming each other about not hurting me and moving fast.
I didn't know what happened next, one of my punches and kicks hit one of the soldiers, knocking him out. Then, one of the men turned me and I received a very hard hit on my face, making me see white dots and falling. Immediately, I saw myself falling into the stairs.
No!
My baby!
Instinctively, I protect my belly from the fall, but it was useless… I felt being hit in each part of my body.
All stopped when everything went black, returning again to that cold and dark place.
Where am I?
My baby…
"It's time to return, Joanna Novak." The voice of the woman from my memories spoke in the darkness.
"What's happening? Who are you?" I asked the voice.
"You have served your purpose here, Joanna Novak. However, I was expecting you to make a change in my world." She answered.
I was still confused. "I don't understand anything! You didn't give me a fucking clue about what I was going to do!"
"You have it in front of your eyes. You were about to make it, Joanna Novak."
Why she is calling me by that name?
"Because that's your name." she answered.
My name is… Joanna Novak…?
Suddenly, different voices calling me for that name. All of them were familiar to me.
"What's happening to me? What do you want me to change in your world?" I insisted to the woman.
"I used you to change the course of history in my world, but I've just learned that it can't be changed. Everything is destined to be." The mysterious woman explained. When I was about to ask her the other unanswered question, she continued. "You are returning to your origins. The place where you belong."
Am I… returning home?
"Yes. And in the case you've wandered, the story will continue its usual course, as if you never existed." The mysterious woman explained.
"But what if the story continues with Lylian…"
"Your soul was thorn when Lannister soldiers killed Luna. Only Lylian Stark's soul will live here. About Jaime Lannister, he escaped from his prison, but he was captured and locked in the dungeons."
"And my baby…?" There was silence. No… it can't be…
"It's time to return."
"What happened to my baby?!" Something started pulling me from my back with such great force to an unknown place. "BRING ME BACK! I WANT MY BABY!" I screamed, fighting against that invisible force. "NOOOOOOOOO!"
I fight and fight with that strange force. That strange force was pulling me more and more, and very fast.
Everything stopped when I felt something hard against my back, but soft enough to sink myself in it. I tried to open my eyes, but it was impossible, I felt my body very heavy.
I tried to open my eyes once more, but immediately I closed them again. A white light blinded me and made hurt my eyes. I felt something uncomfortable in my nose, I tried to take it off but my arms were like gelatin. Then I heard someone's steps, open and closing a door, and once again, I tried to open my eyes again.
At the beginning everything was blurry, but after several blinks and my eyes get used to the light, I could see where I was. The first thing I saw was a white roof and a neon lamp near my face, then all the machines used in hospitals, I was in a hospital room. I look all over the room, I was alone and… then I saw my legs cast and suspended.
I returned home…
I felt like the beginning, when I woke up in Westeros. With the difference that a piece of me died with the death of my baby girl, and I don't know who I am right now, Lylian Stark or Lannister? Or Joanna Novak?
