Alex felt as if he could lose his mind at any given moment. If he had a mind at all. He remembered the days when he literally jumped out of bed thankful to be alive. But, that was when Izzie had been in his life. He questioned his existence.
Alex Karev never thought of anyone but himself. But, that was before Isobel Stevens knocked down that shield of iron he kept around his cold heart. He'll give himself until Sunday to build up courage to tell Izzie just exactly what he thinks of her, what she's done to him. He doesn't care if the whole world knows. What does he have to lose? Izzie came into into his mind.
He knew he must have done something wrong and blamed no one but himself for what he's gone through. People say you can't make someone love you. But, privately and smugly, he thought, "Well, maybe they can't, but I certainly can." Can he? He wondered.
He surprised himself and never expected it to happen. "Lord, give me strength," he prayed silently. Alex never believed in heaven, doesn't know if there really is a God. But, he found himself on bended knees as he prayed. Men don't cry, do they? Funny but, he did.
