A/N Hi, all! SOOOOO sorry it took me so long to update. It's been hectic, what with my missions trip to Grenada, and vacation and a summer assignment that I haven't had time. So, I'll put up more than one chapter this time! Yay!
Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans. TT
Chapter Four
Summer vacation's been here and gone. I passed fifth grade, but just barely. I'm now in sixth grade. Mom was actually kinda receptive about the whole 'powers' issue, and I've gotten it pretty much under control. Oh, and my birthday passed as well. I'm now 11. And still short. Oh well. I'm not in as much stress as I was last year, and I've begun to get over the divorce (with the help of the school counselor. XP Oh well . . .)
Oh, and I'm getting pretty good on guitar, and piano. Grandma's teaching me piano as well. It's actually fun! (What's next, the harp? Joke, ok?) I might actually be able to make a living with music. Providing that I'm able to pass school. Oh, and believe me, middle school is TOUGH! We change classes and there's no recess. Darn . . . I miss recess . . . but that's one more time that the bullies can't beat me up. I never start fights at school, and I try not to finish them either. Mom doesn't want me getting a bloody nose at school.
Mom tries not to show it, but I think that she's really worried about Dad. We haven't heard anything about him (or from him, not that he writes or calls or anything.) But, I guess in his case, no news is good news. However, there have been reports of some 'Super Villain' on the West Coast calling himself 'Slade.' Naturally, Mom's a bit tense. I think that it's just one of those co-inky-dinks. And Dad's assassin name is 'Deathstroke the Terminator,' Slade Wilson's his real name. I don't think he's stupid enough to call himself by his real name. Is he? I know that those drugs messed him up, but is he that far gone? I hope not.
Grandma tries to get me to church as much as possible. But I still like sleeping in on Sunday. She says that it's important to go to church on Sundays. But I'm not sure if I believe like she does. You know, I'm not sure if I'm a Christian or not. I really don't get this stuff. A kid born in a horse trough, a guy talking to a flaming bush, a guy taking all the animals on a boat and letting everyone but his family drown. Then there's this 'Jesus.' Did you know he supposedly was killed like a criminal? And this is one of the most important men in this religion? A guy who died like a thief? Who writes this stuff anyway? Is it possibly something someone made up and wrote down as a joke? Grandma says that there are religions (she called them 'cults') that were made up as a joke, and people believe them. Wild or what?
Then there's this 'communion' thing. They pass around these trays with little cups on them, and others with tiny crackers, and they talk about the bread being this 'Jesus's' body and the juice being his blood. I have one thing to say on that topic. EWW, EWW, EWW, EWW! That is so NASTY! Who comes up with these things?
I just don't understand this. Oh, and my nightmares come almost every night now. And the most frequent is the running dream. No matter how hard or far I run, my shadow is never far behind. He's either desperate or crazy. Maybe both if it's my dad. Several times I've tried to see who's following me, but every time he eludes me. It's like he wants to find me, but doesn't want me to see him. Maybe it is Dad. That's not cool. But I want to know, and now more than ever. Maybe he'll show himself to me at a later date. Who knows?
Searching
Turned around
Looking around
Up, down,
Not wanting to be found.
Not sure who or what I am,
Running like a man on the lam.
Who are you?
What must I do
To see your face
To find the place
Where I belong.
J.W.W.
Is it ok? Please tell me, I need reviews! Thank you all for reading. I'm hopefully going to be posting another christian TT fic called "Forevermore." It's about the television series Titans, but when they're college-age. (And written from Raven's point of view.) Oh, and Melvin, Tommy and Teether are part of the new Teen Titans. (Only Teether has a name! It's Billy!) Look for it in the very near future!
