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Teddy Bear Kisses
By: Bloody-Stiletto
"She's my other half that makes me whole and I'd be damned if she's gone…"
-Hiirigizawa Eriol
.:Eriol's POV:.
It rang. It rang again for the nth time.
There was no answer. Now why is that? She never leaves her phone unattended.
Being slightly frustrated, I dropped the phone and leaned back against the swivel chair. Now this is weird…unusual to be exact. My sweet little angel is driving me nuts—Tomoyo, that is. I don't address her like that in person but in my own world, she's definitely my sweet little angel. Stupid, isn't it?
Glancing sideways, a wooden frame caught my attention. There, I stared at her features as if etching them in my heart.
"Look at what you've done to me…" I said in mock accusation. A slight smile broke my lips. "You're driving me insane, Tomoyo. This is your fault." Being the stupid Hiirigizawa Eriol, it doesn't quite surprise me to find myself talking to an inanimate object.
But her picture is not JUST an inanimate object. It's my savior. It saves me from going nuts when I miss her so badly. And that… makes me an obsessed dimwit that couldn't muster the courage to tell her how I truly feel. She thinks that I don't care… I don't feel anything… I don't love her the way she does…
…that's what she thinks…
"Tomoyo… have you not been so lovely, I could be still be concentrating on my work…" I thought aloud as I began talking to myself once again. I gazed at her picture as I was mesmerized by her innocent yet heart-warming beauty. "Answer your damn phone or I'll be dead, I tell ya…"
"Whoo-hoo… Take it easy, lover boy." A familiar voice disturbed my soliloquy.
I looked up despite the embarrassment for being caught off guard. "How long have you been eavesdropping, Nakuru?" My eyes caught glance of a fancy yet furry tail. "And you even brought Spinel? Are you spying on me or what?"
Nakuru laughed as Spinel approached me hurriedly. "Eriol-sama! It's Nakuru's fault! She FORCED me to go with her!" Spinel exclaimed.
"What! You're the one who wants to see Eriol-sama going nuts!" Nakuru blamed back.
"I did not say that!"
"Did too"
"Did not!"
"Stop lying, Spinel! You're the one who suggested eavesdropping!"
"EH! You're the one who told me that he's being insane when he misses Tomoyo-san!"
"I did not!"
"Did so!"
"Did not!"
The two continued rambling as I remained seated glancing at them from time to time. How long have they been spying on me?
"That's enough." I said making them stop their rambling. Quite perplexed, they stared back at me in an 'i-almost-forgot-he's-still-here' way. Silence fell between us quite unexpectedly. I just don't get it why is she not answering her phone!
"Eriol-sama, are you ok?" Nakuru asked—which I barely heard.
WHY THE HELL IS SHE NOT ANSWERING HER F-FU….
…phone…?
Why! Is she sick? Crying? Robbed?
Or… could she be…
Could she be… mad at me?
No way… What if..?
"EH! Eriol-sama! You look like you've seen a ghost! What's wrong!" I heard Nakuru's frightened wail. Once again, I paid no attention. All I'm thinking about is…
.:Eriol's Vision:.
"Sayonara… Eriol-kun…" her soft voice bade farewell as she began to turn her back on me. I reached out and called her name as if trying to change her mind. Change her mind and bring her back to me…
A soundless scream escaped my throat as I tried to call out her name—begging her not to leave me.
What now? She's gone…
…And would never come back again…
I… I can't live through it. I can't live without her…
:end of vision:
"Eriol-sama?" Nakuru and Spinel chorused.
"I… I got to see her…"
With that, I fled out my office and took my car keys. I don't know what's wrong with me but something tells me that I'm going to lose someone.
I just hope it would not be her.
.:Tomoyo's P.O.V:.
"Oh darn…" I cursed swiftly as I made my way through the falling rain. Unmindful of my freezing legs, I dashed through the nearest waiting shed and leaned against the post. I never expected this rain. Before I went out, the sun is shining. Nobody would ever think that it will rain hard like this.
Talk about ungrateful. I'm soaking wet!
Clutching my purse, I opened it with trembling fingers as I tried to locate my cell phone. After a few seconds of searching, a sudden realization struck me. "Oh no! My phone!" I exclaimed and remembered leaving it on top of my bedroom drawer.
How…? Stupid of me. It is very stupid of me to leave my phone. How am I supposed to get out of this mess? I couldn't contact anybody to fetch me.
Anybody… Anybody but not Eriol…
What does he care anyway? So what if I'm soaking wet in this rain? So what if I'm not being able to answer his calls—if ever he is calling but I doubt it—right now? Who am I, Tomoyo Daidouji to him anyway? A girlfriend… a girl acquaintance… a girl he likes… he loves?
So much for that… I'm getting sick of it.
Leaning against the post, raindrops streamed down my face as I felt its cold touch against my damp skin. What the hell am I doing? Stuck here with nothing to shelter myself from the harsh rain… stuck here without having someone that will treat me like a princess… someone that will have me because he loves me.
Not someone that will have me because he NEEDS me… No, I don't need that. I don't need a guy like that.
A guy like Eriol…
I closed my eyes as my heart began to throb with the usual emptiness. Yes, there is a shallow havoc wreaked inside my heart. It needs Eriol. It yearns for Eriol's embrace… Eriol's touch… everything that Eriol could offer… it needs those things so badly.
It needs it so much that I make my whole self miserable.
"Shame on you, Tomoyo…" I scolded myself as a tear slipped down from the corner of my eyes. "You had cried more than enough for him already…" My mind keeps telling me to quit. Quit pretending that I'm the fortunate woman that was loved by Hiirigizawa Eriol. Quit believing that he loves me like the way I love him. I should quit—and I've thought about this long ago already.
But my heart keeps on hoping… Hoping that someday… I'll hear him saying 'I love you, Tomoyo.'
But not now. Definitely not now. Not tomorrow. Never.
"A penny for your thoughts?"
My eyes shot open as I looked back. And there, as soaked as I am, Eriol stared at me with the usual bored look on his face.
"What is it Tomoyo? Am I looking very irresistible right now?" He asked obviously trying to show off as he gave me his winning smirk. His slightly unbuttoned white polo and drenched brown slacks with the ragged hair—which is usually neat, by the way—he is looking very charming indeed.
If ever there are any other women here right now, I swear he's not going to be home even if the rain had stopped already.
"You're not irresistible, Eriol. Don't pretend to be." I said simply. I saw his expression change from seducing to shock. He is probably not expecting this kind of treatment from me.
Sighing, he asked, "What the heck are you doing here? You're supposed to be at your house and reviewing your lessons. The entrance exam is not that far from now, mind you."
This is it. I can't handle these stuffs anymore.
"You don't order me around, Eriol, so stop it!" I cried out. I don't want to be ordered around. I don't want to be reprimanded. Especially not by him! He treats me like I'm an idiot, a prisoner and worse, a servant! I don't need a man to boss me around. I don't need a man that will always make me feel empty and miserable.
I need a guy that will love me—treat me like a princess. Someone that can make me laugh, smile and satisfied with what I have and with what I am…
In short, I don't need him.
He's not the man I need and definitely not worthy of my love.
.:Eriol:.
I was half shocked and half amused with the way she is acting right now. I am shocked because of her sudden outburst and at the same time, I am amused with the way she's facing me right now. She reminds me of Kaho. Too much like Kaho.
Kaho is very much aggressive like her right now. Though I know it is wrong to compare them… but I can't help but be pleased with her right now. She is definitely NOT my sweet, little angel right now. No, obviously not.
"I…I don't need these stuffs…" She broke off as she began to choke in her own tears. Pain stabbed me on the inside as I watched her cry. Now this is not a very amusing part. "Y-You were always right… You were always lonely… not wondering if… if I ever felt the same…"
The words were not being delivered harshly but the way she says it, it goes underneath my flesh.
"I don't want to be like this… I definitely can't stay like this…" Wiping her face vigorously, my heart felt as if it was tearing up into pieces.
But to my greatest horror, heaven turned its back on me.
"It's over… We should break up…" Her voice trailed off making me the most miserable man in the world.
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