Note: Okay, as far as I can tell from librettos, Gordon was the Life Support member who says "Reason says I should've died three years ago" and "I'm used to relying on intellect" so I hope I'm right on that. (Forgive me if I'm wrong)
I'm used to relying on intellect. Facts. Absolutes. These I know. These I understand. I try to open up to more. I have to open up to more. See, looking at the facts alone, I should be dead. So here are the truths, my truths.
Truth: I was diagnosed with HIV four years ago. The doctor gave me a year, at most.
Truth: I don't know how I got HIV. I haven't been very careful about my sexual encounters. I had no reason to, or so I thought.
Truth: When I found out my t-cell count was low…at first, I was mad, then scared… But when I thought about it, really thought about it, I was relieved. No more waiting, no more wondering, I knew what was coming. Death.
Truth: I live alone. My parents are dead. The only person I really ever loved went screaming for the hills when I was diagnosed. I probably would've done the same if the situation were reversed.
Truth: I'm a lawyer. That's why I believe so firmly in fact. Facts are what I know. It's what I'm about—what can I prove, what can I see and touch and hear. Nothing open for interpretation, nothing deniable.
Truth: I started going to Life Support after I heard about it from my friend, Steve. He was diagnosed six months before me. I'm not sure how he got it.
Truth: I admire Mark, that filmmaker who's come in a few times. He doesn't have to deal with this—he doesn't have it. Sure, his friends have it, but he's negative. And yet he chooses to come in, to film us, to document our lives and tell our stories. I admire the strength it must take for him to walk in here and know that he's going to watch us all die.
Truth: I hope I die before the rest of the group. I don't know that I could handle watching these people waste away.
Truth: Even with everything I deal with and as much as I may complain or as pessimistic as I may be, I'm happier now than I've ever been in my whole life.
