"Which one do you think I should wear tonight?" Raven asked, feigning excitement over tonight's date with Crystal. She held up her pink blazer and then her khaki one for Chelsea's approval.
Chelsea looked up from her biology notes, and studied the two articles of clothing. She was wearing her reading glasses, and had the most adorable look on her face, as she gave the question serious thought. She pursed her lips and it was all Raven could do not to go over and kiss her. "Depends on where you're going."
"Huh?" Raven asked, blushing that she'd been caught staring at her best friend's lips.
"I said it depends on where you're going."
"Oh, well, it's supposed to be a surprise. Casual but not too casual so it's khaki with my blue jeans or pink with my brown pants." She'd been dating Crystal for over two months, and she had the feeling it was about to end. She still wasn't ready to get serious, but she definitely got the feeling that Crystal was. The older girl had been hinting at it for the last week. Asking Raven about her plans over the holidays, asking when Raven was going to invite her over to the Chill Grill so that she could meet her father. Things Raven was definitely not ready to talk about. And then it happened; her sight became blurred and she was frozen in place.
"Raven, I love you…""You just had a vision didn't you? What was it?" Chelsea asked standing and walking over to Raven.
"It was Crystal. She told me she loved me." Raven said quietly. She knew that tonight would be the last night she would ever go out with Crystal.
"That's…great, Rae." Chelsea said. Raven thought her friend's voice sounded a little weird, but she couldn't worry about that right now.
"Yeah, it's great."
Why couldn't it be you?
Biscuitheadchels: Eddie, Eddie are you there?
Biscuitheadchels: Eddie it's an emergency!
DJEddieT: Chelsea, what's wrong?
Biscuitheadchels: The worst thing in the world has happened…
DJEddieT: OMG! What happened? Are you ok? Is it Raven? Chelsea answer me!
Biscuitheadchels: I would if you would stop typing for one minute.
Biscuitheadchels: Raven had a vision.
DJEddieT: Ok…and?
Biscuitheadchels: And in the vision Crystal told Raven she loved her. Eddie I don't know what to do. I can't deal with this. I can't. It's hard enough for me to pretend to be happy for her now, but this.
DJEddieT: Chels, calm down. I think maybe it's time for you to tell Raven how you feel.
Biscuitheadchels: Eddie…you know I can't do that. I couldn't handle it if she told me she loved Crystal more.
DJEddieT: But Chelsea, what do you have to lose?
Biscuitheadchels: Raven
DJEddieT: But if she's in love with Crystal haven't you already lost her?
Biscuitheadchels: I…guess…I don't know…maybe…
DJEddieT: Come Chelsea, I think you should just tell her.
Biscuitheadchels: Maybe you're right. I really don't have anything else to lose. Thanks Eddie.
DJEddieT: No prob. That's what I'm here for.
Chelsea stood up from her computer and mulled over her decision. Eddie had a point; either way, she stood to lose Raven. A shiver went down her spine at that thought. What's the worst thing that could happen, right? She paced the room, going back and forth over her decision for the next half an hour. Raven wouldn't be home for at least another two or three hours so she had some time.
"Raven, you know how you're a lesbian, well guess what I'm one too. I know it's a shock, but ever since the prom I've had these feelings for you…No, that's no good." Chelsea said, berating herself. "Hey Rae, I know you have a girlfriend, but I was thinking, maybe you would dump her and give me a chance." Yeah right, Daniels, who are you kidding? "Hey Raven, -"
"Hey, Chels…" Came a reply from behind her.
She swung around, not having heard Raven enter. I wonder how much of that she heard. "You're home early. I wasn't expecting you for at least another…" The words died on her lips as she saw Raven's shoulders shaking as she sobbed silently. "Ohmygod, Raven what's wrong? Are you hurt? Did Crystal…"
"No, I'm fine. Well as well as can be expected." Raven said through her tears. "We broke up."
"Broke up! But Rae, your vision…" Chelsea said though a part of her heart soared at the revelation.
"I know. It came true. That's the problem." She said walking over to her bed and flopping down.
"Okay, I'm not following you." Chelsea replied walking over and sitting next to her on the bed, surprised when the sobbing girl laid her head on her shoulder.
"Well, my vision came true. Crystal told me she loved me, but I…I couldn't say it back…" Raven sobbed.
"Wait, what? Why couldn't you say it back?"
"Because I don't love her. I...she knew that I wasn't looking for anything serious. I'm just…not ready for anything serious."
"You're not?" Chelsea asked, her revelation dying on her lips.
"No, I can't handle it right now." Raven sniffed.
"Oh…" Was all Chelsea could manage to choke out.
"And I know it's not fair to keep…keep seeing her when I knew she was expecting more from me, more from us. So I broke up with her." Raven hiccupped. "I did the right thing…right Chelsea?" She asked, her honey colored eyes looking up at her friend. Chelsea felt her heart melt.
"Of course you did, honey. If you're not ready, you're not ready." She replied wrapping her arms around Raven and pulling her into a hug. She pressed her lips to her forehead. She felt Raven press her lips to the side of her neck, and she closed her eyes. She could barely contain the moan that sprung to her throat, but as soon as the lips were there, they were gone again.
She got up to move over to her bed, but a hand on her arm stopped her. "Chelsea…" Raven said almost uncertainly.
"Yeah Rae?"
"Do you think maybe…I mean you don't have to, but I was just wondering if…" Raven stopped closing her eyes a moment before continuing. "Do you think you could hold me tonight? At least until I fall asleep. It's ok if you don't want to. I know it sounds kind of weird…"Raven babbled.
"Of course I will." Chelsea interrupted. Whoa there Daniels, don't get too excited. She just couldn't help herself, a chance to hold Raven in her arms. It was too good to resist. She turned and walked into their bathroom to change into her pajamas. When she came back into the room, she found Raven changed and sitting in her bed. She climbed in the bed, and Raven slid between her and the wall, and she reached over and turned off the light before letting her hand slip over Raven middle.
"Chelsea…"
"Yeah Rae?"
"Thanks…"
"No problem."
She lay awake long after Raven's breathing had evened out. Silently her heart was breaking. The last thing Raven needed to hear was a confession of love from Chelsea. She wasn't ready to love anybody, especially not Chelsea.
No problem at all…
