Summary: A songfic in Jude's pov to Enya's song: May It Be. Songfic is a challenge from Catch1Star.
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
May It Be
I was in the studio, working on my newest song. I kept strumming my guitar, not knowing what lyrics were going to come to mind. I had a lot on my mind recently; most of it centering on my producer. I know it's wrong for an artist and a producer to hook up, but I just can't help it. Tommy gets me in ways that no one else ever can. Will.
I glanced up at him from behind the glass and I caught a glimpse of his unguarded expression.
Something has been bothering him lately and I can't figure out what it is. It seems every time I ask him, he always gives me that warm smile and says nothing's wrong. His smile doesn't reach his eyes and his voice carries a forced care-free tone to it. I just wish that he'd talk to me; confide in me, let me be there for him the same way he's been there for me.
My fingers glided across the guitar in a slow, hypnotic rhythm. I was slightly surprised; I'd never been able to play anything like that in the past. It was slow, sultry, sad, and heartbreaking all at the same time.
"May it be an evening
star
Shines down upon you."
My mind went back to the only times Tom's ever been open and honest with me. It's always been at night, when we were alone. Sometimes in the studio, maybe in the car ride home. And once in the alley on my "un-sweet 16".
"May it be when darkness
falls
Your heart will be true."
Tommy glanced at me from behind the glass. I don't know if he was recording, but his blue eyes bore into mine and I wondered briefly if he understood the song already. I strummed a bit more, thinking out the next lyrics, but they came to me before I was even conscious of them.
"You walk a lonely
road
Oh! How far you are from home.
Mornie utulie (Darkness
has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornie alantie
(Darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now."
I sang out the chorus, low and full of emotion. I continued strumming out the chords, my mind churning the lyric possibilities in my mind. I wanted him to know I had faith in him and that I'd be there for him if he needed me; when he needed me. I found myself rocking slightly as I played and I opened my mouth and sang out the next few lines, putting all the emotion I had into it.
"May it be the shadow's call
Will
fly away
May it be you journey on
To light the day
When the
night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun."
I glanced back up at Tommy from behind the glass; our eyes locking and a flicker of understanding reflected in his soft, blue eyes. I continued playing all the while, feeling my heart clench with emotion. I felt tears of emotion fill my eyes and I closed them and lowered my gaze away from his intense gaze. My fingers continued to glide across the guitar strings as I closed the song.
"Mornie utulie (Darkness
has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornie alantie
(Darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now…"
I opened my eyes and glanced back up at him. He was looking away from me and down at the soundboard. I continued strumming my guitar a moment for the closing melodies and I set it aside. I walked carefully out of the recording booth and into the mixing room. I walked over to him and placed my hand on his shoulder. He glanced up at me and gave me a look of pained remorse. I tightened my head around his shoulder in a gesture of comfort.
"Thanks." He said and I smiled at him. We shared a look of understanding passed between us and I knew then that he'd tell me when he was ready.
A promise lives within
you now.
