January 6th, 2005

Ray couldn't believe Abby was pregnant. He couldn't believe she wanted to have an abortion. There was no way in hell he would allow that to happen. Sure the idea of becoming a father scare the shit out of him, but he's rather do it than miss this chance. He had the right to use this chance to make everything all right. With a daisy in hand ray walked up to her front door and knocked.

"Coming." Neela opened the door and frowned when she saw who it was, "What do you want? How did you get in?"

"I want to see Abby and someone left the front door open." Ray smiled stepping into the apartment, "Where's Abby?"

"I mentioned having eggs for breakfast and that made her run off to the bathroom." Neela said, "She's not very happy with you."

"I want to see her." Ray said. Abby opened the bathroom door and glared at him. Ray smiled, "I brought you a flower."

"I see..." Abby said, "What do you want Ray?" He sighed deeply.

"Why do I need to have a reason to see my girlfriend now that you're pregnant?" He asked her, "I never needed one before."

"Things have changed." She said, "Am I your girlfriend still?"

"Of course, Abby." Ray chuckled reaching out and taking her hand. He pulled her close to him. "Have you made a decision yet?"

"No I have not and I'd appreciate no pressure." Abby said.

"There is none. I swear." Ray told her. "I think we can do this, Abby."

"I'm glad you have so much confidence in us, Ray." She said. "Aren't you scared? You act like you're not scared one bit."

"Abby, I'm petrified." Ray chuckled. "I have never been this scared in my entire life. I feel like I'm going to throw up at any moment." Abby chuckled.

"I already have. Enough for the both of us." She said. Ray sighed as he put his hand on her stomach.

"I'm sorry I did this to you." He said.

"Ray, we both did this." Abby told him, "It takes two to create a baby."

"It also takes two to raise a baby, Abby." Ray said, "I think we could make this work. I think we could make a really cool family. A really weird family too."

"I know." Abby laughed as she snuggled into him, "I'm just confused."

"Abby, I'm falling in love with you and I already love this baby." Ray said. Abby's heart stopped pounding in her chest.

"Ray, you can't love me though." Abby said pulling away from him.

"Why not?" Ray said, "You're an amazing woman." It was at this time Neela had to step in.

"If you don't mind a third party weighing in on this situation," Neela said. They stared at her, "You're not your mother, Abby. Yes there's a possibility you'd get bipolar, but I don't think you'd et it get as bad as hers. You know the signs. You know how to stop it before it gets worse. You will make an excellent mother because of all the crap you've been through. I know you love Ray and this baby already. I can see it in your eyes when you talk about him. I see you touch your stomach and get that glimmer of hope in your eyes."

"You love me?" Ray asked. Abby groaned loudly.

"I don't know...I don't know how I feel about any of this." She said, "I know...I know I don't want to have another abortion." Ray let out a big sigh of relief. This whole past week he had been so utterly terrified that she was going to have one.

"Thank god." Ray whispered as he hugged her. Abby giggled nervously.

"I think you two should move in together too." Neela said. Both Abby and Ray's eyes widened as they looked at her.

"I never asked her to." Ray mumbled.

"I don't think we're ready for that step yet." Abby said. Neela rolled her eyes. She couldn't believe how these two people were acting.

"The two of you are having a child together. Don't tell me you aren't ready to take that step." Neela said, "Having a baby together is way more serious than moving in together."

"I know..." Abby said.

"I'll take this apartment so you don't need to worry about that." She said. Abby couldn't help but to laugh.

"I'm sure you would." She said, "but I'm not ready." Abby looked at Ray. "What about you?" Ray shook his head as soon as the question was out of her mouth. "Maybe within time, Neela."

"I just think it's what is best." Neela told her.

"I think sex is what is best." Ray said standing up and extending his hand towards Abby. She rolled her eyes. Ray was such a romantic. Neela groaned.

"I'll turn the TV up really loud then." She said. Abby laughed as she got to her feet. Why would she want to leave that girl?


Abby kissed Ray's sweaty chest as she lay back down next to him. They certainly did have amazing chemistry when in came to stuff in the bedroom. Hell they had chemistry everywhere. There was no denying it.

"I stopped smoking." Abby said. Ray grinned brightly as he looked at her.

"Are you serious?" He asked. Abby nodded, "How is it going?"

"Fine." She sighed, "I'm chewing a lot of big red. It'll be healthier for the two of us if I just stop. Although one sounds very good right now." Ray chuckled.

"I stopped doing something too." Ray said.

"Scratching your nuts?" Abby grinned.

"No." He said, "I've stopped drinking." Abby looked up at him, "It's not fair to you if I drink in front of you so I decided just to stop. My liver will thank me."

"I'll thank you." Abby said kissing his chin.

"Now, I won't stop smoking." He said. Abby laughed.

"You don't have to. I'll want to smell you every once and awhile." She said. Ray tightened his arms around her. He honestly wouldn't mind that. "How silly was it for Neela to suggest us moving in together, huh?" Ray shrugged.

"I understand her reasoning, but I'm not ready for that step." He said.

"Me either." She said, "Plus, you're a phone call away. If I have a midnight craving, I can call you."

"I'll probably be up anyway." Ray said. They laid in each others arms for a few minutes. They listened to their breathing. They listened to each others heart beat.

"Do you really love me?" Abby asked finally breaking the silence.

"I think so." Ray sighed, "I've never felt like this before. I think about you all the time, when I'm in the shower, on stage, or in a trauma." Abby chuckled.

"Wow...romantic." She said looking up at him, "But it's the same for me. Freaky isn't it?" She asked.

"What?" He cocked his eyebrow as he looked at her.

"The two of us. We didn't want anything serious. We were sure to state that, but now We love each other and we have a child on the way." Abby said.

"The world works in mysterious ways I suppose." He said. Abby knew that was the truth. It most certainly did.

"I never thought I'd be able to fall in love again or let someone love me." Abby sighed. Ray nodded in agreement. He never thought this would happen to him either. "I'm so proud of you."

"Why is that?" Ray asked, "Am I that good In bed?" Abby chuckled and nodded.

"Well, you are but that's not why I'm proud of you." She said, "I'm proud of you because even though you're in a band and the club scene, you chose to stop drinking because of me and the baby." Ray grinned sheepishly.

"It only seemed right." He said.

"Thank you for that. Honestly." Abby smiled cuddling back into him.

"No problem." He said to her, "We have a gig next week. Are you coming?"

"Of course I am." Abby said rolling onto the mattress. Her hand went onto her stomach. Ray looked at her and smiled. God, it was so nice to see. He couldn't wait to see her stomach start to grow.

"So," Ray said, "Are you really going to keep the baby? For sure?" Abby nodded.

"For sure, Ray." She said, "I'm not getting any younger. If I wait until I'm ready to have kids, I may not be able to have them and it'd be too late. I think I can do this."

"I know you can. how hard can it be to take care of a baby?" Ray asked. Abby looked at him and began to laugh.

"Oh Sweetheart, you're so stupid." She said.

"I'm not stupid. I'm hopeful." Ray said stroking her arm, "This is going to be so amazing. Someone that has half me and half you in them. They're going to be incredibly cute." It was the half her that scared Abby so much. This child was going to be cursed with her genes.

"I hope the baby looks like you." She said, "You're hot."

"So are you." Ray told her. Abby's heart fluttered once again. How did he do that? How did he make her feel like that? She had never felt this content with a relationship before.

"You're not getting laid again as much as you try." Abby said. Ray ran his finger down her side causing Abby to shiver.

"I wasn't trying to get laid again." He insisted.

"you're a man, you're always trying to get laid. There's no denying it." Abby said patting her stomach, "I have something to show for it." Ray laughed holding her even tighter.

"You're a nut job." He said. He was one to talk, Abby thought. She was very thankful he didn't want to do the moving in thing. Maybe someday they would, but right now Abby had a lot on her plate. She didn't want to deal with a move on top of it.