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Chapter Four- Some Needed Answers
Olivia sat with the back of her head against the wall and her eyes closed. Her thoughts, prayers and wishes were all with the man behind those doors. She focused on every memory, every innocent touch and everything she hadn't done with that man. She no longer had anymore tears left to cry and she stared at the doors waiting for anyone to come out.
She told him she loved him. Sure he was unconscious, but the fact remained that she said the words. What would he say? she thought to herself. Does he feel the same way? She pulled her hands into her lap and remembered him lying there. How much fear still ran in her veins that she might lose him. No matter what he said, he had to know. He had to know she loved him.
Her thought suddenly shifted when she saw the doctor and nurse from when they first arrived walk through the doors. "Im looking for an Olivia Stabler."
"Im sorry, its Olivia Benson. Elliot is my partner." She said walking up to the physicians.
"Im sorry, he was calling for an Olivia. I just assumed you were his wife. I apologize." The doctor said to Olivia.
"That's no problem. Please just update me on Elliot's condition."
"Now, it seems Mr. Stabler has overworked himself. With the medications we give him in treatments, he shouldn't be at work at all. We have suggested the idea of chemo, but he said he won't consider it. Maybe you can speak with him."
"Sure, anything I can do to help," she said.
"Okay, he is in room 118. Also, Ms. Benson, do you know his living situation?"
"Um, he's been divorced for a while now, so he lives alone. His daughters come by a lot since he's received treatments."
"Well, if there is any way he can move in with someone, it would be better for him. He shouldn't be alone in his condition."
"Im sorry, doctor, I have one more question."
"Sure, what is it that you need Ms. Benson?"
This was going to be the hardest question she had ever asked in her life. "Um... How long... um... Im sorry..." She took a deep breath to try and gain some composure to finish her question. "How long does he have, doctor?"
The nurse noticed the tears threatening to escape her eyes and held her hand. The doctor answered her, "Ms. Benson. Because Mr. Stabler refuses treatment, we don't see him living longer than 6-9 months. Im sorry."
Her heart stopped at the time the doctor gave her. The threatening tears won and escaped her eyes. They were silent for a minute and then looked back at them. "May I see him?"
"Yes. Once he has a place to stay, he can leave." The doctor and nurse left her and she made her way down the hall.
When she stepped into his room, his eyes were closed. He wasn't asleep though. He took deeper breaths when he slept and his chest sunk lower. She wiped away the tears and moved to the chair beside him.
Elliot woke up remembering her words. I love you, El. He stirred in the hospital bed but refused to open his eyes. He didn't need a reminder to see where he was. However, he felt calmer. He felt her enter the room and looked and saw her beside her. "Hey," he said in a groggy tone.
"Shhh..." she said standing up giving him a kiss on the forehead, "Rest now."
Her lip prints seemed to burn his skin and he melted from her warmth. He opened his eyes and took in her appearance. He saw the tear stains on her cheeks and her defeated slump. "I need to ask you something, Liv."
She took his hand and looked up at him with tears in her eyes. She couldn't speak or her tears would win. She nodded and he continued. "Did you mean it?"
She swallowed. "Mean what?"
"When you said you loved me, did you mean it?"
She lifted her head and stared intently into his deep blue gaze. She took her hand and moved it over his face. "Yes," she said with another tear escaping her eyes, "Every word."
"Good, because I love you, too. I have for a long time." He smiled at her. "Come here," he said motioning her to him. She obliged and was met with his lips. Their kiss was sweet and soft and long. It was filled with the love they had held for each other for years. When it ended, she looked into his eyes and kissed him lightly on the nose. She sat on the bed and they stayed in silence.
They stared at each other for a while and she leaned in and kissed him again. "I have a proposition for you, detective."
"What?" He said with a smile.
"Why don't you move in with me?" She saw his stunned features and laughed. "The doctors said you shouldn't live alone. If you don't mind, I'd like to live with you." She put on a shy smile and looked down at their hands on her lap.
"I'd like that, Liv. I'd like that a lot." She smiled and kissed him again, more passionately and hungry than the first. He moaned at her touch and she smiled at his persistence. "Not here," he mumbled to her lips. "Wait until we get home."
"Home?" she said with tears coming back in her eyes.
"Home."
He smiled back at her and leaned in to kiss her when the doctor came back in. "I guess I know what your living arrangements are now, don't I Mr. Stabler?"
Olivia blushed at the comment and Elliot laughed, tightening his hold on her hands. "Well, its safe to say you do," he said smiling at him.
"Well, not to burst your bubble, but we need an answer."
"An answer?"
"Yes. Mr. Stabler, we need to know if you are going to receive the chemotherapy. You would have more treatments, but it might help your chances."
He stared at Olivia and saw the pain in her eyes. He knew that their time together was running out, but he loved her for almost ten years. He looked into her eyes and longed for her spark. He knew that those treatment didn't guarantee that he had longer time with her. He shook his head and looked back at the doctor. "Im sorry, but my answer is no."
"But El..."
"No, Liv. Im not going to do something that doesn't guarantee that we get more time together." He saw the tears pool in her eyes and he lifted his hand on her warm cheek. "I would rather die knowing that I lived the last of it to the fullest with the woman I loved than go through more and more painful exhausting treatments to die in the same amount of time." He caught the tears that escaped her eyes and wiped them away. He turned back to the doctor. "Again, Im sorry, doctor, but I can't do it without guarantees."
"I understand Mr. Stabler. I'd like to see you for treatments next week."
"It is already scheduled."
"Okay, your forms are complete, so you are free to leave when you choose."
"Who filled them out?"
"I did." Olivia said looking into his eyes. "I thought you knew that by now." She smiled and kissed him lightly on the cheek."
"I should be going," the doctor said. "I'll see you next week, Mr. Stabler."
"Thank you doctor," Olivia said as he left. When he left she turned to him and smiled sadly at him. "Are you sure you are okay with this?"
"Yeah," he said kissing her. "I want to be with you," he kissed her leaning his forehead against hers, "while I still can."
"Don't," she said pushing her lips against his. "Not now." She stared into his eyes and smiled at him. "Lets get you home, El."
How will Elliot and Olivia live their lives together while he's still alive? Find out next. Well, there's that. Read and Review and I'll update soon! Thanks again, guys!
