Sorry for the late update. This story is on a run away train to hell ladies (and gentlemen?). So make sure your prepared for anything I might throw your way. Remember this isn't a happy ending. So for now enjoy the mild angst of these chapters. Chapter six ready and posted for you to read...so what are you doing still reading the author's note...get on with it!


Chapter Six -

Kyo's POV (Finally.lol)

He had lost him. Yuki had cheated. Why had he gone and done that with Haru? Were there more times than that? Was it beacuse Kyo wasn't ready to have sex? But he had a good reason for that. He hadn't taken the relationship to the next level all because of a certain incident that happened when he was eight. Only two people knew what had happened. Haru and Shisshou.

Kyo had been training at the dojo, just like he always had. A teenager that was new to the dojo, had come up and overpowered poor Kyo. He had been raped and beaten. Haru had found him and Shisshou promised to never leave the dojo for a moment without the cat.

Even now, nine years later, it was hard to let someone touch him intimately. The cat had even thought about trying to go further with the rat that week, but now it didn't matter. If Yuki was shallow enough to not wait for sex, then maybe he wasn't worth it. The moment Kyo thinks this, he feels horrible. Maybe he should've told Yuki what had happened. That might've changed what had happened. But enough of the past tense. Kyo needed to focus on the present.

After breaking it off with Yuki, the cat had come here to cry, only no tears wouldn't come. It was odd. The cat felt heartbroken, but mostly angry. He wanted Yuki to realize what an asshole he was for what he did, but he wasn't willing to tell the rat about his past. Not now. To him, it seemed irrelevent. As the cat lay contemplating all this, there was a knock on the door. "Yeah?" Kyo asks, knowing who it would be. The door opens to reveal and odd looking Yuki.

"Kyo? Can I talk with you?" Kyo considers this, then replies, "No. I think we're done talking. Besides there's not much to say now is there?" Yuki sighs, and his bottom lip begins to quiver slightly. "Will you listen to what I have to say then?" The cat doesn't reply, and Yuki plows on. "Are we really b-broken up?" Kyo notices the tears that lay unshed in Yuki's eyes. "Beacuse I can't stand to not be with you. I made a mistake. I need you Kyo. I didn't know what I was doing, not really." This made Kyo angry.

"You knew damn well what you were doing!" The cat screams. He was finally close to tears now. Yuki goes silent for a moment, then slumps to the ground and begins to sob. Kyo felt extremely guilty. He had made Yuki cry, and the sight was a knife to his heart.

"Y-yuki, please stop crying. This is all ultimately my fault. I've always pushed you away. I-I drove you to this. Yes you knew what you were doing, but your reason was just. I just wish I could explain why I never..." Kyo trails off, and Yuki looks up at the cat. His big violet eyes were shining with tears. "So your...okay with what happened?" He asks. Kyo angrily shakes his head. "Hell no I'm not okay with it. But I don't really know what to think about anything anymore." The cat felt helpless and out of character.

"We're just through. It doesn't matter my reason, or yours. You just did it, and you can't take it back." Kyo thought that felt more like something he'd say. He didn't want to seem like a spinless idiot that Yuki could walk all over. This thought irritates the cat "Just get out Yuki. I don't want to see your face agian. It unlucky for me, we live in the same house." Kyo nearly shoves the rat out into the hallway. He roughly slams the door then flops on the bed to relive his misery.


Choppy paragraphs I know, but deal with it. It's what I'm giving you, and I better not hear anything about it. You wanna read the story or not? Yeah so sorry for being snippy. I'm just having a bf day. You know those. Well reviews would be nice, but I won't expect them. Kiss kon kon.