Important Author's note at the end.
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They're in: Seventh Year
Recap: Lily's eyes sprang open with realization, and suddenly she felt very stupid and naive. How could she have ignored this for so long? She hadn't even realized when it happened, but it did.
Lily Evans had fallen in love with James Potter, and she ruined her chances with him.
Chapter Nineteen: A Surprising Friend
Shutting her eyes in regret, she wished that she could rewind time to yesterday night. Oh, if only she had realized her love for him just one day earlier she would have been one of the happiest girls of her life. Instead she was alone and unhappy. How could she have been so stupid?
Lily pulled out her razor blade from her pocket and looked longingly at it.
Tears began to pour out of her eyes when James kissed Marcy entered her thoughts. He had gotten over her quite quickly. He had Marcy now, and Lily had no one. No one to turn to, to cry to, or even to hug.
Hearing the snow crunch nearby her, she realized that someone was coming near and she quickly wiped off her tears and put away her razor blade. Hoping that the person was James, she set her face in a grave way. Lily had decided that if James was better off without her, then so was she.
She felt someone wrap a cloak around her. "Ja-" she began, but when she turned she saw that it was not James, but his friend Remus Lupin.
"Oh, hello Remus," Lily said, disappointed.
Remus sat down next to her. He had a thermal long sleeve shirt and a short sleeve shirt over it; he must be cold. "I saw how you rushed out of the Great Hall."
Lily was quiet for a moment, "So?" she said, a little more rudely than she had meant it to be.
"So I have a guess as to why," Remus said, unmoved by her rudeness.
"What's your guess?"
"A certain Gryffindor boy," he responded easily.
Lily let out a groan of frustration. "Is it that obvious?" she said quietly.
"No, not really, I just have a knack for noticing things," he answered.
"Oh." So Remus knew that she had a thing for James. "Please don't tell him that I'm upset."
"Why?" Remus questioned.
Lily looked at the horizon, "He's already gotten over me. My feelings came too late; I'll have to get over him too."
"I see," Remus said without revealing much emotion. He glanced over at her and saw that her eyes were shiny with unshed tears. He put a comforting arm around her and she looked up to him. He smiled down at her and she gave a weak smile back. "I'm here for you," Remus said, knowing that Lily was about to cry.
Lily took that as her cue and began crying. She buried face into his warm shoulder and cried, thankful that she did have someone after all.
Maybe she didn't need James; he certainly didn't seem to need her. If she could just focus on liking someone else...
After a few minutes, Lily's cries subsided and she whispered a grateful, "Thank you," to Remus. He nodded and held her in a comforting embrace.
Once Lily had calmed down, they walked into the castle and into the Common Room. Lily thanked Remus once more and gave him a quick hug before going into her dormitory.
ABC.
"Well?" James asked anxiously once Lily had gone upstairs. He had asked Remus to check up on Lily, to make sure she wasn't doing... well that she wasn't hurting herself in any way.
"Well what?" Remus responded lazily.
"Well what happened?" James answered.
"Nothing," Remus answered before making his way to his dorm.
"What do you mean nothing?" James yelled at his retreating back before chasing him up the stairs.
Remus looked James in the eye and said, "She asked me not to tell you. That's all."
"Okay," James said, "so what did she say?"
Remus rolled his eyes, "I just told you what she said. She said for me not to tell you."
James's eyes opened wide in anger, "So you're not going to tell me?"
"If you had asked me not to tell something, I wouldn't. I consider that a promise and I don't break my promises," Remus responded calmly.
"That's bullshit!" James angrily said.
"Well, I'm sorry. I can't tell you."
ABC.
It was almost midnight. Remus was so sweet, Lily thought as she got into bed. Lily was really glad that he was there to comfort her earlier that day; who knows what she would have done if she was upset all by herself with a sharp object.
Lily fell asleep, hoping that the next day would be a much better one.
But it didn't turn out to be. Lily had caught a cold from being outside in the cold with only a thin cloak. She stayed in bed the whole day, hoping that her cold would be gone soon. She didn't even eat; her sore throat did not allow her to. She knew she ought to have gone to the Hospital Wing; Madam Pomfrey would surely have given her a Pepper-Up Potion to take away her cold.
Lily didn't want to go out because she knew that James would be around, and she was afraid of her reaction. Especially if he was with Marcy. That girl seemed to have a new boyfriend and/or crush every week.
Drifting in and out of sleep all day, her thoughts still went to James quite a bit. She missed him. She missed being with him, being in his arms, and him making her laugh. She missed how his hair was always disheveled no matter what he did, how his grin was lopsided, and that mischievous glint in his eyes when Sirius and him thought up of a new prank.
Monday morning came and she realized that her dorm was empty. Her dorm mates hadn't bothered to wake her up! Lily quickly brushed her teeth and ran a brush through her hair. She grabbed the nearest cloak and fastened it on. Rushing down the steps, she realized that there were not any students in it.
She checked her watch and realized that Transfiguration had started five minutes ago. She slipped into class quietly, thankfully Professor McGonagall had just gotten the class settled and was calling roll. Just as Lily sat down in her seat, she heard, "Lily Evans!"
"Present, Professor," Lily said, setting her back down. Professor McGonagall gave her a disapproving look but kept calling roll.
James glanced at her, then at her chest, then he seemed to be upset. Lily ignored him, but she heard a few snickers when she walked into class.
"What are they laughing at?" Lily whispered, leaning toward Remus so he could hear her.
As Remus opened his mouth to answer, a ball of paper bounced angrily onto his desk and Remus opened it. His brows furrowed and he had a slight frown. Then he too looked at her chest and said, "You're wearing my cloak."
Glancing down at her own chest, Lily saw the name "Remus Lupin" stitched into the cloak, right under the Gryffindor crest. "Oh dear," she said as her face reddened.
A paper airplane landed on Lily's desk. There was writing in it, so she opened it.
Someone was busy with Lupin last night.
Lily groaned and showed the writing to Remus. His cheeks grew a little pink, but other than that he had no reaction. Damn, she should've paid attention as to what cloak she grabbed before she dashed out. Now there were going to be rumors flying around that she and Remus Lupin had sex.
By the time it was lunchtime, the whole school would think that Lily Evans and Remus Lupin had sex, recorded it, and the video would be floating around school. And according to that video, one of Lily's boobs was bigger than the other. Rumors had an uncanny ability to spread quickly and with it the use of people's imagination.
ABC.
It was lunchtime, and thankfully the rumor hadn't spread. It might have had something to do with James yelling at anyone he heard saying it.
James was fuming by the time that he sat down for lunch. Lily was sitting on the other end of the table. James hadn't had the chance to speak to Remus yet, but here was the chance.
"Why does she have your cloak?"
"I lent it to her," Remus said, serving himself some mashed potatoes. "It was cold."
"Oh, so it was on Saturday?"
"Mhmm." Well, that was settled then. James knew that Remus would not have done anything like that to him. Lily had returned Remus his cloak after Transfiguration and ran up to her dorm to get her own.
"Alright. You still won't tell me what she said, right?" James asked.
"Right."
"Jamieee!" James cringed, but forced a smile.
"Yes, pumpkin?" he responded in sarcasm. Marcy made him call her that.
"Jamie!" she squealed, "Oh Jamie! I missed you today!"
"We saw each other this morning."
"It doesn't count if we don't snog!" Marcy winked at him. Remus snorted into his cup.
James forced another smile for her. It was only day three of their relationship and he was already annoyed to the max with her. But it was all for Lily, as soon as she realized what her feelings were, he'd dump Marcy in an instant.
She kissed him sloppily and James pulled back. "What's wrong, pookie?" Marcy attempted to pout.
"Erm-this is my bad side, sit on my other side so you can see my good side," James answered. He was only kissing Marcy so that Lily would see and get jealous, the sooner the better.
"Okay!" She shifted to his other side and kissed him again, this time missing his mouth and kissing only his upper lip.
He took a quick peek at Lily and she was glaring daggers at the couple and he quickly shut his eyes.
Whatever he did, it was for Lily and only for her.
A/N: I FORGOT TO TELL YOU: I will be leaving Tuesday the 4th for a trip to Argentina and will not be back until the 26th. I might be able to update once more before I leave but I dunno if I'll be able to.
I think you guys are really going to like the next chapter, or the end of it anyway.
Okay, so I have a couple comments/questions to ask of my readers (sans a few of them): This story has almost 6,000 hits, it's on 30 people's favorite lists, and 20 people have this story on alert. So here are my questions: why do I get such few reviews? It's discouraging you know.
Why do only half of the people who read chapter one actually go on to chapter two?
How should I improver chapter one so that more people make it to chapter two?
Anyway, thanks to those who reviewed chapter 18: Emrisah and CASOCCERCHIC02 (X3) and thanks to those who reviewed before but I forgot to thank: tyismyjugglo, marauderchick,lilalex13, andPeggz.
