Chapter 5: Goodbye
(A/N: Some of the words in the letter are lyrics from Without You by Plumb.)
Paige,
You did not do anything to "make me" commit suicide. I did it all myself, and I am responsible. I am sorry for any pain I have or will cause you. I did it because I was sick of everything. The fighting, abuse, my home life, but not you.
I still love you, with all my heart. You were the best thing that has ever happened to me. You kept me here, until I reached my breaking point. I will always love you.
Love,
Alex
P.S. I'll be your guardian angel and always will watch over you.
Paige finished reading the letter for the hundredth time. It had been four years today that Alex had killed herself. She sat in her car outside in front of the cemetery where Alex was buried. She contemplated going home. Yet, she decided that she had to do this. It was the only way that she could let go and move on with her life.
She kneeled down in front of the gravestone and pulled out a letter. She read it with intensity. "It's been four years since you died. So many things have changed. I graduated top in my class in college - I have a good paying job. Yet, ever since you died, I haven't been able to date anyone else. Alex I still love you, but I need to move on and let go." read Paige from a letter. She wiped a tear from her eye and kept reading.
"I miss everything about you - your hair, eyes, and your laugh. Hell, I even miss your squeaky voice. I just miss you Alex." she blew her nose on a tissue and kept reading.
"It's been hard without you. I sunk into a depression and no one could help me out of. I shut everyone out - including my own family and friends. I felt so lost without you. It's taken me four years to even come to visit you." She stopped reading and stood up to meet the figure walking towards her. She then recognized that it was Hazel. She embraced her friend in a hug and wiped more tears from her eyes.
"Alex I still love you. Thanks for everything you have ever done for me. Most of all thanks for being my guardian angel."
"I still somewhat blame myself for your death. I said some things that I shouldn't have. I realized that I hurt you and it hurts me ten times more. I got in the car, turned on the lights and the radio...I drove really fast, and I cried hard."
"Most of all I came here to tell you goodbye and try to move on in life. So, goodbye Alex. I love you."
The End!
