This chapter is a little longer so I hope you guys enjoy it. Happy reading.


To say that Damon didn't deserve happiness, wasn't enough. He felt like he deserved a million lifetimes of misery. He killed, raped, maimed, lied, and stole among other questionable things. He didn't deserve the happiness he acquired with Elena, and he didn't deserve the happiness he found with Bonnie. Where ever he roamed he found a way to create misery and chaos from the purest things. Look at what he made Stefan. How he destroyed Elena. He was always good at that. Destroying things.

He couldn't let the next thing he destroyed be Bonnie or Sarah. He had to stay away. Go back and let them have the happiness they deserved. He didn't belong in the Afterlife now that he was a vampire again. He walked over to Stefan and Lexi who were clearly having a private party with Anna, Mason and a girl he's never seen before. "Uncle Damon, now the party can start," the girl said as she hugged him.

"Monique seems to be the only one that like's you. I'm sure Gail has something to do with that," Stefan said giving Damon a clue to who the girl was.

"I'm sure it's because I'm the best," Damon said giving the girl a squeeze.

"Where's Bonnie and Sarah?" Lexi asked.

"Sarah's with my mother and Bonnie is MIA at the moment," he smiled. "Stefan can I borrow you?" he asked.

"Sure," Stefan said getting up and grabbing two beers. He and Damon started walking farther in to the course towards the woods. "So you make things with Bonnie right?" he asked.

"No, and I'm not going to," Damon said as Stefan stopped walking.

Stefan looked over at his brother in utter shock. "Did you just say that?"

"Yeah I did. I'm going back," He said.

"Going back where?"

"Where we belong where I belong with Elena," he yelled making Stefan's jaw twitch.

"Are you? And how are you going to get there?" Stefan asked.

"I know a lot of dead witches. I'll figure it out," Damon yelled.

"What about Sarah? What about wanting things to work? Damon this is everything we've ever wanted."

"It's everything you've ever wanted Stefan! My life was fine. I got the girl. The perfect girl," he yelled.

"I know what this is. This is you hurting Bonnie before she hurts you right? You're all about self-preservation," Stefan laughed. "But remember Sarah needs you, and she may not admit it, but Bonnie needs you too," Stefan grabbed Damon's shoulders. "I need you."

"Come back with me."

"No. We're staying here and you're going to fix this," Stefan said.

"I can't. I can't fix me. I'm always going to be impulsive, and a jackass."

"Don't do this to her. Don't give up on her," Stefan urged him.

Damon looked at his brother knowing that he was right. However, there was a part of him that kept thinking about what Rudy said. Bonnie deserved true happiness. And he wasn't sure if he could fort the bill.


Katherine threw clothes at Bonnie and ordered her in the attached bathroom. She looked at her reflection and thought this was the perfect look to get her point across. The blue fitted sundress was appropriate for the golf course, but its leather contoured corset showed off her curvaceous body. She was sure Damon would love this and he'd come back home. She wanted him back more than anything.

At first she was angry that he'd just leave her and Sarah. Of course the more she thought on it, she realized she didn't give him much of a choice. She yelled at him for hours about how irresponsible and impulsive he was. She called him an idiot in a couple hundred different ways, and she refused to let him explain himself. He didn't give an answer she liked so she tuned him out.

Bonnie knew she was being childish, and that she and Damon needed to make there circumstance work. Not just for Sarah, but for their own sanity. Bonnie couldn't fight the want in the pit of her stomach. She didn't want to. She craved Damon and she missed her high. The yelling, the fighting, the way he made her laugh was different, it was always genuine. She didn't have to fake her reactions around him. She never had to pretend. He just got her.

Bonnie sighed as she fastened the black gladiator sandals. She walked out the room and the two girls sitting on the bed blankly stared at her. "I guess this isn't the one," she mumbled.

"This is so the one, it's crazy. You look gorgeous, Bon," Caroline screamed.

"Damon is going to lose his mind when he sees you," Katherine smiled.

"DAMON!" Caroline yelled. "As in Elena's Damon."

"And she's your best friend," Katherine scuffed. "This conversation cause for pinot noir," she said walking out the room.

"Care it's different here," she started.

"Damon is still Damon, and you're still you. This can't happen. You have no idea how miserable Elena has been," Caroline yelled. "You hate him. He ruined your life."

"Caroline, here we're together. Damon and I have a child together and Elena is with Stefan, well she was until he showed up a few weeks ago," she explained.

Caroline fell back to the bed with her mouth opened. Damon and Bonnie had a baby, and Stefan was with Elena and she was confused. "I don't understand."

"You remember how I told you this world just interjects you into it. This is just how our life is."

"But you're still you and he's still him," Caroline yelled. "Elena is our friend."

"I know that, but it's complicated. I just feel"-

-"No you don't. The Bonnie Bennett I know would never love a monster like him. She knows she deserves so much more," Caroline smiled at her.

"I know," she agreed. "I've told myself that so many times it's crazy. But he makes me laugh, like really laugh, and we just understand each other. I just got to see him, the real him," she smiled.

Caroline could see it in her eyes that she was in love with Damon. Caroline's stomach ached and her heart raced. Bonnie was happy, really happy, and Elena was miserable really miserable and both of their states were due to the same man.

"Care say something," Bonnie urged.

"Bonnie," Caroline sighed. "I'm so happy that you found happiness. I want that for you more than anything, but Elena"-

-"Elena isn't here and she's a terrible friend. How many times have she been there when you guys needed her most? And out of the times she was there, how many did she turn into you being there for her?" Katherine asked examining their faces. "Exactly."

"It's not that simple, we've been friends since we were in diapers," Caroline said.

"And you out grew them," Katherine shrugged. "That's all I'm saying," She added as she raised her glass.


Bonnie, Katherine, and Caroline walked into the country club. Much to their surprise there was a huge turnout for the tournament. Caroline was greeted and asked about life in New York and Tyler, which was a bit more awkward. She made her way to the huge golf course and rode in a golf cart with Bonnie and Katherine to the 10th hole where the game progressed. That was where she spotted her dad on the sideline with Mr. Lockwood and Bonnie's dad.

"I get why you want to stay," she said smiling at her dad as he waved at her.

"I'm going to figure out how to get you home Care," Bonnie promised.

"Lexi texted me they're not here," Katherine said directing them back to the golf cart.


"She's coming," Lexi told Stefan. "I think you should get him out of here until we're sure he won't do anything stupid."

"Everything is going to be okay," Stefan smiled.

"Yeah cause your brother isn't a jackass," she smiled.

"Just give him a chance. Whatever happened with them has got them both out of sorts. They'll figure it out."

"I really hope so," Lexi said as she walked over to rejoin their growing group.

"Hey the last I checked the drinking age wasn't nineteen," Zach said as he came over and saw Monique with a beer.

"Very funny dad," she smiled. "We all know you and rules aren't friends."

"That's cause I'm a cool dad," he laughed.

"There's nothing cool about you," she snorted. Making everyone laugh.

"Hey I was cool enough for you to tell me about you boyfriend," he said teasing her making her blush.

"You don't have a boyfriend," Anna laughed.

"He's not my boyfriend I just like him," she said with a shrugged.

"You like him a lot," Zach said knocking his shoulder into hers.

"Dad!" she yelled.

"Sorry," he laughed.

Damon watched as Zach and Monique talked and he wanted to have that with Sarah. He was sure Bonnie would be the lighthearted one in this situation, but he wanted his little girl to feel comfortable enough to talk to him about boys. He wanted to be able to make her laugh and just enjoy a beer with her. He wanted Sarah to know that no matter what she was his world and would always have his love.

Damon was deep in thought when the girls pulled up. They were all out when he looked up. Anna jumped out of her seat to hug Caroline and Katherine was scuffing, but Bonnie held his focus. She looked beautiful. More than that. Gorgeous, divine, exquisite. There was not a word to describe how perfect she was. Nothing he could think to say now that his mouth was dry, and she was getting closer.

Bonnie sat on the blanket next to Damon and talked to Lexi. She was ignoring him. She came here looking like that just to ignore him. In all honesty they were having a hasty conversation with Stefan about Caroline. "You can't send her back," Damon said when Bonnie reassured Stefan and Lexi that she would.

"I don't remember asking your permission," Bonnie snapped.

"Well you don't have it," he screamed.

"Hey this is the fun section of the country club, you two take your marital problems somewhere else," Mason said teasing the two.

"I wouldn't marry him if my life depended on it," she sneered and walked away.

Damon sighed when he saw that Stefan really wanted him to follow after her. He took another breathe then rushed after her. "Bonnie," Damon called. "Bonnie I'm sorry," he said.

Bonnie stopped walking and let Damon catch up to her. He walked in front of her and said, "I just think you shouldn't mess with our world. Caroline got herself into this, you don't have to break your neck to get her out," he said.

"Why did you say that?" she asked.

"Because everyone's problems shouldn't be yours," he yelled.

"No you called this our world, why would you call it that?"

Damon put his forehead to hers. "That's how it feels. Like this world was made for us," he said caressing her face. "I want to enjoy this more than anything." He really felt that way, but he knew that he shouldn't-couldn't.

"I do too. I'm sorry, for how I acted. I just…I don't know how not to worry, and overthink. And the more I think the scarier things get," she ranted.

"Bon-Bon, I'm going to make sure that you have happiness here. No matter what it take to make that happen," he smiled. He knew the only way she'd be truly happy was if he removed himself from her life.

"Then come home," she smiled.

"I just want to make sure you'll be safe. You and Sarah," he said.

"We both know I can handle you," she laughed.

"Sarah doesn't know the full extent of Daddy's temper and she won't," he said.

"Damon, you're a great father."

"Thank you," he smiled. "I'm going to keep Sarah tonight so you can figure the Caroline thing out," he smiled.

"Damon come home," she ordered him.

"I don't remember asking your permission," he said with fake anger.

"Damon!" she yelled.

"Look Bonnie I… I'm everything you said I was and I hate that. I make you miserable. We can't go five minutes without fighting. I hate how much I hurt you and I just keep doing it. I don't want to ruin you the way I ruined Elena," he confessed.

"So what? You're just going to give up on us? Is that what you want?"

"Just until I figure this me out," he said.

"I'm not going to spend the rest of my life waiting for you to see what I see in you. I can't do that Damon. You have a week to figure this out, and if you don't want it, fine," she said and walked back to where the tournament was taking place.