Chapter 4: Time For Mourning
(A/N: This chapter has the song "I Will Remember You by Sarah McLachlan. I do not own the words or the song)
It was weird, being a my own funeral. Everyone was freaking out. That's one thing I didn't imagine how my funeral would be.
However, I did imagine the cold, dark, rainy day. I imagine my coffin: the gun metal gray coffin with white lining and the white cover that covered my body. I was in the only black dress I owned that didn't remind me of Paige. It was black and hugged my body perfectly. Of course, no one would see what was inside the coffin due my mother's decision for a closed coffin funeral. The funeral would be outside, unlike the psycho Rick's funeral.
My senior picture would be placed on the top of the coffin. The song "I Will Remember You" by Sarah McLachlan will be played. My friends and family will be standing around my coffin crying and mourning my loss, or will only a few people show up?
So, I leaned back against the tree and noticed all the people that came to my funeral. It was more than I ever thought. People from my family came that I never met. Go figure, that they come now when I'm dead. My friends from Degrassi came to say goodbye. Paige came, she looked so hurt. She was the only one that didn't cry. I mean even Hazel came, of course I think it was just to comfort Paige. My mother came, sober, and without her boyfriend.
A minister spoke. He said things like I lived a good life, and I was a good person. Yet, this minister didn't even know me!
I wanted to be there and hold Paige. She was hurting, terribly. I could feel her pain, read her thoughts. Only I couldn't do that with anyone else. It was weird, yet cool at the same time. Paige went up to the coffin and whispered so no one could hear .
"Alex, if you can hear me. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for everything I did".
It started to rain and everyone tried to escape it. Then, she stood there and embraced it. She raised her arms as if she were flying. Her tears mixed with the rain so you couldn't tell them apart.
I would have to make sure that she received the letter I wrote for her.
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your
life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Remember the
good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things
got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna
feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I will remember
you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep
not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin'
on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so
much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we
can't be heard
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let
your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so
afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past
that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and
endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me
light
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't
let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
And I
will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life
pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories
(Another A/N: I will update the next chapter in the next few days. It will be the last one.)
