Harry was more than a little confused.
'What's Hermione talking about?' He picked that opportunity to say what was on his mind.
"What are you talking about? Your scaring me." Harry said.
"I'm scaring myself Harry. Do you think I like this conversation. I was still thinking about it. I thought that if in the end I still wasn't sure I'd come to you and voice my opinions."
"It still doesn't make sense what are we talking about?" Harry asked.
"I feel that in this war we aren't prepared as we should be. We're not as strong as we should be."
"That's exactly why I'm looking up all these defensive spells, maneuvers, and everything else. That's why you are researching and brewing potions. We're doing everything we can."
"Wrong you're doing everything you can. Ron's doing everything that he can. Actually I have no idea what he's doing, but he kniws what's at stake. Me, I'm sitting down here expected to brew and brew. In the end I'll end up doing nothing." she shouted back at him. Tears were starting to form at the corners of her eyes.
"Hermione please don't cry." Harry pleaded.
He hated seeing her like this. She cried often due to pregnancy hormones. It still didn't change the way he felt about it when she did though.
"Harry let me finish first. I know you think it's best for me and the baby that we stay out of the war zone. I hate that you're keeping me out of things I feel I should be in. I love you, but I think a part of me deep down inside hates you because you refuse to let me be there like I always have been.
"It's okay to hate me." Harry said trying to comfort her. "I just don't want you to get hurt. I will never and I don't try to control you. If you think your up to it you can fight. If you feel though that you can't please don't. I really don't want you hurt out there. It's your decision in the end."
"Thank you Harry but that's only half of it. The other part has nothing to do with war. It's nore of how I feel about, us, about our marriage."
"Okay?" Harry asked wanting to know more. He didn't like the way it sounded when she said it but he intended to get through it like pulling of a bandage. If it was painful he wanted to just get it over with.
"We've been friends for how long? Six almost weven years. It just seems that we went from a long thought out friendship to boyfriend/girlfriend, fiancee(though never said) to husband. In less than a month. Saying less than a month however is putting it nicely, not to mention vague.
"Are you saying that your insecure about the marriage?" Harry asked before continuing,"I love you. I've never exactly shown that for anyone except for you Sirius, and maybe Ginny. We both know how the last one turned out. You're always there supporting me and I think it's time for me to do the same for you. I'm not the best at showing emotions. I sure can try and I promise to do the best I can at it."
Hermione leaned in against the bed and mouthed a thank you. They mt in a lingering kiss which quickly turned into much more. They let loose all the passion they had kept inside for so long. They had reached an understanding. Along with that came a new level and more love in their relationship.
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"I don't think I want to go downstairs." Hermione muttered into Harry's chest.
"We have to at some point."
"Right now though?"
"We have to set an example as the heads." Harry said
Hermione just laughed and rolled over on top of Harry. She kissed him on the cheek the got up moving towards the bathroom.
Of course they arrived at the breakfast table late. They didn't have any classes today but still everyone was up and running. They really didn't sleep last night so as far as appearances they didn't really care. They were sleepy so nothing special. Just to get them through breakfast then go back to sleep later.
"Hi Harry, Hermione, you guys look like the waking dead?" Ginny pointed out.
"Thanks Ginny, I already feel horrible about myself." she snapped.
They found a space to sit with Ron,
"What's wrong with you two?" Ron asked once they sat down.
"What do you mean?" Harry asked.
Hermione started reaching over and putting a plate together.
"I mean your wearing your rings." Ron answered.
"That was intentional." Harry said. "And since it's been revealed since the game there's no reason to hide them."
"Besides I like mine." Hermione said looking at her silver rune engraved one. Finally going back to spreading jam on toast.
"You seem so happy." Ron also mentioned.
"We are happy." Harry said.
Hermione pushed the plate she prepared in front of him.
"Thank you honey"
"Welcome sweetheart." Hermione said.
"And..."
"Ron, Shut up." They pleaded. Seeing the look on his face they changed.
"Look, it's just me and Hermione reached an understanding. We rediscovered ourselves how we felt and still feel about each other and added to that. I'm going to work on showing emotions and we're going to learn more about how to act like a couple."
"That's so sweet." Hermione said.
"You were there when we agreed on it."
"It's still nice to here. I also want you to be honest with me."
"Sure, so I guess it's time for me to tell you that I'm taking up healing as well. Not really taking it as a class but you know researching it."
"I really have rubbed off on you." Hermione said gladness shown in her voice.
"You have no idea how much!"
"First though I think that we ought to finish off with the Chamber of Secrets after all their coming next week. Now that I think about it, it doesn't make sense to make all these adjustments when we get out school in two months."
A/N: I know it was unusually long until I was able to post this update but I had to get summer reading done before I could do this with good conscience
