Our Love Combined
It hit suddenly.
I never thought it would happen so fast and the pain would come so soon. We were lying in our bed, wrapped up in the blankets and each other's arms just like every other night. We were anxious and awaiting the moment when it would happen but I never imagined how quickly it would all come.
I practically pushed you out of the bed trying to wake you but when you finally woke, you were a madman on a mission. You grabbed our already packed suitcase, my shoes, my pillow; the essentials. You practically carried me out the door and down the stairs, bypassing the elevators; your biggest mistake. We made it to the car and of all things to forget… the keys. So I stood in earth shattering pain while you ran back in the building. Oh that was fun!
Now here I lie in the hospital bed squeezing your hand for everything its worth as more pain rocks through my body. It's times like these that I really love you and I see just how much you love me. Here I am possibly damaging your prized hands but you aren't telling me to stop, you aren't crying out in your own pain. You're just at my side like you promised from the very beginning. So many times we had sat in this very hospital waiting for these test results and that blood work, but you never left me; always by my side.
And I know the thought of being a father terrified you. Sure, you were happy and excited but the idea of raising a tiny version of yourself scared you more than you thought possible. It's normal to be nervous when having your first child but a major part of your insecurities is your father, and although you have worked through your differences, you're still afraid you will turn out to be like him. No amount of persuasion from me will change that. But with time things will change.
Before I realize it, it's time to start pushing. We're ready to bring our child into the world. You are at my side so wishing that if possible you could take this pain and put it on your shoulders, doing everything you can to reassure me. I may be angry and throwing threats in your direction, but my love for you only continues to grow.
Soon you take your place at the end of my bed, taking control. We agreed from the very beginning that you would be the one to deliver our child, and now the moment has arrived. You instruct me to push and our eyes lock.
It's over and our daughter is born before I realize. You're a daddy. The thought makes me smile immediately; seeing the joy that is in your eyes as you hold her for the first time, cradling her in the safety of your arms. I will remember that sight for the rest of my life, that's how I want to remember you until the end of time. The way your eyes lit up and way you held her tiny, fragile body so close to your own.
She has you wrapped around her tiny little finger already.
I can no longer hide my tears when you place her in my arms for the first time. We're parents. We're responsible for this tiny human being, who and what she will become in her future. We will watch her take her first steps and speak her first words. She'll head off to school and eventually graduate. She'll date and get her heart broken but we'll be there.
No longer are we just Dr. Robin Scorpio- Drake or Dr. Patrick Drake. Now we have an even more important career… mommy and daddy.
