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A/N: Thank you to reveiwers and thank you to my beta reader! I hope that you enjoy this chapter i know it took a long time to post.
Olivia walked swiftly down the hall, away from Dessy before she could ask any more questions. She looked at people that were also in the hallway but avoided eye contact with everyone. When she finally got to the phone, Olivia stood there for a few minutes. She knew that she had to call someone but who, was she going to call Chelsea and yell at her at being the reason that her and Marc broke up? Should she call Marc and reminisce about how out of all people to cheat on her with it was her best friend? But then there was always Brian. Olivia was now leaning up against the wall by the phone and had her eyes closed. She opened them and lifted herself away from the wall a couple of seconds later. Her soft but almost shaking hands reached for the phone as she stared at the numbers. Olivia lightly pressed the buttons, feeling the coldness of the metal against her finger tips. Hearing the sound that the phone made with each number being pressed in her ear, she waited impatiently hoping that he would answer. Just as Olivia was about to hang up she heard his comforting voice in her ear. She was silent for a second, embracing his voice.
"Hello?" he repeated getting annoyed that the person wasnt talking.
"Hi, Bry" Olivia said sweetly into the phone.
Brian thought for a second. He knew that the voice was familiar yet he hadnt heard it in a while. "Liv?" he said questionably.
"Yah" she said knowing that Brian couldnt see the big smile accumulating across her face, but he could hear it in her voice.
"Oh my god, how are you?" he asked questionably but also getting a burst of happiness.
"I'm um... for once Im not going to lie, I'm not alright" she said with a pause. Hoping that Brian could help her out, but then she heard a familiar girls laughter in the background.
"Whats..." Brian started to say but was then cut off.
"Who is there with you?" Olivia interrupted.
"Its my girlfriend Chelsea." he answered and Olivia heard the weakness in his voice.
Olivia was about to say something, astounded that he was dating her ex best friend, that was the reason that her now ex boyfriend was her ex boyfriend. Olivia could hear Brian starting to explain, but Olivia turned her head just in time to see Mr. Thomason walking in her direction.
"Olivia we need to talk" he said with his lets be friends and talk voice that a lot of people here knew very well.
Olivia looked away from Mr. Thomason and focus on the metal numbers again as she told Brian that she had to go and said goodbye. "What is it Mr. Thomason?" Olivia asked.
"Come with me inside my office" He said.
Olivia just nodded her head and followed him to his office with a picture window, desk, chairs and a couch.
"Have a seat" he said as she entered and stared graciously at the office.
She sat down on the couch as he sat in the chair across. He basically did all the talking, the first half Olivia didnt even really listen to. Then there was a knock at the door, Olivias eyes livened up as her eyes redirected to the door. This middle aged Chinese man came walked into the room.
"Olivia this is Dr. Huang, Dr Huang meet Olivia" Mr. Thomason said as he got up from the chair and started to walk to the door. Ill be back later, you two sit and get to know each other Mr. Thomason announced as he disappeared out the door and shut it behind him.
Dr. Huang made his way over towards where Olivia was sitting. He sat in the seat the Mr. Thomason was once sitting in. Dr. Huang watched Olivia follow him closely as he moved across the room. Once seated Huang looked towards Olivia and settled his elbows on his knees and pressed his weight on them, making him look kind of humpback.
"Hello Olivia" he said kindly reaching over one of his arms.
She shook his hand and sweetly said "Hi" and put a fake smile on. It seemed like he could see right through it though.
"So Olivia why did you have to come to this facility?" he asked.
"Call me Liv, and because I overdosed and cut myself. I basically almost killed myself. Can I ask you a question?"
"Sure Liv" he said while leaning back in the chair.
"Why did you become a Psychiatrist?"
"Well because I like to help people, listen to there problems" he answered point blankly.
"And what if somebody doesnt want to talk?" she asked.
"Why dont we stop talking about my job.." he started to say with a smile. "How about your mother, what is she like?" he asked.
Olivia was so thrown off by the question that she forgotten what he had asked, her head went blank. "Um, what was the question?" Olivia asked.
Huang saw how his question had caught her by surprise. "Tell me about your mother" he restated.
Olivia quenched her eyes and then looked at him and answered "Theres not much to say, shes my mom and she gave birth to me."
Huang was a little shocked by her answer, "Tell me some things that you and your mom would do together" Huang said wanting to get to know her relationship with her mother and family a little better. Olivia looked down at the floor and cracked her knuckles. "Whats wrong Olivia?" Huang asked only seeing this reaction a couple of times.
"Nothing, Im just trying to think of more than one happy time that we had together" Olivia replied feeling the tears starting to come down her cheeks.
"What was a typical day in the household?" Huang asked thinking that he went too far too soon.
"Um" Olivia started to say as her voice cracked and she dabbed the tears away with a tissue. "Id wake up, get ready for school, call Marc, leave, meet up with Marc, go to school, after school go to the clinic, then go home and go to my room" Olivia answered in as few details as possible.
"Where is your mother?"
"Drunk, drinking, passed out" Olivia choked out.
"What about your father?" was Dr. Huangs next question.
"My father raped my mother therefore the results of such rape were me" Olivia answered, she didnt like to talk about him.
"How does that affect your relationship with your mother?" Huang asked.
Olivia started to stand up and pace around the room with her arms folded across her face. "Whats up with fifty questions, its kind of obvious what it did to our relationship. If it was good do you think that I would be here right now?" Olivia stated getting frustrated.
"Would you?" Huang remarked.
"What?"
"Would you be here now, if your mother wasnt the way she is?" Huang asked seeing how the questioning was breaking Olivia down.
Olivia sat down and unfolded her arms, she leaned forwards and covered her face with her hands. She took a deep breath and said "Probably not."
"So there is a possibility that you would?" Huang objected.
"Yes" Olivia said quietly.
"After everything that youve been through do you love your mother?"
Olivias eyes started to water, she felt like she was shaking. The question shocked her, not because it was asked but because she didnt know how to respond. She just sat there staring into Huangs eyes not speaking a word.
"Olivia its okay if you dont know how to respond right now" Huang said to her putting his hand on her knee to comfort her.
After a couple of silent minuets had past Olivia spoke up "No, its not okay to not know if I love my mother or not! Huang tried to interrupt but Olivia spoke right through his voice, taking control of the conversation. Do you have kids Dr. Huang?" she asked.
Huang took a breath, while wondering where Olivia was going with this but he answered, "Yes I have one son George."
"How would you feel if George didnt know if he loved you or not?" Olivia asked trying to get him to understand where she is coming from.
Huang stared into Olivias eyes and saw that she wasnt trying to hurt him. "I think that it would hurt very much. But Olivia he hasnt been through anything even close to what you have been through" he answered.
Olivia once again folded her arms across her chest, clenched her mouth shut almost grinding her teeth and shook her head. Huang could tell that she wasnt going to talk anymore.
"Olivia how about we talk again soon okay?" he said.
Olivia unclenched her mouth and quietly said "Okay" before getting up and walking to the door. The cold metal of the door knob on her hand brought back memories of each time she would shut herself in her room, or shut herself out of her house. Either cutting off contact with the world or locking her home life out of the world. She shook her head to get a cleared vision before walking out into the hallway.
Olivia walked back to her room, where Dessy was waiting. Dessy was laying on her bed looking at a magazine with headphones on. She didnt even here Olivia come in, until she saw the movement and the sight of someone collapsing on the bed next to her.
Dessy removed the headphones off the ears and shut off her CD player. "Hey where were you, I went by the phone after lunch and you werent there?" Dessy asked.
"I started out talking on the phone and then Mr. Thomason came and made me talk to a therapist" Olivia stated.
3 months later:
"So Olivia now that you can go into the world free, what are you going to do?" Huang asked proud that Olivia had come so far in such a short time.
"Well since I finished high school here, I decided to go to New York and follow my dreams" Olivia said with a smile.
"Thats great Liv. What are your dreams, not really something that we got to talk about?" Huang asked.
"To become a detective with the SVU squad" she stated.
"I hope that you get that far and I know that you will. You proved that to me with how far you came with me since that first day" he said reminiscing with a smile and thinking back to all their sessions.
Olivia smiled this would be their last official session and then she was going to New York to continue on with her life. "Dr Huang remember when you asked me through everything that Ive been through if I still loved my mother, well I think that I may have come to an answer" Olivia said.
"Well you think, meaning there can be a change, how about this when you come to an official answer you call me! I dont care what time or when it is you call me and tell me. I will never forget you Olivia Benson" he said as they both got up and hugged.
"Trust me I will never forget you and the way that you helped me. I will definitely call you with an answer" Olivia said as they both started to walk to the door. They hugged one last time and then Olivia walked down the hall to her room.
"If you ever need me call" Huang called after her.
Olivia stopped turned around and nodded her head. When she got to her room most of it was packed. Dessy was gone already she had to go to class. Olivia felt bad for leaving her, but Dessy was getting worse by the second. Olivia went over to her bed and reached her hand on the side of the mattress that was covered by the head board. She lifted it and there laid the little slit. Olivia propped the mattress on her knee, she reached her hand in and slid the piece of glass out carefully.
"We dont need this anymore" she whispered to herself. Olivia threw it in her bag along with some other things. Olivia put the mattress down and put everything back as if nothing was touched. Then put a note that she had written in the middle of her bed and the same note again in the nightstand drawer just in case Dessy got upset and ripped the first one. She looked around the room one last time before picking up her bags and heading to the door. Olivia opened it and propped it open with her knee so that she could take one last look before flipping the lights and closing the door. Olivia walked out the doors and brought her bags over to the taxi that had been waiting for her. Olivia let in a deep breath of fresh air and smiled.
A/N: So what did you think?
