Chapter XXIX

Twenty ninth session

"Kagome, I only want to be with you."

He voiced the words that made him so fearful, yet despite it, there was only relief to be found inside his chest. Another matter entirely was the answer he could receive, which had him expectant and restless. InuYasha noticed how Kagome tensed in his arms, and thought that maybe he'd been too hasty, ruining what could have happened between them, if given time. However, he didn't feel able to avoid it. To see her together with that man twisted something inside his stomach in such a way he knew sharing her was something beyond him, and that only left him two paths to take; one of them, was what he'd just confessed.

He sensed the way in which Kagome moved in his embrace, and didn't attempt to keep her, he had taken that step and now he could only wait for her answer, his heart beating restless inside his chest as if he were seventeen all over again. She looked at him for a long instant In which he was unable to read her eyes, then lifted her hand to caress his cheek with the tip of her fingers and only then, she spoke.

"Are you really as honest as you seem?" She asked, and InuYasha comprehended there was something developing in the space of that conversation, something that could grow.

"I can only offer you the chance to find out." It was him then who brushed her cheek with his fingers, a soft gesture, dedicated only to sweetness.

Kagome's hand dropped together with her gaze, and made a light negative gesture.

"I don't know how to be in company of someone else." She confessed.

InuYasha's breathing was short, trying to disguise his unease with words.

"Up until now you've been doing quite well." He tried to lighten the conversation. This should be something joyful that could soothe the soul.

He heard her laugh, and that granted him some relief.

"That's because we don't see each other much." She insisted.

"On that we agree. It would be my joy to see you more." He felt his heart unbridled and anxious. His body and skin, asking to be closer to her.

Kagome kept her silence for an instant, and InuYasha didn't want to interrupt that moment of pondering.

"What if I sleep with someone else?" She seemed to want to make him face the worst of her.

"I hope that you won't." Her chestnut brown eyes locked on to his then, defiant.

"And what if I do?"

InuYasha took a breath in, seeking to appease his mind and heart before the pain coming from that declaration.

"Kagome." He attempted to calm that frenetic race her thoughts seemed to be running. "This is just us trying something out, we are not chiseling anything on stone."

For some reason, those words seemed to place a context for Kagome and her reticence. InuYasha knew quite well the attraction he felt for her was precisely because of what he couldn't see, what she didn't show and what he could sense beneath the layers of distance she'd built between the world and her heart. Then she met his gaze again, and then his mouth for a long instant, sensualizing it with just a moment of hesitation. She looked into his eyes again, and rose to create the graze of a kiss, slow, moist and intensively possessive. The kiss became undone then, giving way to the tongue caressing his jaw, neck, and from there it descended to his nipple. InuYasha remained very still, letting Kagome take control; maybe this was her way of answering. In his mind, the possibilities were many and he still didn't know what she pretended with this new session of sex. Maybe she was refusing his proposal, maybe she was accepting it. With his eyes closed, he felt her fingers grazing his penis, aroused, and as she caressed he began to lose his train of thought.

When he opened his eyes, Kagome allowed him to witness the beautiful vision of her naked figure, seated and bent slightly forward, with her attention set on the erection that was beginning to become prominent due to her touches. InuYasha admired the shape of the falling breast, an incredibly charming sight due to her posture. Her nipples were hard and swollen and he couldn't resist the impulse of touching them. His hand got close, and with the back of his fingers he traced their shape, feeling her breathing on the skin of his arm, then turned the hand around to feel the weight of her breast, and from there pinch the nipple between his fingers. Kagome sighed and halted her own caress for a short moment; just enough time to adjust her posture and replace her hand for her mouth. InuYasha lost his breath all of a sudden, bending his head backwards, feeling how his entire body was attacked by a shiver that stole his calm completely, hardening his sex with a beat.

At some point she let go of him, after her mouth moistened him, and her tongue traced him with momentum. He rose, supporting the weight on his knees, knowing she was seeking a better position to sit straddle on him.

"A condom." InuYasha mentioned, almost at the edge of collapsing from those caresses and the emotional charge of his proposal. However, Kagome's gaze was intense and set on him, as her hands rested on the curve between his shoulders and neck.

"I'm clean. Are you?" He knew she was referring to the test for sexual diseases.

He nodded, having controlled it a month ago, despite always taking precautions.

He pulled his legs slightly closer, leaving to Kagome the decision of taking the next step, noticing how the yearning took hold of his breathing, tensing when she grasped his sex and began to caress herself with it. He felt her heat and moist emanating, both their gazes set on the place between their bodies. He delighted in the way in which they began to link up, without any barriers; years now since he last felt someone's insides without the interference of latex. To feel the temperature and touch of Kagome's sex came as wonderful and potent. However, what completely loosened his self-control were the words she whispered to his ear when they became completely connected.

"This is me accepting your proposal." He kept his breath for a moment, then embraced her, holding himself by her shoulders, around her back, to be able to push himself upwards in a way that made Kagome feel in its entirety. He heard her huff by his ear, and mutter something that strangely enough, made his blood run hot. "But you can't finish inside."

After that, he kissed, licked and consumed of her everything he could. He caressed her by handfuls, through all of her body. Taking her by her hips, he worked from different angles and positions, striving to hear her moans until they became pleas. He felt her reaching climax a few times before focusing on his own pleasure, and when the wish to let himself go appeared, he did so with Kagome's body under his. He could see her holding herself of the pillow, as his lips left constant kisses on her back, his hands tracing her shape, spreading her buttocks and entering the humidity of her sex. He brushed her arms and intertwined his fingers with hers, as he entered her slowly yet applied strength to the pressure. Kagome urged him to go faster and deeper, as much as possible. The tension in his body warned him of a new orgasm, he'd learnt how to recognize the subtle tremble of her hips and the way in which her voice seemed to be tie itself into a knot in her throat when these came. He straightened himself up, letting his knees and hands support his weight, to be able to give her the liberation she was demanding. It wasn't long before he felt her contractions pressing on his sex, and the way in which her entrance became tighter. Feeling her tremble, he pleaded to be able to hold back his own culmination until she could satisfy her own. As soon as he perceived Kagome soften, he began to thrust with little subtlety in the midst of his own deep groans. He came out of her as soon as the pressure in his belly became unbearable, and grasped his erection before starting to notice his own orgasmic pulsations and see how his semen was shot, falling on the skin of her exposed buttocks and the curve of his partner's back, increasing his pleasure.

When his sex was still shaking inside his hand, trying to release the last remainder of his seed, InuYasha bent forward and caressed Kagome's butt cheeks, spreading the white fluid that came out of him on her skin.

He heard her laugh, and her voice flared in that laugh.

"You are so obscene."

InuYasha laughed too. There was something absolutely freeing in that moment.

He laid beside Kagome, who turned her head around as her body rested mouth-down, and looked at him. They remained there a few seconds where no words were voiced, because in a way, they had said everything needed to be said to each other already.

Finally, InuYasha spoke.

"Shower."

"Shower." Kagome agreed.

Kagome was dreaming with a room of one clear color, from whose window a pleasant summer breeze would enter. She was laying on the tatami, and was looking at the way in which the light came in creating little reflections on the white curtain which rose in front of her eyes. She hadn't looked outside, yet she knew she was in the middle of a countryside landscape, surrounded by green. So the summer breeze caressing her features told her, through its scent. She closed her eyes, and felt light and happy. The delicate air current continued to tickle her cheek, and brushed the skin of her shoulder, where she took a hand to only to find another one, touching her.

She woke up then, and her mind immediately came from the dream into reality.

"I have to go." She heard InuYasha's voice whispering those words softly.

Kagome opened her eyes, blinked a few times, then held the hand on her shoulder, until she finally felt able to look at him. The room was amidst penumbra, which made her notice the sun hadn't risen yet.

"What hour is it?" She asked him.

"Past five in the morning." He was seating by her side, ready to go out.

"So soon? You've barely slept." Her first impulse was that of straightening up to look at him better.

"No, don't get up. Rest." He caressed her naked shoulder. "I'll sleep during the afternoon."

Kagome closed her eyes and filled herself with air in a deep breath which still brought her that summer breeze sensation from her dream, and that increased the potency of that soothing sensation InuYasha's caress granted her. Her head was threatening to start rising part of the barriers she had brought down, to be like this with him, yet she kept them at bay. The touch of a kiss on her head and hair was her next notion, and her heart swelled in her chest.

"I'll call you." He mentioned, before standing up.

"No." She held his hand. "Come by this afternoon and sleep."

She was conscious of how InuYasha remained in silence for a moment, and waited for his answer.

"Alright, but I need to sleep." His voice sounded glad.

Kagome couldn't contain her smile, and hid her features in the pillow so that he couldn't find out.

She felt how the heat of his body abandoned her, and an instant later the sound of the door closing entered her ears. She opened her eyes in the middle of that penumbra and her mind began to play with the scenes lived during the long hours of the night, and the start of the early morning. Her body trembled before that recognition of the emotions that had intertwined between them during that time, and wished that her heart could remain less restless and much colder, as to not fall in love, or maybe, at least, not so much. She knew of that deep fear of him knowing her for real, and that he may realize there was nothing in her that could be loved.

The confection of pastries was one of the things he liked the most, and InuYasha could dedicate long hours of his morning to prepare the ones that are served at the coffee shop he worked at, given that his elaborations were the main demand. Every day of the week the same main sweets were served, in addition to a special daifuku. Today he'd decided to offer an extra one, a recipe he'd been the last few days perfectioning and hoped it was a success, as much for the coffee shop as for the person he wished to make it for: Kagome.

The daifuku was prepared with its traditional cover of rice flour paste, he'd added it a natural vegetal colorant of a green color, to serve himself with the effect and in that way combine it with the filling, prepared with a paste of pistachio and mint, besides the unmissable layer of anko or asuki paste. When they were finished, he left the ones that were going to be sold on the correct tray and saved the ones he'd take with him at the end of his shift in a private shelf.

He began to walk through a main avenue, where the coffee shop was, and pondered if to go to his apartment for some clothes and go back to Kagome, or go to the latter directly. Finally, he chose the second. He had to admit it felt strange to be in the middle of the beginning of something similar to a relationship in which none of them had agreed to anything in particular. Under that fact, he considered that arriving at Kagome's apartment with a change of clothes and a toothbrush could be slightly intimidating.

He sighed, in that moment nothing really mattered to him. He recalled seeing her sleep in the early morning of a night in which he himself had barely slept and the exhaustion filling his body was precisely due to that, and the delicious sex session they shared. He couldn't complain, not even if he tried, and realized the only thing left to do was to surrender himself to the sensations. He recalled the way in which Kagome curled herself while stuck to his sides, as if she were alone and sought warm. He didn't know anything about her past relationships, in the same way he didn't know who was the man who escorted her home the previous night, and that from his point of view had kissed her; he wouldn't ask her either. Both of them had a past, and besides, they also had the right to keep it in total privacy.

He laughed at himself. If his mother could see him, she'd ask him when did you grow so much.

Did he, though?

He shrugged, not knowing for sure, however he was sure of the affirmations and reflections he was doing in the midst of his lonely walk.

A bit before reaching Kagome's apartment, he stopped by a grocery shop to buy some things to prepare a quick dinner, nothing too elaborate that may take too long, for he really needed to sleep. The procedure to enter was the usual, he rang the portal's doorbell and a moment later she opened it. However, it felt different, he noticed a certain hint of strange normalcy, as if they had been a couple for a long time, and that sensation brought him pleasure and an immense dread, he was idealizing like a teenager. As soon as he reached the elevator, he allowed himself to breathe in deeply and calm down the expectation he was starting to harbor with all of this, knowing quite well these were a fertile camp for disappointment.

"Hi, you." Were Kagome's words when opening the door.

He couldn't dissimulate the emotions running through him when seeing her, and despite his many previous thoughts, he let himself go. His free hand quickly found place on her waist and pulled her close in order to deliver a kiss that could calm the hours he spent without seeing her. He noticed the way in which she became tense, and also the way in which her body began to relax then loosen up, until she finally delivered her lips. When he released her from the kiss, he looked at her eyes and saw them with lowered lashes, preciously sleepy due to the emotive discharge both were sharing, and only in that moment did he answer the words she gave him.

"Hi, you." He sighed.

To be continued.

A/N

Well... IZON SHO walks through its final third, I believe. I can't say how many chapters are left because I've got the events in my head, but I'm ignorant to the time it will take to tell them. I'm happy with the emotion contained in this chapter.

Thank you for keeping me company.

Kisses,

Anyara.

This text is possible thanks to the translation of: Dezart