I woke up screaming from my nightmare, it took a minute or 2 for me to get back to reality and a bit longer to calm down. Without Jasper's help it would take while to calm down, I beset by warring emotions happiness for seeing all who I loved and cared for, sadness it all a dream (before the last part this) that could never be possible and that nostalgic yearning could never be, anger that I felt powerless to protect myself, feeble and weak to do anything.
Fear too, not just because of the hellish scene and for myself but some how the dream was an omen, that the specter of violence is always stalking me, lurching in the dark to surprise me and those close to me. No! I thought I'm being silly. I looked over to my and saw it was nearly 10:45am! I was sure past my normal waking time.
The nightmare's effects were dissipating but fear lingered on. Since I became a Cullen, the vulnerability I felt of being attacked has been remedied by combat training. While the training would do squat against vampires, I felt better knowing it would help against humans and hopefully give vampires some hell. There were concerns of the dangers it would pose, I insisted that I train with the Cullens and Alice's assurance nothing bad was going to happen, reluctantly agreed. Emmett said he was impressed by the size of my "big balls" for demanding to train with vampires. Emmett, Edward, Alice, Jasper and Carlisle helped except Esme who felt the others were already enough. Jasper the most apprehensive to train me, fighting style had the most influcence on mine. I figured doing some shadow boxing and exercise would be helpful.
Those few days away, were a reprieve from all the recent regular and irregular drama. I did some school work and did some errands, it was the 2nd day of my stay Esme called.
"Hi, Esme! Just picked those packages Carlisle ordered."
"Hello Rosalie! Good. Just calling to tell you can come home. Mmm… okay I'll ask her."
"Ask me what?"
"It's just Alice, she's asking if you've got those dresses she asked for."
"Tell her I got this, anything else?" I asked
"Yes! I wanna say we love you." I practically heard the smile in her voice.
"Eerr… love you too." Came my unequal reply. I made me feel like a jerk at times for being some what reserved in reciprocating affection.
Retuning home my family greeted me like I was a favorite cousin coming in for christmas, though it might be because I came bearing gifts. Esme, Carlisle, Alice greeted with hugs while Jasper and Edward shook my hands.
Lastly Emmett grabbed me in a bear hug, spinning me around and exclaiming: "Our princess has survived! She has survived!" with pure joy.
His antics made me giggle and, "Yes! Emmett some how I managed survive staying in a hotel with room service and restaurant quality food! It was dreadful but I preserved."
Placing me down Emmett had me in a head lock and started to nudgie me.
Blurring next to us. TAP! TAP! TAP! TAP! Alice's hands went over Emmett's. "Hey! You oaf! You're ruining her crown! Alice scolded him. Emmett released me looking at Alice like kid caught doing something he was told to stop doing but kept on doing it and saying Oopies! Afterwards "we" ate dinner the gifts given, I went sleep to get ready for school.
I wanted be at my best tomorrow, I had some unfinished business to attend.
