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Ch.19 Lost faith

The next few days were tiresome for Harry. Renee was on an emotional rollercoaster with no explanation as to why she would be happy one second then crying the next.

"I'm sure it's just the hormones, Harry." she would try to reassure him "I'm sorry you have to deal with me like this." she'd laugh.

Harry would've kept believeing that if it wasn't for that slip-up Renee had the other night. Harry woke up hearing Renee in her room, crying and calling out, thrashing in her bed.

"Renee?" Harry knocked gently, he knew that nothing 'dirty' was going on since Snape wasn't there, so he opened the door and entered.

"Renee? Are you ok?" he crept over to the side of her bed, now he could see the tears streaming down her pain contorted face. Reaching out to give her shoulder a slight shake "Renee, wake up. You're having a nightmare.

The second he shook her she sat bolt upright, gripped onto Harry's arm and shouted "No! James!", her eyes fluttered then and she soon fell back asleep.

He asked her about it in the morning, casually, of course, but she simply shrugged "James, huh? Weird...I don't remember my dream at all.".

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"So she didn't deny saying James or even knowing a James?" Tonks raised an eyebrow, looking around hopeful.

"No...but, James is a common name, isn't it?" Harry frowned, taking a sip of the tea Remus had made for his visit there.

"Oh please! Dumbledore gave her that concoction to start remembering things and she just so happens to say 'James'?" Tonks placed her hands on her hips and tapped her foot.

"I want to believe that Renee is Cecelia just as much as you do. But we can't keep jumping to conclusions and getting worked up over minor coincedences like that." Remus sighed, sinking into the wornout recliner he was currently occupying.

"Well, I have to go..." Harry finished off his tea then headed for the door "I'll let you two know if anything else happens, alright?".

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Before Harry went back to the flat he stopped by the Burrow, to invite Ron and Hermione over for dinner, where he retold the suspicious story of Renee's odd dream screams.

As the three instantly apparated from inside the Weasly house to inside Renee's, they were quickly alerted to the sounds of crying coming from the living room.

"Renee?" Harry called out as he rushed toward the room where Renee tossed and turned on the couch, tissues in each hand, tears running down her pale face. Dart lay by her feet, almost with an exasperated expression...but, dogs can't really display such emotions...can they?

Ron and Hermione slowly crept in behind Harry, the brunette gasped and ran over to the older woman "Renee, what's wrong.

Renee uttered a few incoherent words while waving her arms frantically, at this point Harry swore he saw Dart roll his eyes and shake his head.

"What? You didn't want the cookie?" Ron asked, having caught only a few words in Renee's sobbed out ramblings. She practically snorted as a small chuckle escaped her lips, shaking her head she tried to explain again.

"I came in here to relax and watch the tele, but then..." she trailed off as she clicked the T.V. set on and a all four of them were greeted with a diaper commercial. Renee sniffled then burst into another fit while crying out "Will my baby be cute enough for that?".

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He knew he should see her, he did want to see her, but..."Ugh, with how emotional she's been lately, it's as if everything I do or say is just...wrong!". Severus paced before his mentor, the old wizard barely nodded, barely even listening to the younger mans rant.

"The other day I bought her that ridiculously priced coffee she loves so much...how did she react? She threw the damned cup at me, screaming something about caffiene!".

"It's bad for the baby..." Dumbledore mumbled then looked up, feeling the younger mans eyes bore into him as if hoping the glare could set the old wizard ablaze.

"Severus, if you'll allow me to say this..." Albus carefully removed his half-moon specs to clean them, sighing slightly "...I think you are exagerrating the situation.

Black eyes widened in a mix of shock and denial "Why would I do that?", "Because you don't want the responsabilities of parenthood and you're doubting whether or not she's Cecelia, which I say what does it matter if she is or not?".

Dumbledore frowned at the blank stare Severus was giving him, after a few seconds of awkward silence the black haired wizard sputtered out "That...that's the stupidest thing I ever..." but trailed off, unable to lie to the man he looked up to as a father figure.

"You enjoy the chase, the search...but what to do when that is all done and over with?" the old wizard asked, not directly to Severus but the black haired man knew better.

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Renee quickly moved into her bedroom to allow Harry and his guests some time to chat amongst themselves. She was most relieved relieved when Harry offered to make dinner that night.

Carefully sprawling herself out on her bed, Dart beside her, she reached out to stroke behind his ears and whispered "Good timing for that commercial, eh Dart?".

In all honesty, Renee couldn't really explain what had made her so upset. True, she was watching some television, but it wasn't one simple diaper commercial that brought her to such a dramatic state.

First, as she was flipping through the channels, she came across the movies, Romeo and Juliette, then, When Harry Met Sally...as well as many baby product commercials, diamond ring commercials...she even cried over a coffee commercial, 'Damn the caffiene factor!'.

"It is all worth it, though..." Renee smiled at her small baby bump, she gently trailed her fingers across her tummy to watch for a kick.

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Severus visited less and less, he would send letters saying he was too busy to leave the castle. At first, Renee would cry about it...now, she just seems to stew in anger, crumpling each letter and then having Dart play catch with the wads of excuses.

Harry was growing more and more concerned for Renee and the baby as her anger would lessen her appetite, he came home one day to find her trying to move furniture even. She spent more time with Dart than anyone else, whenever Laina and Camron came by, it was almost a forced effort to get her to interact...

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"So what have you been doing to help during all this?" Tonks quirked an eyebrow at the four-eyed teen/adult.

Harry frowned at the question, slightly ashamed that he honestly hasn't done or said anything to his flat-mate/landlady...well, except when she tried to move furniture, he stopped her and nearly threw his back out to move the furniture for her.

"I don't think anything Harry or you or even I could do or say would help the situation..." Remus cut in, which Harry was thankful for.

Tonks pouted and huffed but knew he was right, Remus turned his attention to Harry, who seemed very confused, and explained "Severus is the one who needs to do something about this.

"That idiot better do something soon!" Tonks blurted, no longer able to quietly grumble to herself "You don't just ditch a pregnant women...who knows what could happen?".

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Renee rolled over, grumbled and tried to run a hand through her hair...tried, being the key word here..."OW! Damned knotty shit!" she managed to say through gritted teeth while struggling to free her hand from her head.

After finally managing that task and getting out of bed from her...third nap? She moved into the bathroom to take a good look at herself in the mirror.

"Wow..." she examined her reflection from every possible angle "...I need a shower...big time.".

Her long, dark hair was nearly bunched up ontop of her head in one giant knot, her usually clear, glowing skin was looking a little greasey...lets not even go into the clothing situation.

Turning the knobs to the perfect temperature, getting herself ready for a shower, she glanced at the mirror one more time and shook her head with a sigh "I'm over it.".

She's over it? Over what? What is this crazy this I've written? Hahaha, Like how the story is turning? Happy the I updated at all? Please, review!