I think this chapter turned out pretty good even with a bit of writer's block, curse it. I hope you all think it's good too enjoy the chapter.


17. Losing Heart

Two weeks had gone by since Ben's death and the group was still dealing with the pain of his loss. Though Bryan was in pretty rough shape it seemed to him that the girls were the worst for wear. Little Kayla looked all alone these days, the boy now realized that she had really liked Ben and with her own brother gone as well her friends could tell that things were getting too much for her. Bryan's sister on the other hand was shutting everyone but her friends out even more enraged with their former friend then Bryan himself and barely talking to any of them of the pain they all felt. That day seemed like it would never end as Bree was taking out her anger on anything that came in contact with or tried to knock some sense into her to lighten up a little.

Annoyed by her constant sulking Bryan snapped, "Sis we're all pissed but could you turn down the yelling just a smidge?"

"Why should I? Kai's an asshole that's going to be dead for what he did. He was probably just leading us on the entire time just waiting for the perfect moment to murder him," Bree replied and walked off still feeling the pain from the past two weeks as though it was just yesterday her twin had been taken from her.

The boy knew what his sister was going through but to him that was no excuse for her to be telling everybody off and make the rest of them feel worse than they already did.

"Come on dude time to go meet up with the old shitty fart face," Tala said putting a hand on Bryan's shoulder.

"Yeah alright, it might be fun taking out my anger in the ring anyway," Bryan replied and joined his friends for training.

On the way he thought, Thank God the day's almost over maybe tomorrow Bree will start acting sane and stop bringing up the pain of finding my little brother lying there dead.


To Bree it was as if part of her soul had been ripped out of her, like there was a piece of her missing and with Kai being the one who had caused her so much pain it felt to the girl as if her heart had been crushed as well. The day had been going along very slowly and it made the girl feel very crappy. At first it was just another day in that alternate universe where she was split away from Ben but as it progressed it became worse as that big good for nothing idiot Spencer started picking on her again.

"Aw look at this the little baby runt's been crying," the older and bigger boy teased.

That hurt Bree seeing how ever since her brother had been stolen from her the girl had been in tears each and every night crying her self to sleep.

With a glare she menacingly replied, "I'm not in the mood for this you moron so I'm gonna give you one warning. Shut up and leave me the hell alone if you know what's good for you."

"Yeah right like I'm scared of a little cry baby."

That was it and without giving her enemy a second to react Bree unleashed all her pent up rage on the unsuspecting boy tackling him to the ground. That time though neither Tala nor Bryan decided to save Spencer from her wrath and before she had decided to finish with the scum he was sporting a bloody nose, black eye and bruises along with a few cuts all across his body.

"Don't ever pick on me again or next time you'll be as dead as a certain blue haired boy that I don't feel like mentioning," she threatened and the scared, scarred Spencer bolted away from her.

That little brawl had hurt Bree it reminded her of the last time he had called her a baby the time she had been defending her deceased brother from the infuriating bully. Memories of Ben hurt the girl and the remainder of the day though not trying to she had been irritating her other brother with the mood she was in.

She knew that he was bothered by what had happened as well but figured what she felt was far worse as she thought, There's no way that Bryan could understand what I'm going through right now. Ben wasn't his twin and the one he loved hadn't taken that twin away from him. My brother may be grieving but the pain I'm feeling is far worse than he'll ever know. That damn Hiwatari bastard is going to pay for this.


Training came meaning it was almost the end of the day and Tala took in a sigh of relief.

Everyone's been so tense today even Kayla who's usually in a bit of a better mood. I hope Mr. Shit Face doesn't give us too much work tonight I think we'd all prefer it if we could just go straight to bed. I'll be glad once the day's over maybe tomorrow will be brighter, the red head thought as he joined his team mates where they had their nightly training.

"Hello Demolitions I hope that you are all ready for the tournament that now as you know is only a week away," Boris not Voltaire greeted the team.

A little confused Bryan inquired, "So what happened to good old Mr. Shit Face?"
"No son of mine will talk of his superiors that way. Lord Voltaire has gone with his grandson to his residence in Japan and I'm taking over in the training of this team," the man informed them.

"But what about Kai we're just not a team without him?" Tala asked he knew that the boy had forgotten about them but blading without his friend just didn't seem right.

"Who cares about him he's just a fucking bastard that never really cared about us in the first place," Bree commented from across the room.

"That is right you will do as your team mate and learn to forget about him. The young Hiwatari will not be coming back here now as to business Tala you will be the new captain and I'd like you all to meet the new member of the Demolitions, Spencer."

This time Tala shared the displeasure the other two felt at the thought of having to work together alongside one who had caused the team so much trouble.

"What the hell is he doing here?" Bryan questioned letting out his own rage rather than giving Bree a chance to begin getting down to business with the troublesome boy.

"I'm your new team mate," Spencer said with a mocking grin.

"It seems as if you four all know each other now get to work and start your training before I have to make you," Boris ordered and silently as well as begrudgingly they practiced with the boy who was their enemy.


Kayla Hiwatari was in a grumpy mood that day unable to show much of her usual cheeriness. She greatly missed Ben without the fun loving boy around she felt very lonely especially with all of her friends on the abbey's beyblading team leaving her to do drills and laps alone. She was not suited to abbey life and most days the laughable boy would crack jokes getting Kayla through the hard times with a comforting smile on his face.

Why did Ben have to die? Around him I felt different I felt a way that I've never felt for any other boy before, the young girl thought as she waited for her friends to return from their nightly practicing.

Eventually they finished and she greeted them, "Hey guys, how was practice?"
"Crappy," Bree replied.

"It couldn't have been that bad."

"Well it was our stupid father decided to put Spencer on the team seeing how your damn brother left with your grandfather," the other girl angrily said.

"I don't know why Kai would do something like that it's almost as bad as what the idiot did to our brother," Bryan commented.

Tala knew the answer and the other boy also knew what the girl would be thinking. Her friends' words struck through her like ice she didn't want to think back on that time in the medical room when her brother had forgotten about and left her.

"Kai left because he lost his memory. When he woke up the guy didn't even know me or his own sister," Tala said voicing the very thing Kayla was thinking saving the girl from saying it herself and admitting to the fact.

"Is it true Kayla?" Bryan asked her sympathetically.

The only answer she gave was turning around and walking away the events only two weeks past still pierced through her heart.


Bryan did not like to see the one he loved so upset and pitying the girl he followed her. His sister was again going on about what an idiot Kai was for betraying them and while Tala's attention was occupied he had slipped away. He knew his friend would guess where he was going or what he was up to once the red head had enough time to think but by then Bryan would be with the girl attempting to comfort her.

Finding her and seeing her blue eyes again a river of despair with emotion in his voice he said, "Hey Kai leaving isn't the only thing bother you is it?"

"No you're right I just miss them both so much," the beautiful girl said looking up into Bryan's soft loving eyes.

Putting an arm around her slender form the boy said, "You loved him didn't you?"

She answered with a nod and began to cry into his chest as Bryan stroked her silky hair in a soothing gesture.

"It's alright Kayl I miss him too he was my little brother and I should've treated him like one," Bryan said the feeling of guilt he had been suppressing for so long finally beginning to surface.

"What are you talking about of course you treated him like a brother?"

"No I didn't the day before his death we got into another one of our fights and the last thing I said to him was I hate you," Bryan admitted leaving out the part that the fight had been over her because he had been angered with Ben for the girl choosing his little brother over him.

"Don't beat yourself up I'm sure he knows that you're really sorry about it," she said stopping the flow of tears as she in turn tried to comfort him.

"I guess you're right thanks Kayl," he said and unable to stop himself they're lips touched and Bryan kissed her.

After a while the younger girl pulled away and she looked into his caring crystal eyes with a shocked and confused feeling.

What do I say to him I'm not ready for this? I still love Ben but is it possible I could care for Bryan in that way as well. What do I do? Kayla asked herself but before she could voice a word her thoughts were interrupted.

"BRYAN BALKOV WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING! Bryan's father yelled as he came across the two spotting the moment when their lips touched.

"Hi I'm doing nothing that's any of your business Boris," the boy replied menacingly.

Don't hurt her for this it was all my idea and she had nothing to do with it, he thought holding his breath waiting for the man to say something.

"I let the time you spent with your brother and sister slide, I even left it alone when you began to hang around with Tala and Kai seeing how you were all team mates. But this you expressing feelings for some wench of a girl it's simply a disgrace. You are my eldest son and no son of mine especially you will be showing emotions for a little bitch like her even if she is Voltaire's granddaughter," Boris raged grabbing Bryan by the back of his shirt.

"Whatever you do to me just leave her alone," Bryan pleaded not wanting to see the girl he loved get hurt.

"You shouldn't care about her and when I'm finished you won't be. I think some time in isolation will set you straight putting you back on the path of becoming cold hearted and maybe afterwards you can help Tala come to his senses as well we don't need the captain of our team going soft," Boris remarked and with a laugh he dragged Bryan off to what would seem an eternity of darkness the boy hoped that he would not go insane from the punishment he was about to experience.


Sorry everyone but the next chapter might be a while in coming seeing how I have to go run and hide from a certain friend who's about to kill me for the cliffie I ended at. Please review while I'm away.