Title: She's Gone

Rating: M

Summary: With Alex's sudden suicide how will Paige react? Morbid. One shot.

Chapter 1: Gone

It was a cold, blustery day and I was relaxing on my bed, relaxing and listening to AFI when my mom's words interrupted my day dreams.

"Did you hear me Paige, you have a phone call"? my mother asked me slightly opening my door.

"I'll be down in a minute, but if it's Alex I don't want to talk to her" I replied as I was taking off my headphones.

I ran down the stairs dreading if it was Alex. As I picked up the phone I heard it was Alex's mother's voice. She was drunk off her ass.

"I have some bad news. I'm not sure how to put this so I'll just tell you straight out. Alex has killed herself."

I dropped the phone as I heard this and tried not to release the tears that were pooling in my eyes. I ended up hanging up the phone as her mother was saying "Paige are you there"?

I ran up to my room and released the tears. My face was hot and my body heaved. I pictured her dead body. I wondered why she did it and if it was because of me.

It was a week after graduation and the girl who I loved was dead. It was a month before I would head off to Banting and Alex would've remained here.

I felt so numb. I couldn't feel anything except a huge void. I wanted to feel something, anything.

Now all I wanted was Alex. To hold her, tell her everything was okay. Now she was gone. I wanted to refuse to believe it; and to think that she was still here.

I really regretted breaking up with her, maybe if I hadn't she wouldn't have killed herself. It's all my fault. I started to cry again.

I had to go to her funeral, face her mother. I dreaded it more than any exam I ever had to take. I would have to see a coffin.